What is love? The question that I have asked so many times. It's been almost a year since have joined the rat race. It's been a turmoil for my life. So many things changed, so many things happen. I don't know where to say for the better or for the worse. I guess it had changed me in so many ways. I learn...
I want to just not look back and forgive. Not keep talking about the past. Learn from mistakes and not dwell on them. But why is it so damn difficult, why does it still hurt me this much? Life really have been easier if you're asking me. But many parts of me still feel that pinch. Many I dived in too deep. Did too much. Maybe even a large part of me had expected too much.
I'm sorry to those I have hurt lately from my emotional swings and bad temper. I searching for myself again. I'm picking up the pieces and trying to live happier and stronger. I will try to not feel too cheated or betrayed. I will try to accept things. On the oter hand, I really hope other parties involved will understand and stay strong too.
I have got myself into deep shit. Too deep that I'm struggling myself. But sometimes it feels that I'm struggling alone. I know I had gotten myself into this and should solve it myself. In time i will heal... In time I will once again pick up the broken and find the lost pieces.
My sincere apologies to those involved... truly...
Saturday, July 18, 2009
Friday, July 17, 2009
Hard For Me To Say I'm Sorry
Everybody needs a little time away,
I heard her say, from eachother.
Even lovers need a holiday,
far away, from each other.
Hold me now.
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to stay.
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to you, I promise you. ( baby)
And after all that's been said and done.
You're just the part of me I can't let go.
Couldn't stand to be kept away,
Not for a day, from your body. ( not even a day)
Wouldn't want to be swept away, (away)
far away, from the one that I love.
Hold me now.
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to know. (you to no)
Hold me now.
I really want to tell you I'm sorry.
I could never've let you go.
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to you.
I promise you.
And after all that's been said and done.
You're just a part of me I can't let go. ( i cant let go)
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to.
I promise to.
You're gonna be the lucky one.
When we get there gonna jump in the air.
No one sees us cause there's nobody there.
After all you know we really don't care.
Hold on, I was gonna take you away.
I heard her say, from eachother.
Even lovers need a holiday,
far away, from each other.
Hold me now.
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to stay.
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to you, I promise you. ( baby)
And after all that's been said and done.
You're just the part of me I can't let go.
Couldn't stand to be kept away,
Not for a day, from your body. ( not even a day)
Wouldn't want to be swept away, (away)
far away, from the one that I love.
Hold me now.
It's hard for me to say I'm sorry.
I just want you to know. (you to no)
Hold me now.
I really want to tell you I'm sorry.
I could never've let you go.
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to you.
I promise you.
And after all that's been said and done.
You're just a part of me I can't let go. ( i cant let go)
After all that we've been through.
I will make it up to.
I promise to.
You're gonna be the lucky one.
When we get there gonna jump in the air.
No one sees us cause there's nobody there.
After all you know we really don't care.
Hold on, I was gonna take you away.
*****
I hope it's not too late... I really miss you. I'm sorry for how I've been lately... my temper, my threats... my emotions... I miss you, I really do. I'm sorry for being difficult... I don't know what to do to prove how bad and horible I feel lately, but I just really need a sign from you...