ok...i take back my words... i want to stay alive... haha~!!! ok... the reason of my below post was because i'm worried sick of my exam results and dare not check it at all... now i finally collected enough courage to check it and i actualli passed everything and i'm like really really happy. i did very badly but i just want to pass and enjoy the rest of my holidays... now that i know that i passed everything and don't have to sit for supplimentry paper, i'm happy~!!!! hahaha~!!!!
yay~!!! now i can enjoy myself to the max in singapore next week... be happy for me too ok... ahahaha~!!! yay~!!! shop till i drop next week~!!! ahahahah~!!!
Friday, October 28, 2005
eat me up please~!!!!
right now all i really want is for the ground to open and swallow me up~!!!! i don't know the reason why am i living~!!!! this life is so suffering... i don't like how i am feeling now... aaaarghhh~!!!!
Friday, October 21, 2005
Friends cafe
This is at Friend's Cafe
When there with Yong Hwee and May Pin for dinner on Tuesday night. that place is nice...
Tuesday, October 18, 2005
bored~!!!!
ok...5 weeks holidays is not fun at all... i'm slowly reducing to dust day by day... haha~!!!
anyway... reason i'm blogging now is because i want to express how much i miss a person i once named my special friend. he is special to me because though he was foul-mouthed and a bully - especially towards me, but behind that bad image that he potrayed, he was actually a very caring, but angry teenager.
he has choosen a different path to be a person i hardly know now. and i've not been speaking to him for more than a year already. and i really miss the friend i knew. all because of the huge unnecessary misunderstanding that we had a year before, everything shattered and went down the drain.
i don't even know if he considers me as a friend now. though i don't see how our friendship could be like the years that we were frinds, but i really wish to be calling him my special friend again. if only we could open our hearts and forgive each other... i really miss this friend.
anyway... reason i'm blogging now is because i want to express how much i miss a person i once named my special friend. he is special to me because though he was foul-mouthed and a bully - especially towards me, but behind that bad image that he potrayed, he was actually a very caring, but angry teenager.
he has choosen a different path to be a person i hardly know now. and i've not been speaking to him for more than a year already. and i really miss the friend i knew. all because of the huge unnecessary misunderstanding that we had a year before, everything shattered and went down the drain.
i don't even know if he considers me as a friend now. though i don't see how our friendship could be like the years that we were frinds, but i really wish to be calling him my special friend again. if only we could open our hearts and forgive each other... i really miss this friend.
Thursday, October 13, 2005
Lonestar - Amazed
Every time our eyes meet
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night
In your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
*Everytime I listen to this song, my legs become jelly... so nice...*
This feeling inside me
Is almost more than I can take
Baby when you touch me
I can feel how much you love me
And it just blows me away
I've never been this close to anyone or anything
I can hear your thoughts
I can see your dreams
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
The smell of your skin
The taste of your kiss
The way you whisper in the dark
Your hair all around me
Baby you surround me
You touch every place in my heart
Oh, it feels like the first time every time
I wanna spent the whole night
In your eyes
I don't know how you do what you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
Every little thing that you do
I'm so in love with you
It just keeps getting better
I wanna spend the rest of my life
With you by my side
Forever and ever
Every little thing that you do
Every little thing that you do
Baby I'm amazed by you
*Everytime I listen to this song, my legs become jelly... so nice...*
Wake Me Up When September Ends
Green Day - Wake Me Up When September Ends Lyrics
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
Seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again.
Like we did when spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rest,
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass.
Twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass,
Seven years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rests
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Ring out the bells again.
Like we did when spring began.
Wake me up when September ends.
Here comes the rain again,
Falling from the stars.
Drenched in my pain again,
Becoming who we are.
As my memory rest,
But never forgets what I lost.
Wake me up when September ends.
Summer has come and past.
The innocent can never last.
Wake me up when September ends.
Like my fathers come to pass.
Twenty years has gone so fast.
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Wake me up when September ends
Monday, October 10, 2005
mum's birthday present
i forgot to mention my mum's birthday present:-
my sister, her boyfriend manwell, my brother, his girlfriend rachel, and i shared and bought my mum a gold sapphire ring. yay~!!!
not very clear lar the picture, but really... it's pretty.
my sister, her boyfriend manwell, my brother, his girlfriend rachel, and i shared and bought my mum a gold sapphire ring. yay~!!!
not very clear lar the picture, but really... it's pretty.
Wednesday, October 05, 2005
eeyer...~!!!
end of april there was this brown stray dog don't know come from where wan, came to my house. quite pretty lar. she stayed in the longkang at my house. sometimes you will see her around the compound in front of my house, sometimes she also will curi masuk my house. at first my whole family did not like her because she is so smelly. but after a while, she managed to capture all our hearts.
we begun feeding her everyday. she stayed on at my house from then. somewhere in august, she suddenly manstruted. then her smell, i guess, attracted many male dogs from around the area. my parents was so angry and started chasing her from our house because male dogs of all shapes and sizes were flocking at our places. so the dog did not come back for a while.
after a few weeks, she suddenly came back. knowing that she most probably was pregnant already, my parents were sort of reluctant to feed her again. but then again, somehow we tak sampai hati. so we continued feeding her and she is at my house ever since. she's pregnant and about to give birth and she's still pretty filty and full of kutu. haha~!!!
here are a few pictures of her:-
we begun feeding her everyday. she stayed on at my house from then. somewhere in august, she suddenly manstruted. then her smell, i guess, attracted many male dogs from around the area. my parents was so angry and started chasing her from our house because male dogs of all shapes and sizes were flocking at our places. so the dog did not come back for a while.
after a few weeks, she suddenly came back. knowing that she most probably was pregnant already, my parents were sort of reluctant to feed her again. but then again, somehow we tak sampai hati. so we continued feeding her and she is at my house ever since. she's pregnant and about to give birth and she's still pretty filty and full of kutu. haha~!!!
here are a few pictures of her:-
Saturday, October 01, 2005
after whinning
haha~!!! finally finished 80% of my exams. just one more paper to go, next friday. right after the paper yesterday, we went to jusco to celebrate alex's birthday. then right after that hooi ling and i went to mp for a movie. we watched the myth. i was actually litterally dragged by my legs to go for that movie but it turned out a nice movie. i liked the concept of them crossing the spiritual and scientific believes. and also crossing the past and present.
it's a story if jack (jackie chan), a scientist who kept having dreams about himself being an ancient worrior general, general meng yi. the worrior played the part of protecting Princess Li and keeping her in safe hands until she is delivered to the Emporer to be one of his concubines. during their journey they were attacked leaving meng yi and li to find their way on foot to their country. as usual li fell in love with meng yi. being loyal to his country, meng yi still has to bring his emporer the concubine. li was upset and wanted to suicide, but meng yi made her promise that she will live at least for him.
basically the movie is interesting and nice. anyway, i've been spending really a lot lately. i need to control myself. haha~!!!
it's a story if jack (jackie chan), a scientist who kept having dreams about himself being an ancient worrior general, general meng yi. the worrior played the part of protecting Princess Li and keeping her in safe hands until she is delivered to the Emporer to be one of his concubines. during their journey they were attacked leaving meng yi and li to find their way on foot to their country. as usual li fell in love with meng yi. being loyal to his country, meng yi still has to bring his emporer the concubine. li was upset and wanted to suicide, but meng yi made her promise that she will live at least for him.
basically the movie is interesting and nice. anyway, i've been spending really a lot lately. i need to control myself. haha~!!!
just talking
well, it's really not nice to find out that you've been left out... so many times by people you thought were your friends. i feel like a door mat. why do i say so you might ask, this is because yesterday while celebrating alex's birthday, they were talking about events that happen while celebrating my other friendS birthday. and i realise, i wasn't there~!!!!
ok... im not being childish or anything, but how could they do that? they are my friends... maybe not even friends... they were my so called close friends~!!! but it's ok, thinking back, there could be a lot of reasons. for one, it's obvious, while the rest of my friend (from alpha) still stuck to one another, i could deny that i'm one of them who strayed. i became closer to other people.
bad, bad move, shouldn't have done that. the new people i join in beta did not join me for the same reasons i joined them, i join them for company, friends and fun. they join me for convinience. stupid me. why have i not learn for bad experiences? stupid, stupid, stupid me. now i'm obligated to rejoin my old friends or just stick to the useless brats.
will my old friends think that i'm such a lame come-back kid? if i continue to stick with the rotten ones, they will continue to make full use of me. i want to go back to my old friends, but, not nice to say, i'm shy. but really i like them. though they are not people who really knows the real me, but they are really nice, organised and smart people. the brats i'm befriending now, has no personalities at all, just a bunch of irresponsible and pushy people who does not care about people around them.
live (friends wise) is so different from all the places i have made friends. back in st. davids, we litterally grew up together, if not since we were kids, at least for almost 5 - 10 years. i don't have to be another person when around them, i don't have to hide myself or seal my mouth. we all know each other pretty well.of cause it is normal to have back-stabbing and gossips, but we still love each other in the end. we could talk about almost everything under the sun to each other. and the best part? we still hang out together *240z* till today. they are the best~!!!!
at the temple. we have cliques too. the aunties and uncles, our older brothers and sisters, then us the erm... trouble-makers (according to the older gens of the temple), then the kids. though i'm not too close tothe whole gang like most of them, but i do have a few whom i'm really close. one thing that really highlights them is that they are really concern and caring about one another. all of them never fail to light up your gloomiest days and moods. with them, i can forget about being serious. it is fun and nonsense all day~!!!!
friendship was not stable from the very beginning in mmu. not only i was stuck being in the second batch intake all alone, i was stuck with people who pulled down my self-esteem and confidence for the first 2 months. then things were better with my new found hardworking and sort of fun friends. studies is really important to them and they are a bit conservative. they treated me nice and we went to many places (even places i have never been though being a malaccan). but when beta came, all of us took different majors. so i have to start over. instead of sticking with the clique frpm alpha, stupid me has to go with other people. what have i done~!!!!
live is so weak and unfair~!!!
ok... im not being childish or anything, but how could they do that? they are my friends... maybe not even friends... they were my so called close friends~!!! but it's ok, thinking back, there could be a lot of reasons. for one, it's obvious, while the rest of my friend (from alpha) still stuck to one another, i could deny that i'm one of them who strayed. i became closer to other people.
bad, bad move, shouldn't have done that. the new people i join in beta did not join me for the same reasons i joined them, i join them for company, friends and fun. they join me for convinience. stupid me. why have i not learn for bad experiences? stupid, stupid, stupid me. now i'm obligated to rejoin my old friends or just stick to the useless brats.
will my old friends think that i'm such a lame come-back kid? if i continue to stick with the rotten ones, they will continue to make full use of me. i want to go back to my old friends, but, not nice to say, i'm shy. but really i like them. though they are not people who really knows the real me, but they are really nice, organised and smart people. the brats i'm befriending now, has no personalities at all, just a bunch of irresponsible and pushy people who does not care about people around them.
live (friends wise) is so different from all the places i have made friends. back in st. davids, we litterally grew up together, if not since we were kids, at least for almost 5 - 10 years. i don't have to be another person when around them, i don't have to hide myself or seal my mouth. we all know each other pretty well.of cause it is normal to have back-stabbing and gossips, but we still love each other in the end. we could talk about almost everything under the sun to each other. and the best part? we still hang out together *240z* till today. they are the best~!!!!
at the temple. we have cliques too. the aunties and uncles, our older brothers and sisters, then us the erm... trouble-makers (according to the older gens of the temple), then the kids. though i'm not too close tothe whole gang like most of them, but i do have a few whom i'm really close. one thing that really highlights them is that they are really concern and caring about one another. all of them never fail to light up your gloomiest days and moods. with them, i can forget about being serious. it is fun and nonsense all day~!!!!
friendship was not stable from the very beginning in mmu. not only i was stuck being in the second batch intake all alone, i was stuck with people who pulled down my self-esteem and confidence for the first 2 months. then things were better with my new found hardworking and sort of fun friends. studies is really important to them and they are a bit conservative. they treated me nice and we went to many places (even places i have never been though being a malaccan). but when beta came, all of us took different majors. so i have to start over. instead of sticking with the clique frpm alpha, stupid me has to go with other people. what have i done~!!!!
live is so weak and unfair~!!!