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after a long while, i guess it's about time that im blogging again eh? it's been a very hectic routine life for the pass 8 weeks or so. i've been doing my internship, and one best thing that i have learnt so far is that working life is far from fun (except when it comes to the end of the month where we see our pay slips X-D). it's just so a routine. you wake up at 7am every morning, straining to open your reluctant eyes, then you leave the house by 7.40, then work starts at 8am straight till 5pm, when you reach back home, all you think about doing next is sleep, and when you wake up at 7am the next morning, you do everything all over again. ummm... fun? sigh***

so what is there to blog? life has been slow and different lately. havent been going out and hanging out as often as i would have if i were doing subjects in MMU. no clubbing, no makan -makan, no minum-minum, not even burning anymore midnight oil cos by the time the clock strikes 11, it's either im already sleeping like a log or about to. by the time i come home from work, just feel so tired and not feel like doing anything other than sleep.

nevertheless, life has been healthy, i can swear that im putting on weight from my crazy lifestyle of eating and seating all day long. hahaha~!!! but it feels good to not have anything bothering my mind at the moment. and i have develope a new hobby (as a result of too much free time during work - at times), i now read~!! hahaha~!!! fine is not like i have not been reading before this but i cant believe that im even purchasing books now. reading is the next best thing when you do not have internet or the television to entertain you, seriously~

im craving a big big shopping spree~ yum~ when will my wish come true lar? i want to go over to singapore too, i want to check out the new apple product, the ipod itouch. yum~ it's such a baby... wuwu. fell in love with it the minute i saw it online and even more after i had a preview on jac's real life piece. wuwu... i want the itouch~ dad wouldn't sponsor me... so probably i will have to wait till after Chinese New Year to get my own.

lately i've been putting much thinking (another result of having to sit for long hours and having nothing to do) in a lot of things. things like, am i too soft hearted? why does it seem like people are taking advantage of me? why do people care so little about how i feel? sometimes i feel that i have been putting to much thoughts about the feelings of others till i abandon myself, hurting myself in the end. i feel so because people just suddenly seem to stop thinking on my behalf.

haiz** that's why i have stopped giving and sharing, because i find no good in it, people only take that as an advantage to themselves and not even giving me a 2nd thought in the 1st place. so lately, i've learn to take care of myself and not really hope for others. it's a hurting process, but in the end, it'll only make me stronger. so we'll see who has the last laugh. X-D

i don't mean to be emo-y in this post but i feel like speaking my mind. sometimes it feels like im asking for too much, but my conscience is telling me the otherwise. knowing myself, i don't demand, if i know that it's not something that i can get, i'd rather not hope for it because, the odds of me being disappointed is higher, why then do i want to hope for disappointment?

oh well, in the end of the day, i feel stronger, you may have your laugh now if you think you have won me over, we'll see who's laughing tomorrow. X-D