Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's the place to start
[CORO]
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor.
Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I'll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I need you so
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that let you now
[CORO]
You're the one that
I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me
[CORO]
Wednesday, September 26, 2007
Monday, September 24, 2007
Things that will never be
warning: potential berbulu post ahead~!!
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somehow i don't know how it all started, what i remember is how a proper conversation can suddenly twist it's objectives and be the total opposite of what it actually was. my mood shattered, my emotions disturbed. i could not hold back the tears. somehow i wish i was 3 months back where i would have not even step into trouble like how i eventually did.
i was reminded that what was not mine, will not be mine. but i was stubborn. i bite myself hard this time. i know that many will now turn and tell me, 'i told you so', but i knew all along, half expecting this to happen. but seriously, not so abruptly. there was practically no warning.
but anyway, i look at my handphone now and can't help but think that the days where it will constantly beep upon the recieving of a new message, is over. they days where i would drive that distants and risk being screwed by my dad, just to see that familiar face, is over. there's nothing left for me, but just the memories and the pain. and finally, the joke is on me, how funny right?
i didn't even know myself that i had actually fallen quite deep. i thought all along it's just a transition which i hardly took importance of. i didn't know that i actually felt and fell for it. how could i let myself do this, i wonder. pure stupidity. now it's all on me. maybe when i actually had taken the trouble to do the stuffs, i actually appreciated it a lot more afterwards.
it hurts to think that it's only me that is handling all the pain. how can i have not considered that this is totally one sided all along? maybe i knew it all along, but i choose to ignore that sick feeling. i know that i still have half of what i had once enjoyed, but is it the same?
i know you'll know what i'm talking about after reading this post, but i just want to tell uou that, i appreciate what we have had. i cherish all the things that we did together. and i miss us a lot. but after thinking back, maybe i would have made the same decisions again after all. i have no regrets. and the memories will haunt me for a long time more to come.
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somehow i don't know how it all started, what i remember is how a proper conversation can suddenly twist it's objectives and be the total opposite of what it actually was. my mood shattered, my emotions disturbed. i could not hold back the tears. somehow i wish i was 3 months back where i would have not even step into trouble like how i eventually did.
i was reminded that what was not mine, will not be mine. but i was stubborn. i bite myself hard this time. i know that many will now turn and tell me, 'i told you so', but i knew all along, half expecting this to happen. but seriously, not so abruptly. there was practically no warning.
but anyway, i look at my handphone now and can't help but think that the days where it will constantly beep upon the recieving of a new message, is over. they days where i would drive that distants and risk being screwed by my dad, just to see that familiar face, is over. there's nothing left for me, but just the memories and the pain. and finally, the joke is on me, how funny right?
i didn't even know myself that i had actually fallen quite deep. i thought all along it's just a transition which i hardly took importance of. i didn't know that i actually felt and fell for it. how could i let myself do this, i wonder. pure stupidity. now it's all on me. maybe when i actually had taken the trouble to do the stuffs, i actually appreciated it a lot more afterwards.
it hurts to think that it's only me that is handling all the pain. how can i have not considered that this is totally one sided all along? maybe i knew it all along, but i choose to ignore that sick feeling. i know that i still have half of what i had once enjoyed, but is it the same?
i know you'll know what i'm talking about after reading this post, but i just want to tell uou that, i appreciate what we have had. i cherish all the things that we did together. and i miss us a lot. but after thinking back, maybe i would have made the same decisions again after all. i have no regrets. and the memories will haunt me for a long time more to come.
Sunday, September 23, 2007
Feeling Fucked up~
The longest survey you'll ever fill
out! Do the world a favor: fill it
out and post it for all your friends.
Do this because the person who sent
it to you didn't sit here for ages
for nothing. Answer all the
questions honestly, no lying to avoid
stuff.
Starting Time: 1522
Name : leonie
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 4, 4.5, 5
Height : 154
what are u wearing? singlet, surf pants
Favorite Number : 8
Favorite Drink: coffee
Favorite Month : october
Favorite Breakfast : coffee
Have You Ever
Broken a bone : nope
Been in a police car : nope, fire brigade got lar
Been on a boat : yup
Came close to dying : nope
Swam in the ocean : yup, phobia tho...
Fallen asleep in school : nope, somehow can't, like how i cant sleep in moving vehicles
Cried when someone died : yup
Fell off your chair : haha... so stupid, got kua...
Sat by the phone? : it's always there lor...
Saved emails? : i don't sve, i just don't delete them
Been cheated on : nope
Cheated on the test : cant bring myself to do it
What is-
Your room like? : erm~ which room, i have 3 rooms all together, my study is well, untouched, so it's dusty and all over the place, but i oni use one square of it, so who cares.
Whats right beside you? : untouched dvds, my phone... too many lar
Ever Had-
Chicken pox : yup
Sore throat : yup, i hate it
Stitches : nope
Broken nose : nope
Do You-
Like picnics? : ok ni lar...
Like School? : if there's a promise that there won't be exams and homework
Questions---
Who was the last person you danced with : radi? jooli? joneil? nick? dunno lar, can't remember
Who makes you smile? : many things lor... my best memories and cold jokes mostly
Who---
Did you last yell at : no one, should i?
Do you like yourself : yup most of the time
Final Questions--
What are you listening to right now? : Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue
Hated someone in your family? : should i? they gave my life...
What car do you wish to have? : mitsubishi lancer 2.0GT its nice...
Good singer : michael buble, ne-yo... thise kind of people lar
Diamond or pearl? : non... prefer pure yellow or white gold
Indoors or outdoors : outdoor~
Today did you---
1. Talk to someone you like? : yup
2. who? : friends~
3. Get sick? : nope...
4. Sing: yup
5. Talked to an ex : nope
6. Miss someone : yup
-Last person who---
7. Was in your bed besides you: no one but me... pathetic~
out! Do the world a favor: fill it
out and post it for all your friends.
Do this because the person who sent
it to you didn't sit here for ages
for nothing. Answer all the
questions honestly, no lying to avoid
stuff.
Starting Time: 1522
Name : leonie
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 4, 4.5, 5
Height : 154
what are u wearing? singlet, surf pants
Favorite Number : 8
Favorite Drink: coffee
Favorite Month : october
Favorite Breakfast : coffee
Have You Ever
Broken a bone : nope
Been in a police car : nope, fire brigade got lar
Been on a boat : yup
Came close to dying : nope
Swam in the ocean : yup, phobia tho...
Fallen asleep in school : nope, somehow can't, like how i cant sleep in moving vehicles
Cried when someone died : yup
Fell off your chair : haha... so stupid, got kua...
Sat by the phone? : it's always there lor...
Saved emails? : i don't sve, i just don't delete them
Been cheated on : nope
Cheated on the test : cant bring myself to do it
What is-
Your room like? : erm~ which room, i have 3 rooms all together, my study is well, untouched, so it's dusty and all over the place, but i oni use one square of it, so who cares.
Whats right beside you? : untouched dvds, my phone... too many lar
Ever Had-
Chicken pox : yup
Sore throat : yup, i hate it
Stitches : nope
Broken nose : nope
Do You-
Like picnics? : ok ni lar...
Like School? : if there's a promise that there won't be exams and homework
Questions---
Who was the last person you danced with : radi? jooli? joneil? nick? dunno lar, can't remember
Who makes you smile? : many things lor... my best memories and cold jokes mostly
Who---
Did you last yell at : no one, should i?
Do you like yourself : yup most of the time
Final Questions--
What are you listening to right now? : Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue
Hated someone in your family? : should i? they gave my life...
What car do you wish to have? : mitsubishi lancer 2.0GT its nice...
Good singer : michael buble, ne-yo... thise kind of people lar
Diamond or pearl? : non... prefer pure yellow or white gold
Indoors or outdoors : outdoor~
Today did you---
1. Talk to someone you like? : yup
2. who? : friends~
3. Get sick? : nope...
4. Sing: yup
5. Talked to an ex : nope
6. Miss someone : yup
-Last person who---
7. Was in your bed besides you: no one but me... pathetic~
Saturday, September 22, 2007
September 2007
here i am in the emo-y state again... i know i'm not suppose to but somehow i just can't help it. i tell myself to be strong, don't think about it, but at the back of my head, actually it's bothering me badly. it's like i was just getting used to the 'routine' for the pass 2 weeks. but next week, it'll be a totally different thing already. somehow i feel ripped.
anyway, just want to say thanks so very much for the wonderful 2 weeks. seriously, it's almost always filled with so much comfort, joy, laughter and nonsense. though it's not permanent and we know it, but we know that we have put our wholeselves in. there's no regrets at all of the things i did. somehow there's a little satisfaction in between the lines too.
and so sorry to those who have been visiting my blog. i apologize on the absence of updates. for the pass month, it has been nothing but pure stress. almost drown with midterms, assignments and presentations, and for the next 3 weeks, it'll be more studying and also final examinations.
so here's just a brief update, btw shien, aiyo... you are so in love lar~!!! berbulu wei i read ur blog~!! hahaha~!! 2 weeks ni lar... not so bad k :-P
anyway, just want to say thanks so very much for the wonderful 2 weeks. seriously, it's almost always filled with so much comfort, joy, laughter and nonsense. though it's not permanent and we know it, but we know that we have put our wholeselves in. there's no regrets at all of the things i did. somehow there's a little satisfaction in between the lines too.
and so sorry to those who have been visiting my blog. i apologize on the absence of updates. for the pass month, it has been nothing but pure stress. almost drown with midterms, assignments and presentations, and for the next 3 weeks, it'll be more studying and also final examinations.
so here's just a brief update, btw shien, aiyo... you are so in love lar~!!! berbulu wei i read ur blog~!! hahaha~!! 2 weeks ni lar... not so bad k :-P
Saturday, September 15, 2007
Say The ChowChow~!!!!!!!!!!!!!
MUST TAKE A LOOK~!!! Newly open ChowChow Boutique. Selling gals and young ladies apparels as well as accessories. It's owner is Stephanie Chow, my coucin Jason's girlfriend~!!! please go drop by and take a look and give some support k??
Tuesday, September 04, 2007
Eazee Peazee Leo Test~
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