these 2 days are so bad... not only it's the time of the month, but also there was this thing between my parents that cause so much tension around the house now.
since my brother when to china, at first it was ok. but when things like that happen around the house, like seriously i just want to run and hide. if my brother and sister was at home, at least the tension could be 'shared', but i'm all alone now. i don't know what to do.
mum accuses me of not 'being on her side'. but who am i to take sides? the problem is between her and dad why should i be pulled involved? it hits me as hard as it hits them. i mean, to me there has to be a problem in both parties to crop up an arguement right? there won't be smoke if there's no fire.
it's not nice to be given a cold shoulder to when you have done nothing wrong and the problem is not you. it's ruining my mood. i don't know how long more till the tension will siez. can't wait till 3 weeks time till when my sister will be back.
Wednesday, November 30, 2005
Wednesday, November 16, 2005
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ok... i could be cheezy sometimes i know. classes in MMU already started. this sem is boring... so boring. the classes this week is a little lintang pungkang. always is during the first week.
stupid arrangement a class of 90 people, they put us in a tiny tutorial room, air-con dah laer not so strong, body heat over air-con, the room is not only crowded, but super roasting~!!! thank good wednesday came so fast.
this week end i'm going off to PD for a 2 days 1 night children's mini camp organised but SKE. err... i'm part of the OC not participant ok... haha~!!! i'm not too excited about the trip, but what the heck~!! 2 days away from home wei~!! haha~!!
very hard to stay at home lately. beginning to truly believe my parent are bored of looking at me day in day out. so much so they pick on me at every little mistake. so bored of their nagging. from now on i won't bother about all their scoldings, it's too bad they find it hard to accept me for how i'm. the harder push me, the more i won't change.
i know i'm acting like such a spoilt/rebel. but i can't seem to care less if they refuse to understand me. i can't be obidient all my life right? what would life be? they should learn to let go a little and not hold on so tight till i suffocate. like hello~!!! i'll grow, i can't stay a baby forever right?
stupid arrangement a class of 90 people, they put us in a tiny tutorial room, air-con dah laer not so strong, body heat over air-con, the room is not only crowded, but super roasting~!!! thank good wednesday came so fast.
this week end i'm going off to PD for a 2 days 1 night children's mini camp organised but SKE. err... i'm part of the OC not participant ok... haha~!!! i'm not too excited about the trip, but what the heck~!! 2 days away from home wei~!! haha~!!
very hard to stay at home lately. beginning to truly believe my parent are bored of looking at me day in day out. so much so they pick on me at every little mistake. so bored of their nagging. from now on i won't bother about all their scoldings, it's too bad they find it hard to accept me for how i'm. the harder push me, the more i won't change.
i know i'm acting like such a spoilt/rebel. but i can't seem to care less if they refuse to understand me. i can't be obidient all my life right? what would life be? they should learn to let go a little and not hold on so tight till i suffocate. like hello~!!! i'll grow, i can't stay a baby forever right?
appreciation
i not saying my best friend is the most perfect guy.
he definately has a lot of flaws.
but i do believe he can change.
right now i guess he is not ready for anything serious yet.
he still wants to play and experiment.
so i'll wait around for him to grow up.
he will eventually, i'm positive.
right now i'll just sit back enjoy and be content of what we already have.
enjoy the warmness of our friendship.
nothing makes me more happier than to see him happy.
*to you, things i said about our friendship, i really mean them. i never want to lose our friendship ever. how you said no one ever cared about you so much? i'll always stand by you if you need anything, always. can't imagine if you were not a friend of mine. i can't afford to lose you. take care.*
he definately has a lot of flaws.
but i do believe he can change.
right now i guess he is not ready for anything serious yet.
he still wants to play and experiment.
so i'll wait around for him to grow up.
he will eventually, i'm positive.
right now i'll just sit back enjoy and be content of what we already have.
enjoy the warmness of our friendship.
nothing makes me more happier than to see him happy.
*to you, things i said about our friendship, i really mean them. i never want to lose our friendship ever. how you said no one ever cared about you so much? i'll always stand by you if you need anything, always. can't imagine if you were not a friend of mine. i can't afford to lose you. take care.*
Saturday, November 12, 2005
my new anticipation
I'm getting a new PC~!!! yay~!!!
ok... my dad finally realise how leceh it is to share the a PC with him, what makes it worse is that the PC isn't even a private property. without privacy for either of us or from the school, we are really sort of fed up of it already.
see, my dad is a school teacher as a teacher choosen to (first) teach in english, the governmant had provided him with a laptop -- eventually in hope that the teacher will use new ways to educate the students (powerpoint, projectors and so) -- this holidays, supposely he can't bring the laptop back. so realising with can't err... really live without a PC and internet, my dad is buying a new PC for me~!!! yay~!!!
actually no lar, not buying for me, i'm actually paying it for myself -- with PTPTN allowance --. but dad is paying like 1/5 for me. hahaha~!!! i don't care man. i would spend the money, i don't mind. imagine all the wonders you can obtain with a better PC. i just can't wait~!!!
ok... my dad finally realise how leceh it is to share the a PC with him, what makes it worse is that the PC isn't even a private property. without privacy for either of us or from the school, we are really sort of fed up of it already.
see, my dad is a school teacher as a teacher choosen to (first) teach in english, the governmant had provided him with a laptop -- eventually in hope that the teacher will use new ways to educate the students (powerpoint, projectors and so) -- this holidays, supposely he can't bring the laptop back. so realising with can't err... really live without a PC and internet, my dad is buying a new PC for me~!!! yay~!!!
actually no lar, not buying for me, i'm actually paying it for myself -- with PTPTN allowance --. but dad is paying like 1/5 for me. hahaha~!!! i don't care man. i would spend the money, i don't mind. imagine all the wonders you can obtain with a better PC. i just can't wait~!!!
Thursday, November 03, 2005
i'm back
sorry i know i've not been blogging in a long time. i just came back from singapore. the main purpose i went there is to shop. but all it takes is a detour around an outlet to notice the prices are sky high~!!! so all i bought was 2 blouses (1 blue & 1 pink), 1 3/4 pants form bugis street -- the street supposely a place with good bargains, but the price of that pants, you could actually afford to buy a better brand piece --, and 1 dress.
but inspite of all, i had fun there. my cousin and her baby boy was staying in my aunt's place too. so while at there we all helped part-time baby sitter of that bettle eyed baby. he is just so so so adorable~!!! i could have stayed longer at singapore but i had things to do back in melaka so i came back together with my parents.
another reason i came back was also because on the first day of raya -- yesterday -- they were screening Sepet. that movie is so nice... mynext favourite malaysian movie. just like Spinning Gasing it is a little controversial cultural wise so there were parts which the national censorship censored. i want to go and find the full version.
the next movie i'm anticipating to watch during the month of raya is Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam. all the coments on it plus all the critics. i really want to judge for myself. ahahaha~!!!
so fast next week will be my last week of holidays. and i will have to go back to face school. dread.... nevermind it's only for 1 and a half months. so i will work hard to sucess better~!!!!
but inspite of all, i had fun there. my cousin and her baby boy was staying in my aunt's place too. so while at there we all helped part-time baby sitter of that bettle eyed baby. he is just so so so adorable~!!! i could have stayed longer at singapore but i had things to do back in melaka so i came back together with my parents.
another reason i came back was also because on the first day of raya -- yesterday -- they were screening Sepet. that movie is so nice... mynext favourite malaysian movie. just like Spinning Gasing it is a little controversial cultural wise so there were parts which the national censorship censored. i want to go and find the full version.
the next movie i'm anticipating to watch during the month of raya is Pontianak Harum Sundal Malam. all the coments on it plus all the critics. i really want to judge for myself. ahahaha~!!!
so fast next week will be my last week of holidays. and i will have to go back to face school. dread.... nevermind it's only for 1 and a half months. so i will work hard to sucess better~!!!!