So the year has come to an end. As I said, time literally flew pass especially the pass 6 months. I'm not sure to call it a good thing or a bad thing. Good in the sense that working up here is getting tougher and tougher, being so near yet so far from home and all. Everything I chase for currently lies in the heart of Melaka. Haiz...
So things did not really go as planned for me in the month of December. I was sick half the month, walking like a giant capital 'C' due to gastritis. Bad experience, don't want to get it again. But i got well after almost 2 weeks of agony. Then there was HWC, such fun I have this year. True to what Bie said, it's a wonder why we keep going back and year after year we strive harder and don't even complain one bit and the best part of all we are offering ourselves as FREE labor. It was hectic, slightly disorganized, but it was loads of fun. For the 1st time in my life (though I was once a Chairlady for this annual event) I felt like I was RUNNING a camp.
HWC taught me a lot throughout these years. From the 1st year (2000) as a participant, and again for the second time (2002) as a participant and 3 years (2004, 2005 and 2008) as a member of the organizing committee. Every single year was unique and has some things which a remember so clearly about.
Like the time I stood on stage for the Hymn Singing night, dumbfounded, I was blank and couldn't remember the lyrics, it taught me of courage, then they gave me a second chance and I told myself that I can do it, I sang. Also the friendships made there, are ones that last the longest. When I took the resposibility of Work & QM, I learnt of organizing and people skill. I would say thanks a million more times for giving me a chance to chair the event in one of the years. It had brought me far and I have learnt of leadership and management. This year is GOLDEN, I learnt to deal with personalities and problem solving. The most touching moment was when one of our most problematic participants gave me a hug at the end of the camp, at that moment I knew, I had changed someone. We jointly learnt to take on responsibilities, to embrace teamwork and to mark our presence and success, so that we will be an unforgettable and trusted icon to all.
That was a little a bout HWC, I'm looking forward to our committee gathering which actually is still in tha planning stage, but I'm sure it'll be a blast if it'll be a reality. What's in store is we'll have steanboat come teppanyaki and we'll all put up in a rented apartment either a resort or service apartment. Then we'll have a post mortem meeting where all faults are said out as well as heart to heart speeches. We'll find creative solutions and make resolutions for the following year's follow up and be as a guidance to the coming board of organizing committees. I really hope this gathering plan becomes a reality.
So I wonder what will year 2009 be for me? Let's attempt to create a list of resolutions. hmmmph.... I won't smoke, I won't drink, I'll stop clubbing... hahaha~ lame like as if I do all those. I just hope the year will be as sweet as how 2008 has been or maybe be even sweeter. I hope everything will be smooth flowing and life will be filled with joy, love, laughter and happiness.
wishing everyone a very HAPPY NEW YEAR 2009~!!! Have a blast and get drunk~!!! Enjoy on my behalf as I'm stuck on the mountain and are working tommorrow~!!!
Wednesday, December 31, 2008
Monday, December 29, 2008
Random Survey
ONE.
If your lover betrayed you, how will you react?
* Things may not always seem like how it looks. I will 1st question him. Telling him if it's real, I know, If it's not then explain. Then if he admits, i will walk the other direction and let karma takes it's cause on him~!! eat that~!!
TWO.
If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
*Own whatever I've been eyeing (e.g the car, the house, the wardrobe, the life...)
THREE.
Whose butt would you like to kick?
*oooo... you have no idea ***winks at YHwee***, if i get the chance perhaps it's not only the butt that i want to kick, trust me.
FOUR.
What would you do with a billion dollars?
*Own a yatch and a private jet and maybe a private island and just live life wasting no brainer time and cash. Invest some too so that i won't go dry.
FIVE.
Would you fall in love with your best friend?
*can't imagine. if one had earn the title best friend from me, the person becomes literally 'genderless' in my eyes. how to date someone who i see as same level as me?
SIX.
Which do you think is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
*my world does not revolve around his neither does his revolve around mind. we love each other and are commited to each other. so maybe it's a balance in terms of how much i love him and vice versa. i feel blessed enough.
SEVEN.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
*been there done that for about a year. won't do that again. it's torturing especially times when you really wonder what could be going through his mind. it's like sitting on a fence, it's either you fall onto the side full of wonders or the other side which has nothing. if i have to say how long will i wait (again), i would say i prefer a definite answer soonest possible.
EIGHT.
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
*some people just has a weird approach to this (speaking through 1st hand experience). i personally will hold no hope if the other person is already attached, act of respect to his other half.
NINE.
If you were to act with someone, who would it be?
*I love love LOVE Hugh Jackman, it's like the most perfect guy alive right now. Hot, steaming hot. He has the looks, the bod, the cash, a fantastic family man... everything~!!!
TEN.
Would you invite your ex bf/gf to your wedding?
*Depends on who, if i were to invite that ONE person and he decides to cry there or ask stupid questions like 'can we be together?', i think i rather dodge the bullet.
ELEVEN.
How would you see yourself in ten years time?
*I want to be a housewife~!! mau jaga anak kat rumah tunggu suami kasi duit. No lar, i still want to be a career woman, so that if shit happens, i still have a firm ground to stand on.
TWELVE.
What's your greatest fear?
*Lies, betrayal...
THIRTEEN.
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
*No one tagged me, just felt bored in the office on a Public Holiday and was just finding something to do. Stole it from a fren's blog ***sorry***
FOURTEEN.
Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
*Single and rich~!! with money i can do almost anything. while i'm still young, i choose cash as there's just so much that I want to do. love and marriage can wait for a while more~
FIFTEEN.
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
*give a big huge sigh...***hAiZ***
SIXTEEN.
Would you give all in a relationship?
*No, I learnt to not hope too much, shit can occur anytime. I can't even let myself love wholely now.
SEVENTEEN.
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
*wah~ depending. I always make wrong moves and choices tho. I would go with my heart in the heat of the moment.
EIGHTEEN.
Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
*I forgive a wee bit too fast. but i tend to remember the shit that has happened. in future i will be cautious.
NINETEEN.
Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
*Sort of having both currently. it's less headache when I'm single. but sometimes i do chase to have someone to constantly care and love me.
If your lover betrayed you, how will you react?
* Things may not always seem like how it looks. I will 1st question him. Telling him if it's real, I know, If it's not then explain. Then if he admits, i will walk the other direction and let karma takes it's cause on him~!! eat that~!!
TWO.
If you can have a dream come true, what would it be?
*Own whatever I've been eyeing (e.g the car, the house, the wardrobe, the life...)
THREE.
Whose butt would you like to kick?
*oooo... you have no idea ***winks at YHwee***, if i get the chance perhaps it's not only the butt that i want to kick, trust me.
FOUR.
What would you do with a billion dollars?
*Own a yatch and a private jet and maybe a private island and just live life wasting no brainer time and cash. Invest some too so that i won't go dry.
FIVE.
Would you fall in love with your best friend?
*can't imagine. if one had earn the title best friend from me, the person becomes literally 'genderless' in my eyes. how to date someone who i see as same level as me?
SIX.
Which do you think is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
*my world does not revolve around his neither does his revolve around mind. we love each other and are commited to each other. so maybe it's a balance in terms of how much i love him and vice versa. i feel blessed enough.
SEVEN.
How long do you intend to wait for someone you really love?
*been there done that for about a year. won't do that again. it's torturing especially times when you really wonder what could be going through his mind. it's like sitting on a fence, it's either you fall onto the side full of wonders or the other side which has nothing. if i have to say how long will i wait (again), i would say i prefer a definite answer soonest possible.
EIGHT.
If the person you secretly like is already attached, what would you do?
*some people just has a weird approach to this (speaking through 1st hand experience). i personally will hold no hope if the other person is already attached, act of respect to his other half.
NINE.
If you were to act with someone, who would it be?
*I love love LOVE Hugh Jackman, it's like the most perfect guy alive right now. Hot, steaming hot. He has the looks, the bod, the cash, a fantastic family man... everything~!!!
TEN.
Would you invite your ex bf/gf to your wedding?
*Depends on who, if i were to invite that ONE person and he decides to cry there or ask stupid questions like 'can we be together?', i think i rather dodge the bullet.
ELEVEN.
How would you see yourself in ten years time?
*I want to be a housewife~!! mau jaga anak kat rumah tunggu suami kasi duit. No lar, i still want to be a career woman, so that if shit happens, i still have a firm ground to stand on.
TWELVE.
What's your greatest fear?
*Lies, betrayal...
THIRTEEN.
What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
*No one tagged me, just felt bored in the office on a Public Holiday and was just finding something to do. Stole it from a fren's blog ***sorry***
FOURTEEN.
Would you rather be single and rich or married but poor?
*Single and rich~!! with money i can do almost anything. while i'm still young, i choose cash as there's just so much that I want to do. love and marriage can wait for a while more~
FIFTEEN.
What's the first thing you do when you wake up?
*give a big huge sigh...***hAiZ***
SIXTEEN.
Would you give all in a relationship?
*No, I learnt to not hope too much, shit can occur anytime. I can't even let myself love wholely now.
SEVENTEEN.
If you fall in love with two people simultaneously, who would you pick?
*wah~ depending. I always make wrong moves and choices tho. I would go with my heart in the heat of the moment.
EIGHTEEN.
Would you forgive and forget no matter how horrible a thing the someone has done?
*I forgive a wee bit too fast. but i tend to remember the shit that has happened. in future i will be cautious.
NINETEEN.
Do you prefer being single or having a relationship?
*Sort of having both currently. it's less headache when I'm single. but sometimes i do chase to have someone to constantly care and love me.
Thursday, December 04, 2008
Life, Out of Singledom
I wonder how do you do it.
You make me worry, you make me feel insecure, you make me push aside all my egos. You keep making me come back for more...
Maybe it's the fact that you know what exactly tickles me, you know how to make me sad and angry but only to male me smile in the midst of the heated moment. You know what I want and what i need. You make me want to spoil you rotten like my very own little brat.
You make me want to talk talk talk. All the stupid arguements we have are like our little hobby. We bite on each other's tongues but we keep no hard feelings when it's over. Hearing your voice is like a cure to all loneliness and comfort to all pains.
You have my back through thick and thin. You held me up when I feel most vulnerable. You give me little surprises by proving to me how much you know me. You thought me many life's phylosophy to guide me through my emotional turmoils. You make me want to make you my world.
You have taught me of commitment and trust. It had taken a lot for the both of us to reach this level. The future might give us more and more challenges but, we will pull through each hurdle together. I just want to say, I love you.
You make me worry, you make me feel insecure, you make me push aside all my egos. You keep making me come back for more...
Maybe it's the fact that you know what exactly tickles me, you know how to make me sad and angry but only to male me smile in the midst of the heated moment. You know what I want and what i need. You make me want to spoil you rotten like my very own little brat.
You make me want to talk talk talk. All the stupid arguements we have are like our little hobby. We bite on each other's tongues but we keep no hard feelings when it's over. Hearing your voice is like a cure to all loneliness and comfort to all pains.
You have my back through thick and thin. You held me up when I feel most vulnerable. You give me little surprises by proving to me how much you know me. You thought me many life's phylosophy to guide me through my emotional turmoils. You make me want to make you my world.
You have taught me of commitment and trust. It had taken a lot for the both of us to reach this level. The future might give us more and more challenges but, we will pull through each hurdle together. I just want to say, I love you.
Tuesday, December 02, 2008
Ponder...
who believes in the notation ' buat baik dibalas baik, buat jahat dibalas jahat'? Cause I'm starting to doubt it. Lately I have too many expectations to meet, I feel pressured. Can't believe I'm saying this, but seriously it feels like I'm being more pressured now than when I'm schooling.
Nothing I do seem to be noted or appreciated, but instead all I get back are just complains. Sure I know there is ample room for improvement. But sometimes all I want to hear is a simple "thank you". People don't even see that nowadays. I do everything full heartedly and sincerely and not even hoping for anything back, just a smile of gratitude, I'm satisfied, but no... that's not what I usually get, instead my head get freaking stepped on.
Am I too soft hearted? Do I do too many things too selflessly? Where did I go wrong? Or are their reactions just normal human behaviour? Anyways I'm talking in terms of everyone one, family, lover, friends... all the same. Sometimes just thinking about it makes my heart feel very pain. makes me feel small. makes me feel like I'm not giving enough.
People who knows me, knows that I'm a person who needs a lot of reassurance, I like to know that what I do is right, I want to know that I'm going the right direction, I want to reach my destination the fastest and most effective way. That's me. It's not that I cannot accept opinions and would not improve myself. But it's depressing to be told time and again that what I do is not enough. Is it wrong to just hope for a smile at the end of the day, and maybe a hug telling me "well done"?
I just felt like typing something in the morning, just wanted to talk...
Nothing I do seem to be noted or appreciated, but instead all I get back are just complains. Sure I know there is ample room for improvement. But sometimes all I want to hear is a simple "thank you". People don't even see that nowadays. I do everything full heartedly and sincerely and not even hoping for anything back, just a smile of gratitude, I'm satisfied, but no... that's not what I usually get, instead my head get freaking stepped on.
Am I too soft hearted? Do I do too many things too selflessly? Where did I go wrong? Or are their reactions just normal human behaviour? Anyways I'm talking in terms of everyone one, family, lover, friends... all the same. Sometimes just thinking about it makes my heart feel very pain. makes me feel small. makes me feel like I'm not giving enough.
People who knows me, knows that I'm a person who needs a lot of reassurance, I like to know that what I do is right, I want to know that I'm going the right direction, I want to reach my destination the fastest and most effective way. That's me. It's not that I cannot accept opinions and would not improve myself. But it's depressing to be told time and again that what I do is not enough. Is it wrong to just hope for a smile at the end of the day, and maybe a hug telling me "well done"?
I just felt like typing something in the morning, just wanted to talk...
Monday, December 01, 2008
Year 2008
Everyone seems to be talking about the year end already. Why so hurry? Very nice meh?
Let's just see what had the year gone been for me, the 1st half of the year had been a bit blurry for me already. I know I went to Uni, Had many K sessions, a little bit of a life's turmoil for a very close friend of mine, many overnight stays over my place, Yahoo! Games galore, clubbing and drinking as a leisure, and I GRADUATED.
Come to reflect, there were many memories from the time year 2008 begun. Friendship made from Uni became more precious. As precious time and moments spent at our over priced University started to tick away, we grew more comfortably into each other, the care, and all the heart put in made the parting, though we know it was eventual, difficult. We knew from then that once we step foot out of our comfort zone, life won't be the same again. We enjoyed to the max. The laughter shared and the tears shed were worth it.
The 2nd half of the year practically flew by. Perhaps it was the fact that I had a long LONG 3 months break after I graduated from uni. Was anticipated about working in Singapore at first, but was discouraged by the family on the grounds of life there is not easy with an average pay. So I changed my mind and started looking for a job closer to home. The job position im holding now came like a blessing. I started working up here on Genting Highlands for Resorts World Berhad in September as a Human Resource Executive. It's been great so far. Also realise, while I'm working up here that I'm in fact very much a homey person, can't believe how much i miss home despite complaining time and again about the 'suffocation' of living there.
I have mentioned about the main events of the year. Some of you might already know this, or kind of know this, or suspect of this, or pretend that you don't know of this, but for almost half a year now, I have another half. But it has been kept for quite a low profile. Only friends who we hang out with together knows about us for sure. We don't tell because of our own personal reasons. There had been ups and downs in our realtionship, some small waves some tsunami waves. But so far we had overcome all. It had taken us a lot to come to this level of understanding. Things has been good.
The next event that I'm looking forward to for the year is the Annual Holiday Work Camp. This time around, the committee members are consist of all the people closer to use. I hope it will be smooth sailing. Will be on a 8 days break in Melaka. So anyione in Melaka around that time, feel free to drop me a note then we can meet up ok?
I'm blogging to waste time, I don't feel like doing my official work. but I have to go back to it now. Will blog more again~
Let's just see what had the year gone been for me, the 1st half of the year had been a bit blurry for me already. I know I went to Uni, Had many K sessions, a little bit of a life's turmoil for a very close friend of mine, many overnight stays over my place, Yahoo! Games galore, clubbing and drinking as a leisure, and I GRADUATED.
Come to reflect, there were many memories from the time year 2008 begun. Friendship made from Uni became more precious. As precious time and moments spent at our over priced University started to tick away, we grew more comfortably into each other, the care, and all the heart put in made the parting, though we know it was eventual, difficult. We knew from then that once we step foot out of our comfort zone, life won't be the same again. We enjoyed to the max. The laughter shared and the tears shed were worth it.
The 2nd half of the year practically flew by. Perhaps it was the fact that I had a long LONG 3 months break after I graduated from uni. Was anticipated about working in Singapore at first, but was discouraged by the family on the grounds of life there is not easy with an average pay. So I changed my mind and started looking for a job closer to home. The job position im holding now came like a blessing. I started working up here on Genting Highlands for Resorts World Berhad in September as a Human Resource Executive. It's been great so far. Also realise, while I'm working up here that I'm in fact very much a homey person, can't believe how much i miss home despite complaining time and again about the 'suffocation' of living there.
I have mentioned about the main events of the year. Some of you might already know this, or kind of know this, or suspect of this, or pretend that you don't know of this, but for almost half a year now, I have another half. But it has been kept for quite a low profile. Only friends who we hang out with together knows about us for sure. We don't tell because of our own personal reasons. There had been ups and downs in our realtionship, some small waves some tsunami waves. But so far we had overcome all. It had taken us a lot to come to this level of understanding. Things has been good.
The next event that I'm looking forward to for the year is the Annual Holiday Work Camp. This time around, the committee members are consist of all the people closer to use. I hope it will be smooth sailing. Will be on a 8 days break in Melaka. So anyione in Melaka around that time, feel free to drop me a note then we can meet up ok?
I'm blogging to waste time, I don't feel like doing my official work. but I have to go back to it now. Will blog more again~