in the middle of confusion and frustration, muahahaha~!!! there was a slight twist of fate... i got something that i've waited 2 years for~!!! my brand new Sony Ericsson K700i~!!!! my new obsession that i could not get my hands off.
so while i'm still googoogaagaa-ing over my K700i, lets take a moment to forget about the boy problem... till the time i'm done facinating over my toy, then we will talk more about my problems... haha~!!! so in the time being, WHO CARES ABOUT BOYS~!!?? haha~!!!
Tuesday, August 30, 2005
Saturday, August 20, 2005
My Lost
I lost a good friend exactly one year a go. not to death, not to love but to sheer egoism. it did not really bother me at all at that time since i did not see him much after that. he afterall was a person my other friends hated me to be friends with. and good for me too for there was no one to down grade me anymore.
it was not until now that i sat and think about the person i missed in my life. he came to my thoughts right at once. in the past he was one of my first close guy friend. though in other people's eyes, he was nothing more than a bully to me, but i excused him and told myself perhaps he sees me as one of the guys.
really, behind closed doors, we did listen to each other. also the caringness we had for each other. i miss those times too. and we argued, big and small, so many times too, but we would always patched things up with one another sooner or later.
but one act of egoism, tore us up forever. i don't see how we could ever be friends again. though i miss him as a friend but again i don't think we could be the same again.
it was not until now that i sat and think about the person i missed in my life. he came to my thoughts right at once. in the past he was one of my first close guy friend. though in other people's eyes, he was nothing more than a bully to me, but i excused him and told myself perhaps he sees me as one of the guys.
really, behind closed doors, we did listen to each other. also the caringness we had for each other. i miss those times too. and we argued, big and small, so many times too, but we would always patched things up with one another sooner or later.
but one act of egoism, tore us up forever. i don't see how we could ever be friends again. though i miss him as a friend but again i don't think we could be the same again.
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
My size
haha~!!! dunno i should be happy about my body size or not. sometimes i sit and think about it, then i'm quite happy with the way it looks... but sometimes i really feel pathetic. ok my height is about 154 cm, weigh about 47-50 kg. odd right?
ok don't judge how i might look (if you haven't met me) by just according to my weight and height. i have that weight because i have heavy bone structure. in real life i'm considered or people look me as small. even got nicknamed ' budak kecik'. nice to have the size i'm one thing is because it is easy to fit into almost anything. i could even shop in the kids department.
but shy ok... my dad's form 1 students towers over me. i'm serious. yesterdy i was walking pass my dad's tuition class, at the same time a student was walking pass me also. she was like an inch or two taller then i'm. there was once a pak cik even asked me 'dik, dik, darjah berapa?'. bodoh right?
and when you buy a pair of pants (especially those with the 3 digit price tags), you see how much they have to cut to adapt to your height... you will start imagining... how many percent from the price you paid, had they cut off. and one more thing, how you can't buy pants with nice patterns at the calf area, because once they alter it, the pattern will all be gone~!!!
one more thing is the size of my feet and palms. i hear a lot of 'oh my god... oyur feet is so small', 'oh my god... where can i find palms smaller than these...?'. PLEASE~!!! haha~!!!
anyway, one part of my body that i get commented on are my clevage... just that day a friend of mine ask me how did i do it...haha~!!! that's the funniest question that i've ever been asked before. it's really just choosing the right cup size or bra type and knowing how to adjust your boobs in it. haha~!!!
anyway, like it or not i have to learn to accept the way my body is... so i'm happy.
ok don't judge how i might look (if you haven't met me) by just according to my weight and height. i have that weight because i have heavy bone structure. in real life i'm considered or people look me as small. even got nicknamed ' budak kecik'. nice to have the size i'm one thing is because it is easy to fit into almost anything. i could even shop in the kids department.
but shy ok... my dad's form 1 students towers over me. i'm serious. yesterdy i was walking pass my dad's tuition class, at the same time a student was walking pass me also. she was like an inch or two taller then i'm. there was once a pak cik even asked me 'dik, dik, darjah berapa?'. bodoh right?
and when you buy a pair of pants (especially those with the 3 digit price tags), you see how much they have to cut to adapt to your height... you will start imagining... how many percent from the price you paid, had they cut off. and one more thing, how you can't buy pants with nice patterns at the calf area, because once they alter it, the pattern will all be gone~!!!
one more thing is the size of my feet and palms. i hear a lot of 'oh my god... oyur feet is so small', 'oh my god... where can i find palms smaller than these...?'. PLEASE~!!! haha~!!!
anyway, one part of my body that i get commented on are my clevage... just that day a friend of mine ask me how did i do it...haha~!!! that's the funniest question that i've ever been asked before. it's really just choosing the right cup size or bra type and knowing how to adjust your boobs in it. haha~!!!
anyway, like it or not i have to learn to accept the way my body is... so i'm happy.
Sunday, August 14, 2005
SKE Dhamma School 41st HWC
ive been appointed chairlady for this year's 41st annual Holiday Work Camp. i accepted it by choice. for several reasons, one, i don't want dhamma school to fall intp the arms of MBYS. and another to prove that our batch of dhamma kids are not just a bunch of hopeless and trouble makers. not that i play a big part in our clique in the temple. but i hope i can represent them though just being a back ground person.
being the chairlady for this camp, i'll be the first female holding the post and possibly the youngest too. i also might just be a puppet sitting up there while others run the camp, but i promise to try make this camp a success and be the 'bomb'. ive got a lot of supports from everybody and is glad of that. but i play a big difficult part of not getting bothered by what people might talk but me being in that seat.
though most senior batch dhamma school members might say and come to conscience that it was time to hand down the posts, but not everybody will know that. being pick as the chairlady this time is not something they would agree on although the uncle(s) all give their highest most support and believes in me, the seniors might not think im experienced enough. not only that, there are people too who whould think they would be better off seating in that seat, worst still they could be people whom in close with or trusts me.
people might feel intermediated by me because they might think that they should get the post. but it is not by choice that i wanted my name to be drawn out of the hat. it was by dicussions and votes. how suprise i was to have been picked. it never crossed my mind that i could get the seat at all. i hope my team will cooperate well with me throughout the camp. i hope we will make the best out of it and make the camp a memorable one for everybody.
being the chairlady for this camp, i'll be the first female holding the post and possibly the youngest too. i also might just be a puppet sitting up there while others run the camp, but i promise to try make this camp a success and be the 'bomb'. ive got a lot of supports from everybody and is glad of that. but i play a big difficult part of not getting bothered by what people might talk but me being in that seat.
though most senior batch dhamma school members might say and come to conscience that it was time to hand down the posts, but not everybody will know that. being pick as the chairlady this time is not something they would agree on although the uncle(s) all give their highest most support and believes in me, the seniors might not think im experienced enough. not only that, there are people too who whould think they would be better off seating in that seat, worst still they could be people whom in close with or trusts me.
people might feel intermediated by me because they might think that they should get the post. but it is not by choice that i wanted my name to be drawn out of the hat. it was by dicussions and votes. how suprise i was to have been picked. it never crossed my mind that i could get the seat at all. i hope my team will cooperate well with me throughout the camp. i hope we will make the best out of it and make the camp a memorable one for everybody.