Behind These Hazel Eyes

Kelly Clarkson - Behind These Hazel Eyes

Seems like just yesterday
You were a part of me
I used to stand so tall
I used to be so strong
Your arms around me tight
Everything, it felt so right
Unbreakable, like nothin' could go wrong
Now I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hanging on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

I told you everything
Opened up and let you in
You made me feel alright
For once in my life
Now all that's left of me
Is what I pretend to be
Sewn together, but so broken up inside
'Cause I can't breathe
No, I can't sleep
I'm barely hangin' on

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Swallow me then spit me out
For hating you, I blame myself
Seeing you it kills me now
No, I don't cry on the outside
Anymore...

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

Here I am, once again
I'm torn into pieces
Can't deny it, can't pretend
Just thought you were the one
Broken up, deep inside
But you won't get to see the tears I cry
Behind these hazel eyes

This song speaks to me... haha~!!! no lar, it just mean a lot to me. love it~!!!

My Mood Swing

ok... perhaps i owe everybody who has talked to me lately an apology and explanation of my sudden bad mood and straight forwardness :-( but of course what i told everybody was to blame it on my pms. truthfully it wasnt entirely that. it was a lot of things put into 1 big angry leo.

first there was my exam that squeeze every single drop of patience in me. then fatigue of everything got a whole large portion of me. thank got i kind of have i whole week's of rest next week to regain all strength i lost for the past couple of weeks.

other factors that provoked my moodiness is i guess the thought of people looking down on me. really... i can't stand people who could not accept me for the way im. i don't like people who tries to change me. ive really tried to elimineted parts of me that i think doesnt suit or doesnt bring me any good. i really have. but inspite of all that why does people still want to change me?

ive sat and pondered about all the things i brother told me. a lot of it will make me a better person. one that i treasure the most but still learning is when he said 'think before you speak'. it is so true because there is always more than one way to get any message across but i still need to learn those skills. the comments that i'm getting late deeply hurts me, but i could not do or say anything in fear of hurting the other party.

im known to be really soft hearted. sometimes i feel that i take care too much about other peoples feeling than my own. i love pleasing people. but in return i always get stepped on the head. but i never learn my lesson. because of these weakness of mine, people usually don't take me seriously and i seldom get things done my way. maybe that's also one of the reasons of my frustration.

snother thing my brother told me is that 'nothing could make you angry or sad except for yourself'. if you think carefully, all my anger and frustration is not thoroughly necessary and worth too. maybe i should learn to take others lightly too and also control my temper and not let anger get in my way.

Leo the Green Monster

you know what... really i'm jealous. everybody in my life has a significant other. but i don't have one. plus i don't mean to react like i don't care when anyone talks about their other half. but i mean it's devastating to hear so much about it when you can't compare yourself to the person talking you know what i mean?

it's like you can't help but think you are so hopeless and unwanted. i'm really a weak hearted person easily jealous, low self esteem and easily gives up. maybe that's why i'm feeling this way.

Johnny Storm

Johnny Storm @ Human Torch


That's Chris Evans as Johnny Storm in Fantastic Four. He is just so hot aint he? aww.....

Everything Burns

Ben Moody feat. Anastacia - Everything Burns

(OST of Fantastic Four)

She sits in her corner
Singing herself to sleep
Wrapped in all of the promises
That no one seems to keep
She no longer cries to herself
No tears left to wash away
Just diaries of empty pages
Feelings gone astray
But she will sing

Till everything burns while everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate and all of this pain
Burning all down as my anger reigns
Till everything burns (oh oh oo whoa...)

Walking through life unnoticed
Knowing that no one cares
Too consumed in their maquerade
No one sees her there
And still she sings

Till everything burns while everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate and all of this pain
Burning all down as my anger reigns
Till everything burns

Everything burns (everything burns)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away (All fade away)

Everyone screams
Everyone screams
Watching it all fade away

Till everything burns while everyone screams
Burning their lies
Burning my dreams
All of this hate and all of this pain
Burning all down as my anger reigns

Till everything burns (whoa oo whoa...)
Everything burns
Watching it all fade away (Away...everything burns)
Watching it all fade away

This song is so so so nice and cool... listen to it people~!!!

My blog

Well i'm creating this blog as a virtual diary sort of thing. I'm not planning on telling anybody about this. But if you are already reading it just carry on and read. I just don't plan on telling anybody and make a big deal out of it just because i'm whinning about my life here. Ya...this is what this blog is going to be about...it's all about me and my boring life. So, welcome to my life~!!!