if gems where the most precious things on earth, what would you do if you got your hands on one? if i had a gem during that time, be it a diamond, or sapphire, or even a ruby, i will do all i can to protect it.

i will only want the best for it, keep it safe, keeping it at a place where it is always at eye shot. if gems where the most precious things, no matter what the value of the gem might be, i will want to keep it safe and not let any harm befall upon it.

the gem will be the apple of my eye. i will do my best to take good care of it, i will not want to misplace it. no doubt in future, i might or might not find another more precious gem, but for the moment, i will enjoy the pride of having this gem in my hands.

it will be the most painful thing if i accidentally dropped it then watch other people pick it up and not wanting to return it. along the way, i might meet people who might be willing to pay, to bide for my gem, of cause i will be tempted, but my love for the gem overwhelms everything else.

if someone offered me a high price to share my gem, i could break my precious gem into two and give it to the other person, but will i look at the gem the same way again? will my gem be sparkling the same way it had? 

but what if i'm just not good enough to own that gem?

Long Long Survey

Starting Time: 0130
Name : Leonie
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 4
Height : 1.54m
Where do you live : Currently Bukit Beruang
Favourite drinks : COFFEE
Favourite breakfast : I don't eat breakfast
Have you ever been on a plane? : Often
Fallen asleep at school : nope
Broken someone's heart : big time
Fell off your chair : nope
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : semi conciously
Saved e-mails : i just don't delete them, ever~
What is your room like : lightning struck
What is right besides you : mug, hp, dvds, pimple cream, deck of cards
What is the last thing you ate : Mum's cooking [Yum~]
Ever had chicken pox : yup
Sore throat : yup
Stitches : nope
Broken nose : nope
Do you believe in love at first sight : erm, not really
Like picnics : yup, outdoors are fun
Who was/were the last person you danced with : hehe... it's either nick or something
Last made you laugh : shamus


Today did you :
Talk to someone you like : plenty
Kissed anyone : nope
Get sick : nope
Talk to an ex : nope
Miss someone : yeah, A LOT~!!
Best feeling in the world : that conversation... hehe...
Do you sleep with stuffed animals : bantal busuk got lar
What is under your bed : erm, i sleep on mattress on the floor...
Who do you really hate : None...
What time is it now? : 0149


Random :
Is there a person who is on your mind now : yup
Do you have any siblings : yup
Do you want children : yup
Do you smile often : yeah~~~
Do you like your hand-writing : yea
Are your toe nails painted : nope
Whose bed other than yours would you rather sleep in : hehehe... so long as it's soft...
What colour shirt are you wearing now : white
What were you doing at 7.00pm yesterday : in front of the tv
I cant wait till : i get a reply from my job applications~!!
When did you last cry : this evening, emo..
Are you a friendly person : yes lar~
Do you have any pets : nope
Where is the person you have feelings for right now ? : erm... a 2 hour car ride away...
Did the last person you held hands with mean anything to you now : yup
Do you sleep with the TV on? : nope
What are you doing right now? : chatting
Have you ever crawled through a window? : yup
Can you handle the truth? : somehow i need to know right?
Are you too forgiving : YES
Are you closer to you mother or father : mummy
Who was the last person you cried in front of? : dad & mum
How many people can you say you've really loved? :  besides the family, only 2 more...
Do you eat healthy : sumtimes...
Do you still have pictures of you and your ex? : nope... din have any to start with
Have you ever cried because of something someone said to you? : yea... now words can never hurt me
If you're having a bad day, who are you most likely to go to? : mum, sumtimes frens...
Are you loud or quiet most of the time? : rapid n loud n shrill
Are you confident? : i want to think so...


5 Things I was doing 10years ago :
1. was in 6 Anggerik

2. eating muffins from the school canteen

3. met new friends from tuition

4. sat for UPSR

5. did Tae Kwon Do


5 Things on my to-do list today :
1. Go Subang

2. before going Subang, must pack clothes...

3. Go makan at Strawberry Fields at Taipan

4. Meet Foong & Joo Li

5. Errants to do for the budak KL


5 snacks I enjoy (VERY VERY VERY MUCH):
1. Coffee

2. Roti Kahwin

3. Roti Jala

4. Cream Puffs

5. Berbagai Roti


5 Things I would do if I were a billionaire :
1. I'll own properties

2. I'll have my many dream cars

3. I'll do charity

4. I'll even adopt

5. I'll travel but different means of transportation [yatch, RV, jets]


5 of my bad habits :
1. Untidy

2. Emotional

3. Spend too much

4. Complainer 

5. Egoistic


5 Places I have lived in :
1. Bukit Beruang, Melaka

2. Kem Warisan, Masjid Tanah =D

3. Melbourne, Vic, Australia

4. N/A

5. N/A


5 Jobs I've had (and have, currently) :
1. Intern

2. Budak KL's PA

3. N/A

4. N/A

5. N/A


5 people I tag :
1. Jac

2. Yong Hwee

3. Shi En

4. Su Ling

5. Steph

I want to always be the apple of your eyes. it's not like I'm not trying, but nothing i do seem to be enough. somehow you will find fault in everything. Every little mistake I make seem like the biggest disappointment  to you.

I want you to understand what I'm going through. I want you to see me as me and not try to change me to be who you want me to be. I want you to understand why I do the things I do and not stop me from learning life in my own way.

I don't want to lie to you, but first it's the communication barrier that we should overcome. I want to talk to you like a filial daughter should but I can't when all you choose to see are my flaws. I not how you want me to be perhaps, but I just want you to love me for who and what I am. 

I want to feel comfortable around you again. I don't like the strain between us. Sometimes I wish that it was years ago where you would just lift me up and cuddle me like I'm the most precious thing that you have.

I love you and I'm sorry that I'm not who you expect me to be.