30 Days Song Challenge

I found this in FB by a friend who is participating. I find it interesting, but just too lazy to wait 30 days to complete it. I decided to sum it all n put it in my blog NOW!! So this is more like a 30 minutes challenge then a 30 days one. hehe...

Day 1 - My Favourite Song: Lonestar - Amazed

This one of my all time favorites... Whenever I hear it, I wish a guy would serenade to me. It's so so sweet and meaningful.



Day 2 - My Least Favourite Song: Sean Kingston - Beautiful Girls

Honestly... right up til now I still don't know why I hate this song so much. But every time I listen to it, I feel like smashing the speakers.javascript:void(0)

Day 3 - A Song That Makes Me Happy: Bruno Mars - Just The Way You Are

Loved this song. Period.



Day 4 - A Song That Makes Me Sad: Michael Jackson - Earth Song

This song is just so damn depression induced. Don't get me wrong though... I love this song, but its just sad when you sit and drown yourself in the meaning of this song, it just get you thinking. What is human doing to earth...



Day 5 - A Song That Reminds You of Someone: Jay Chou - Shan Hu Hai

It reminds me of someone who unfortunately did not leave a very nice impression on me. Damn it!! I loveD it song!!



Day 6 - A Song That Reminds Me of Somewhere: Jay Chou - Qi Li Xiang

Reminds me of the Alpha group friends gathering (possibly the ONLY gathering). It was at Xuan cafe. I requested for this song, and everyone sing along!!



Day 7 - A Song That Reminds Me of an Event: BEP - I've Gotta Feeling

HR Night 2009, GHR. I listen to this song so damn many times while they practiced their dance... It's stuck in my head ever since. I can't even listen to it wholly now...



Day 8 - A Song That I Know All of the Words To: Jay Chou - An Jing

there are many and i mean MANY songs that I know the lyrics to. But only one that I am most proud of (at this moment). Only because I am a banana (chinese with no mandarin background) and I took some time to learn this song. Of cause with the hep of pin yin =P



Day 9 - A Song I Can Dance To: Flo Rida & T-Pain - Low

I loved, danced, partied and clubbed with this song!! Haven't heard it in a long time... Oh how I miss clubbing!!



Day 10 - A Song I Fall Asleep To: Eminem & Dido - Stan

Well, truth to be told, I don't fall asleep, but I get bored... somehow...

Day 11 - A Song From My Favorite Band: Bon Jovi - Always

Another all time favorite, every time it plays... my heart cheers...



Day 12 - A Song From a Band I Hate: The White Stripes - Seven Nation Army

I never liked this band... that's all.



Day 13 - A Song That is a Guilty Pleasure: Jennifer Lopez & Pitbull - On The Floor

This song... just give me the drive to get things done. Motivation... Momentum... something like that...



Day 14 - A Song That No One Would Expect Me to Like: Hokkien Oldies - Tan Bo Lang

hehe... would you have guest that I am a sucker for Hokkien oldies?



Day 15 - A Song That Describes Me: Bonnie Tyler, Total Eclipse of The Heart

I love this songs. It is true that I am always in the dark. I dpn't know why, but I prefer to bottle up my feelings. I know it is hard to believe. But that's most of me on the inside.



Day 16 - A Song I used to Like but Now Hate: Ronan Keating - When You Say Nothing At All

Just hate it now... because the song is just so wrong...



Day 17 - A Song You Always Hear on the Radio: User - OMG

Seriously... omg!! Enough already!!



Day 18 - A Song you Wish You Would Hear on the Radio: Bruno Mars - Marry You

I love this song so damn much!! Really wish they would play it on radio and make an official video for it!!



Day 19 - A Song From My Favourite Album:

This is one of my favorite songs from my favorite album(s). On top of that, This song means so much to me.



Day 20 - A Song I Listen to when I'm Angry: Adam Lambert - Whattaya Want From Me

Haha!! I want to dedicate this song to my boss...



Day 21 - A Song I Listen to When I'm Happy: Katy Perry - Firework

This song can only be summed up into one word... INSPIRATIONAL



Day 22 - A Song I Listen to When I'm Sad: Eminem, Dre & Skylar - I Need A Doctor

This song can cheer me up.



Day 23 - A Song to Play at My Wedding: Bryan Adams & Barbara Streisand

I love this song... it means so much to 2 people in love. Definitely will be the song for my 1st dance.



Day 24 - A Song to Plat at My Funeral: Boyz II Men & Mariah Carey - One Sweet Day

This is a weird choice... hahaha!! anyway, I feel this song is a good song to remember the departed loved ones...



Day 25 - A Song That Makes Me Laugh: Cee Lo Green - Fuck You

XD I love this song~



Day 26 - A Song I can Play on an Instrument: Extreme - More Than Words

Actually I use to be able to play this on the guitar... But, I have forgotten how to =P



Day 27 - A Song You Wish You Could Play: Timbaland & One Republic - Apologize

I heard a friend play this song on the piano once. It was so beautiful. I do wish that I can do the same.



Day 28 - A Song That Makes Me Feel Guilty: T.A.T.U - Gomenasai

I literally want to say GOMENASAI to him... OMG!! I feel so guilty for all the pain I had once caused him...



Day 29 - A Song From My Childhood: The Moffatts - I'll be There For You

I used to be be such a huge ass fan of this boy band!!! I was litterally going all goooo goooo gaaaa gaaaa for them. Sadly they disbanded



Day 30 - My Favourite Song Last Year: Eminem & Rihanna - Love The Way You Lie

I listened to this song repeatedly for months, I never grew bored. It had been a long time since I was this crazy of a song. I even went all out and searched the live version of it as well as downloaded the video clip.



There you have it!! My list of songs that suits my mood in a given day. =P

The Evolution of the Diving Gup ~ =P

The war in my head before the 1st dive...

*I want to do it!! It can be fun!!*

*Oh my god... I can't swim lei... how ar?*

*What!!? Water? How WILL I survive???* 

*No no no... I can do it!! i MUST do it!!*
*I hate myself for putting me in this damn situation!!*

*What if I panic? My god... my god... my GOD!!* 

*Chill lar Leo!! you can do it!! Look at all your friends already in the water!!*
*What have I gotten myself into!!*

*Oh no it's my turn... oh no oh no oh no*

*Chill chill chill... you can you can you can*

Reality voice (Instructor): Come on!!

*EEEeeep Errgh!! Oh noooooo.........*

Me: I can't, if I really can't do this, can I quit? I don't mind sitting on the boat and wait... *fingers crossed*

Instructor: NO!! You can't quit... you are coming down!!

Me: =S  ...   -.-  ... ok...

...

But after 4 days...



It's truly the best thing I've ever dared to force myself to try...

The ocean is vast and wide, filled with beautiful life that you do not see normally. Being so close to the wilderness truly change my perception on life. To be a bit cheesier, it's like diving had given me a new breath.

The Travelling Gup is now officially a Travelling DIVING Gup

Go try it if you had not... Seriously...

The Hair Story

Posing at one of Cambodia's ancient temples

As many of you would have known, I had my hair chopped short for the first time ever in the beginning of this year.

Well I have had a lot of different comments coming my way since then too. Bad comments are many but out shine by the good ones anyway XD ... I had weird questions too, like..

"Leonie!! You cut your hair ah??"

-.-"

"No lar... I woke up in the morning and suddenly notice it grew shorter!!"

**Thank heavens this is only in my mind not mouth**

it's not even a "Leonie!! you cut your hair!!", it is really a "Leonie!! You cut your hair ahhh?".

Can't resist rolling my eyes sometimes... XD

There are some reasons why I made this decision to slice my tresses. Many of you also know that I had been through what is now known as a very traumatic time of my life (I am such a drama queen * XD * )

The amount of hair cut off, to me, symbolizes the bad past which I want to let go. As new hair will grow from the root, that's the new fresh start that I want not dwell in the stupidity from the past. I had dyed my hair for the first time too =) This is the new color (for a new era) that I want to see in my life.

Have I told you how much I love my new hair? I love how it looks in the morning, I love how the color is so amazing in the sun light, I love washing it. I just love-love it...

I think I will be keeping my hair short for the time being. This new hairstyle kind of gives the illusion that I am younger. Age is catching up fast!! I am quarter of a century old this year!!

Looking forward to this weekend. I need a hair trim badly... My hair is in my face!!!

To Japan, From Our Hearts...

Yes, I am excited about my upcoming travel...

 But the paranoid side of me is still super worried about the nuclear crisis in Japan.

I pray everyday that things will be fine and back to normal soon....

Be strong Japan...

Our hearts and prayers are with you...

O.N.E

Oh!! Number One!!

Lucky number one!!!

Magnitude 8.8 Earthquake & Tsunami

To the victims and families affected by the devastating Earthquake and Tsunami

My prayers goes to you...

Be strong...

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Guak Guak Trip!!

Sometime 10 months ago, at about 11.30am...

"Won't it be interesting if we can travel by train from here to Thailand, and then to Cambodia and then Vietnam...?"

"Yea, oh my god... that'll be so cool... I think it can be done lar. Got train from KL Central to Hat Yai mah..."

*Picks up phone and dials travel buddy's extension*

"Oi!! We just thought of this brilliant plan wei... We take train to go to Thailand, Cambodia and Vietnam. Want not? Want not?"

"Wah.... so nice... can can can... Then we can cari makan, tangkap gambar... want want want!!"

2 days later...

"Eh!! I tell you arrrr... I took 3 hours just to book the flight back from Ho Chi Minh for us know... got free ticket only the lines all jammed up!! But I've done it!! Yeay!!"

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We have been waiting for so long... and it is finally here!!!!! We will be up and on our way for our great adventure in barely 2 weeks time. Here's the master plan.

KL Central to Hat Yai

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Hat Yai to Bangkok

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Bangkok to Siem Reap

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Siem Reap to Phnom Penh

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Phnom Penh to Ho Chi Minh

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Ho Chi Minh to LCCT

Currently we are finalizing all our plans and activities we can have along the way. Just last weekend we actually had a makan cum shopping trip to buy all the necessities for us to use during this trip.

We have got our heat-control item, hygiene-control items, travel clothing, bags and pouches, bottles and flasks, and definitely maps and travel guide books.

We are all so looking forward to it... hardly can concentrate on our day jobs. The anticipation of going on a vacation is one thing, but the anticipation on going to a semi-spontaneous trip is another. Oh man...

I will talk our experiences when we come back from the trip, but in the mean time, I pretty sure many of you had actually done trips like this or maybe even better. I look forward to hearing what you have to share with me too!!

Card Games We Love

Our group of friends had travelled together a few times, Sarawak... Cambodia... and a handful more of upcoming trips. Travelling together will definitely mean spending an enormous amount of time with each other. So how do we cope with that and not get bored of each other's sight?

Don't get us wrong though... We love travelling together and are almost equally adventurous and daring. But we are all unique in our own ways and not everyone are able to embrace your uniqueness, you see =) Travelling together, we have learned a lot about one another. One most (helpful) common trait is, we love family fun games.

During our Sarawak Trip, we discovered...

Monopoly Deal

It's a fast pace game derived from the original game. One of us actually bought the game by chance and we started playing on the spot. We got hooked on it ever since. It easy to understand and play. the stack of cards consist of property cards, money, and action cards.

Each player starts of with 7 cards in hand. In each turn a player is to drop up to 3 cards, be it to build his bank account, or his real estate; or use his action card to steal, exchange, demand others' for money and property. He will also have to take another 2 cards from the center deck. The first person to collect 3 complete sets of properties wins.

For the first time, when our flight was annouced to be delayed, we were overjoyed. We hid ourselves at the corner of the waiting area and played game after game.

Another game that we have recently discovered is...

Boggle Slam

We test run this game for the 1st time last week. We played Boggle Slam with wine as our companion for freaking 3 hours straight. This game is so fun and educational at the same time.

You give out the deck of cards evenly among the players after nominating a 4 letter word. When the game starts, all players are to change the nominated word with the letter in hands. For example, 'GAME' any player can change it to 'TAME' or 'FAME', it will end when a player throws out his last card.

This game is addictive and it tests your vocabulary. This game however, is loud. My ears were ringing after the three hours of screaming into each other's ears.

These 2 game cards which we have tried, kept us occupied for some days and nights while we are on our vacation. As we are all not so big on parties, these are good activities to bond our frendships as well as to fill in on nights which we just want a little 'we' time.

Try it for yourselves and do share your experiences with me =)

The Anticipation

It's MARCH already~!! Time really flies. We are all getting so excited~!!

WHY??

I'll give you a hint...

This is going to be the biggest, boldest and most reckless attempt by us, so far...

Will tell you more soon... XD

Journey to Skinnyville #3

After mentioning all my favorite things about working out, here is the real reason why I signed up to this commitment...

FOOD!!!

I love food too much to go on a diet, seriously. I can't stand a hungry stomach. I can't think straight when I am hungry, sometimes I can't even smile when my stomach is growling. I have it all, breakfast, lunch and dinner. You think I can resist chicken rice if it's laid out in front of me? Fat hopes...

Food is the main essential for your body to build energy. In my younger days, I use to starve myself for weeks, yes I did lose weight fast, but what I did not notice or care back then was, yes I did lose weight, but was my body healthy? When you deprive your body of (healthy) food, you directly depriving it from necessary nutrients as well. It won't be so pretty anymore when you suffer from other things like gastritis and all day lethargy.

So my advice to you is eat, not over-eating but just eat. When you are on a consistent and disciplined work-out routine, you have nothing to worry. Will you achieve your goal of having a hot body still? Yes, you will. Because while you work out and eat normally, you will actually be building more muscles instead on piling on fats.

So how do you do it in a not-overeating way? I litterally live to the saying "Breakfast like a king, Lunch like a prince and Dine like a pauper". My meals consist of not much rice or noodle (of any sort). Lucky for me because I love greens and I am ok with cutting down on red meat. I have a new found favorite too, I love fish.

With constant work out, I am able to feast on all my favorite foods *chicken rice, steamed fish, sambal belacan* while enjoying a fitter body with firmer body parts... bliss...

Big Thanks To You

Thanks to you, I learn my patience limit is quite high

Thanks to you, I know that I can work under pressure

Thanks to you, I learn to strive

Thanks to you, I know the value of money

Thanks to you, I learn to choose who I trust

Thanks to you, I know I am a stronger person now

Thanks to you, I learn that many people loves me A LOT

Thanks to you, I know what I want in life

*and it's so not you =)*

Thanks to you, I learn that I am important too

Thanks to you, I know what true appreciation is

Thanks to you, I learn of real love

*you will never be able to provide*

Lastly and the most important

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Thanks to you, I know that I NEVER want to do the same stupid mistakes I did ever again!!

Journey to Skinnyville #2

Thing i absolutely love about the gym...

1) Working out and sweating... it makes me feel like I am sweating away stress and depression from work. The beads of sweat dripping from my forehead and back, somewhat gives me comfort and bliss *must be the endorphins after a long and dreading day at work.

2) Satisfaction... you know that you are doing yourself and your body a healthy favor when you sweat all your body toxic out and give yourself a healthier physique.

3) The Morning After... after gym that is. When you wake up and feel the tinge in muscles that you had worked on the evening before, you know that your work out was right. Your whole body feels stretched and somewhat awake. It feels great~

4) The Physical Changes... When your flabs disappear and your fats turn to muscles, that's where you know your hard work paid off.

The journey continues...

Journey to Skinnyville #1

Wow~ never did i realize how much weight that I had gain in the past couple of years.

Looking back at old photos, how hideous i look now~!! oh god... Have you seen how fat my ass is lately?

look at that fat ass... oh god...

look at that tummy... my goodness...

I didn't... till people started pointing it out to me. Then i realized and i don't want it to get worst. So what did I do? Well, the most ridiculous thing of cause... JOIN THE GYM~!!

I'm currently on a program and really hope that it will work. I have been on it for 2 weeks now, and there is a little bit of changes that I see on myself. I will share the bits in the coming posts, just to make sure that it works for me before I recommend it to you.

We are on a journey to Skinnyville. Our target it actually to reach there before the mid of March.

Why? You will know soon...

Too Soon...

While everyone is reuniting and celebrating for the anniversary of the country's independence, my family will be reuniting for a different type of occasion.

In a couple of days I will be travelling to Singapore with my mom. It will not be the usual happy trip as I have had since I was little. This time, I go there with a heavy heart. Not a trip that I would like to make, not so soon...

Life is fragile, you will never know what could happen to you or people around you in just a split of second. I lost a beloved uncle today. The thought of never seeing him again, never feeling the his great hospitality again, and most of all, losing a person who had loved all of us so much, hurts me so so so much...

Today I sit, so helplessly wishing I could be doing more to ease the pain of his family. Wishing I can be there for them sooner. Wishing I could do more.

My heart goes out to my aunty, and cousins. Our condolonces to all you...

Rest In Peace Uncle Kuan... We'll miss you...

We Love You...

I Pledge My Life to Mother Nature...

Life is just insane for me now... literally...

Can't explain my hatred... not exactly hatred but more of frustration... utter frustration...

What use is there to call yourself a friend if you dare not even voice out when you know a disaster is about to happen?

Fear?

Minding your own business?

Means if your friend is about to kill someone, you will just allow it because you want to mind your own business?

OMG....

Whatever it is... I could care less anymore...

I believe everything happens for a reason...

Rather than to sit and sigh on what's happening...

I just take a walk and see the world...

If human can't do any good nowadays, I shall just dedicate my life to care for beings who are not able to speak for themselves... =)

Browse my blog... see the two panels at the bottom? Take sometime to read the website... you will know what I mean...

Please friends, do our part. You may think that one person can't do much difference, but think again, if you have the heart to do your part, and on top of that spread your words to others, in time, we can be the bigger voice.

Give mother nature a chance, be her voice. Let coming generations have the opportunity to see and enjoy this amazing world.

We live each day mourning and sighing about life, fighting for our rights, building our lust and greed. It's time to open your eyes and look at what's happening else where besides your own life.

These poor animals, sharks, whales and tiger have been critically endangered for quite sometime, why don't you do your part to save them? We can all make a difference.

Be their voice, speak for them, fight for them. You lose nothing, in fact you gain more. We spend time punishing human who harm other human, what about human who harm these animals? Why are they still often overlooked?

Take your time, read the stories. If you have a heart, you will know how cruelly these animals are being treated... harmed just for the greed and ignorance of human beings.

Please friends... we can do it...

Overdose of Hotness....sss....

At first it was Taylor Lutner and Robert Pattison...

And you thought you had seen the best...

And then came Daniel Wu and Louis Koo...

Yummm... I like...

Daniel Wu is so damn hot... where to find a guy like him ah? Well it's just my personal taste though... I realise my doft spot for hot asian guys is far wider than what i thought.

Dunno whether I was watching the movie or watching these hunks... hahahaha~!!

Sampat-ness...

in a sampat mode currently~

Recently I decided to experiment with liquid eyeliner... the result is kinda satisfying actually... I really like it and had many compliments... not bad for a make-up beginner i guess...

haha~!!

I thought of changing jobs too, expecially after roomie tendered her resignation. We talked about jointly rent a place down town while working in KL. still in planning process, but I do know some people are getting all excited about me working in KL. Cause it will mean that we will get to meet up more with me being closer to everyone.

hehe~!!

This post is kinda pointless but im just wasting time cause I realised that I haven't wrote anything for more than 2 months.

Phuket~

Ngeee~~ I just got back from Phuket. Total bliss after one year of mind draining, heart breaking, soul shredding year. Phuket was fun, whole new experience with so many eye opener. It's my first time to the land of Siam. I didn't know what to expect in the beginning.

I don't think I want to write out our itinerary here, instead, I think I will talk more about my feelings and what I had experienced there at Phuket. First of, I have never felt more foreign in my entire life. It felt like I was on an English island instead of Asian. There were so many sun baked whites. St one point I even believe that there were more foreigners than their locals there.

We visited the Phuket Fantasea. Basically it's a cultural show held in (literally) a wonderland. It is so colorful with so many different mascots and mythical creatures brought to life (size). The buffet was excellent, with a buffet area of enough space to cater for over 3000 people at a time. The cultural show was remarkable. Held in a theater that is able to cater for 4000 people. a stage so huge that more than 15 adult elephants are able to perform comfortably on it. It's an experience that if you are going to Phuket, you should be visiting this place. It might be a little bit pricy but in all, it's worth it.

We also participate in the Phi Phi Island tour. It's like the Langkawi island hopping, only 10 times better. We brought to more than 4 places to swim, snorkel and sight see. They even provided lunch and what seems like an endless stream of refreshments and beverages. I felt so silly, it was my first time to attempt snorkeling. I cried because I felt so damn uncomfortable using the snorkeling gear. I did not know how to use it. It would have been so wonderful to have a pre-scuba experience (as what Bie calls it). I will not give up, Bie won't let me anyway.

Shopping in Thailand is fun. It's a place where you don't have to be shy to bargain. I did not shop much because we had used a lot of money doing other things more worthwhile. I only got myself 3 suits of bikini for RM100 and 2 pure white blouses for RM60. Bestie Ping bought more though. Note to all, when you get to thailand, you MUST haggle your prices down. They DO overprice things, well of cause don't take advantage though. It's best to go on ratio of what you think is the best (reasonable) price. EVERYTHING in Phuket is bargainable. Bie got himself a really nice tattoo behind his shin at a really good price too, only RM150.

Bie had the chance to do shooting at a local shooting ranch. It's quite costly but apparently (I did not know it till then) it's not something that you can do everywhere else on earth. So Bie tried the shotgun as well as the M-16. It was confirm that it's not easy to find a shooting ranch when we got back from Phuket and Bie was telling his brothers about it, everyone was so excited.

The Ping Pong Show a.k.a Thai Girl show was truly an experience. Oh my... I never knew a woman's vigina can do wonders. It was unbelievable. She blew darts using a blowpipe... She 'gave birth' to a baby parrot... she 'shoot' bananas out... She even smoked with her vagina. I believe my eyes were popping out while wacthing the show. It was also a strip bar that we were at, watching the ping pong show.

This is the place where I truly see the people of Thailand. The place where I notice that the customer service of Phuket is marvellous. It didn't matter what they do for a living, from the small scale business people by the road side, to the mascots, to the infamous thai girls and as well as the striptease, everyone was delighted to serve you. Not a single one is without a genuine smile craved across their faces. Ironically the only unfriendly person I encountered was the lady in McDonald's.

I'm now anticipating my Siem Reap, Cambodia trip in October much much more. Can't wait to go to Angkor Wat. Can't wait to see new people and cultures. Haiz... now I'm back to Genting Highlands, feel so restless and bored. I feel like finding a job else where already. Roomie is most likely leaving, which makes my motivation drop even more. Anyone has any recommendations for me???

RAWWWRRR~~~!!!

GONG XI FA CAI TO EVERYBODY~!!!

It's new year in the lunar calender, symbolizing a new beginning, better luck to all, and blessed with great health along with prosperity. May the great majestic tiger watch over all of us through this new year. May be well and happy.  

This year has been all home and family for me. Felt that I had not spend quality time with the entire family for a long time. It's special for us as the whole family is present. Can actually 'feel' my parent's comfort, happiness and love. Hehe...

Last year was a bad year for me. So many things had happened. I hope it will be better for me in this year. I have to correct things that I had done wrong. May this fresh new start bring me more joy, love as well as happiness.

I will be traveling a lot in the coming months. I will want to widen my knowledge on various different cultures and learn more about people around the world. It will be fun, I guess it's time for me to spoil myself a little after 'fasting' for some time.

Anyway... best wishes to everybody out there, friends, family and beloved relatives. Enjoy yourselves, I hope you don't get too drunk or overeat. Take the opportunity to celebrate familyhood, and reunite for love.

Happy Tiger Year~!!

Sandra Wong

How many times have we walk our lives thinking....

I'm too short

I'm too fat

I'm too poor

I want a PSP

The question is... does it matter? We live our life complaining what we have not enough of, what we want more, what we want different in us. In a split second, things can all change.

I lost a friend today. I will never see her again. I will never see her updates in FB again. I will never have the opportunity to know her better. Someone lost their daughter, someone lost their sister, many lost their friend. WE lost her forever.

Refreshing her FB page over and over. Reading her blog for the 1st time. Reading what her friends and loved ones wrote about and to her, I can't help but cry like a baby in front of my monitor screen.

We read about her in the papers this few days. Her generous and courageous ways of donating her organs. Giving a better life to others. To us, she will live on, in them.

I will always remember her bubbly ways. I will always remember how she would approach us in school. I will always remember her passion for gymnastics. I will always remember how friendly and happy she always seem.

She will always be remembered by all of us. My friends, her friends, her teachers as well as her family. She has given many of us a big impact in our lives. Her name will always be in our prayers. We will be strong for her, for her family.

We love her, but I guess, heaven needs another angel.

In memory of....


SANDRA WONG

Sandra, you are loved and will always be dearly missed by all of us. You will live in our hearts, now and forever. Life will not be the same without you. But we will be strong for your sake. We love you loads.