Everytime

Everytime I thought I miss you,
I wonder if you ever did miss me,
It brings hurt to me.

Everytime I thought I longed for your touch,
I think of you caressing her,
It brings tears to me.

Everytime I thought of calling you,
My conscience says no, cause you do not want to call me,
I found strength from it.

Everytime I felt guilty,
I thought of all the lies and cheats you had thrown my way,
I pick up my pride from there.

Everytime I felt like running back to you,
I picture you running into the arms of her,
I learn to stand my ground.

Everytime I longed for your sweet words,
I knew you gave them to not 1 or 2 but probably even 8 others,
I woke up.

Everytime I thought I was not good enough,
I thought further and knew I had given in my best,
It built my confidence.

Everytime I felt like falling,
I thought of you having such a great time without me,
I stood back up.

Everytime I felt that I was weak,
I thought back on times where you hit me at my lowest point,
I realise I was already stronger.

Everytime I felt lost or empty,
I realise I was not the one at the losing end,
I became the bigger person.

Everytime I felt like crying,
I realise it was no longer your comfort i was craving,
I know I will get over you~