chinese new year lim family's reunion 2006

it's like very different this year. everybody is in a very sober mood.

as it is i'm already very no in the mood for new year as both my brother and sister are not back from china and australia respectively for the occassion. to add salt into the wound, my uncle -- who had kidney failure about 10 years back -- is in the hospital because his urine content of erm... cratenine (i don't know how too spell it) is too high. so he has to go for biopsy and all.

downstairs, if this usual family reunion, the kids will be running up and down, all the mums will be happily chattering away in the kitchen filled with laughter. but this year, my aunt -- the wife of the hospitalized uncle -- is crying in the kitchen, the kids hass all grown up so they don't run around any more, no fire crackers, my dad and his brothers and sister are more moody than ever.

man... it's going to be the longest, moodiest and lamest CNY ever~!!! thank god i was not really looking forward to anything...

how do you organise your phone?

actually i have nothing to blog about but i want to blog so let me tell you about my phone.

ever since the first day i got my phone, i was very excited. i was even more excited when i found out i could connect my phone to my dad's lappy via infrared. then i started putting in new themes and songs.

i've always liked to classify my friends with ringtones. here is what i do;

Phantom Planet - Caliornia (OC theme song) => my current general ringtone, to match my current phone theme, needless to tell you what it is.

Gavin DeGraw - Chariot => Home and everybody from the same house as me, some how i feel that song is very 'homely'.

Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Want To Be (OTH Theme Song) => Su Ling and Adeline because they are junkies of OTH = )

Gwen Steffani - Hollaback Girls => My girlfriends of St. David, we ain't no Hollaback Girls~!!!

Gwen Steffani - Cool => My close friend, Ken erm... for some reason...

Greenday - When September Ends => My ex-best friend, Aaron, he love (loved??) that song.

Happy Tree Friend (theme song) => a few of my temple friends, they really remind me of Cuddles, Giggles, Flippy and friends.

Lifehouse - You and Me => is used for my in class profile because it is slow, soft and soothing

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move => my Cousin June, she forced me to put it for her because she loves Switchfoot

My Chemical Romance - I'm Not OK => if this song plays, i probably would run and hide because it's for a erm... a 'violanist', a don't know how to shy attention seeker 'violanist'.

i really can't think of a song that is suitable for my St. Davids guy friends though... any suggestions??

life's regrets

**~who can avoid this in life right?~**

there are somethings that had happen which you wish hadn't

there are things where we said and wish after that if we could take it back

some things you wish you had not gotten involved with

some people you meet and wish after worths that they would just disappear

some places you've been wish you only wish later to turn back time and not gone

some things we did and only to realise that we could not erase

some other event that happen and you really want to forget it

somethings that has happen you only wish you had done better

some other things you only wish you could have done earlier to save the situation

sometimes you feel so down you just wish the earth would open up and swallow you

sometimes you might feel like you want to run and hide or be reduced to dust

but we all know that life really has to go on

whatever we have gone through we could not pretend it is not there

we only stand up again each time we fall

dust our dirty palms and remember to never take the same road again

there is no use crying for the past is the past

we should into the future and learn from the past

the enemy of my enemy is my friend

oh yes another thing;

somewhere last week i was chatting online with shi en and i think we were talking about the friend whom i'm having an issue with.

then he came out with the quote 'you are her enemy's friend that's why you are her enemy'. the quote was so familiar and i ask him about it he said yes it's from a movie but he also forgot which. the proper quote is 'the enemy of my enemy is my friend'.

so i went on days cracking my head trying to think from what movie it is from. in my mind if the thinking bubbles (those you see in comics) really exist, i'll be a walking comedy.

my mind was going like 'is it from meet the fo... no... couldn't be, national treasure... cannot be what... the myth?? no... batman?? it has to be batman... but no it doesn't ring a bell there...'

i tell you my mind was going on and on until finally a few days later it just suddenly popped into my head 'it's alien versus predator~!!!'. haha~!! and if been wanting to blog about this but then again the oc is more interesting. but i've finally blogged it now~!! haha

so shi en, it's alien versus predator~!!!

The OC

i am 56 episode to catch up on the oc.

who's fault is it to make me so addicted to the oc?? who?? who??

anywayz, i should have started to like the oc earlier, now i'm so left behind.

now my limewire is non-stop downloading the oc all day long, episode after episode. i'm crazy. and after every episode, i'm finding seth cuter and cuter. i like the way he talks. so cute. haha~!!!

ryan is cute too. haha~!!! but different kind of cute from seth. ryan is very sweet. going all ways out to make marissa happy.

ok, back to the show. cheerz**

my new flat head~!!!

ok, my old jelly fish head is gone and replaced with my fresh chopstick locks. hahaha~!!!

ok it is not exactly chopstick because i only did partial straighttenning (half way from the root). but at least now i can let my hair down and not put it in a boring ponytail all day long.

now i have to endure three long days of chemical stench. it's giving me a headache, not only from the stench, but also from all the stimming and ironning. but i can bear with the smell. sensory adaptation (PPS1014 - Psychology, Topic: Sensory and perception).

ok, yesterday i went out with su ling to makhota parade. we were at feng shui world to buy the magazine for her mom, but they ran out of stock. so we decided to go look for it at mph. outside mph, the sight of the 'memoirs of a geisha' novel caught my eye. and i felt a huge amount of 'chemistry' between me and the book so i had to buy it. i read it a bit today and boy yes, it tell you so much, more in there than the movie.

i tried to resist from installing any download agents (e.g limewire) but it is just too irresistable~!!! it's really not my fault to that The OC is now being downloaded into my computer. hahaha~!!!

cheerz~!!!

this entry is to signify the openning ceremony of my new comp~!!!! yay~!!!!

cheerz to my new possesion~!!!

new year, new beginning~!!!

Things that i could do this new year... let's see...

1) forget about the person whose name most mention in my entries. i really don't want to go around thinking too much about that person anymore or going on waiting for anything to happen because i don't think anything will happen. he is not a person who is sure of what he wants or not want. he doesn't even listen to what he tells himself to do. in september he told me he won't want to wear earrings anymore but in december, he is spotted with to piercings on the same ear. so may other examples, but to hell with mentionning, waste time waste space.

2) ermm... switch from One Tree Hill to The OC? ok, at least for the time being until star world decides to screen One Tree Hill. haha~!!! because cannot deny that Lucas and Nathan are hotter than Ryan and Seth right? but i admit that the girls of The OC are definately hotter than that of One Tree Hill. haha~!!! but for the meantime, i'm a new junkie of The OC. haha~!!!

3) sould i be dressier? i suddenly find myself too plain in dressing sense lar. i think i sould be more dressy. learn to put on make up. learn to pluck my own eye brows. learn to dress up a little bit more beside the same old t-shirts and jeans. i sould be more daring and make a point to try new things.

4) i shall learn to build a web site taking my nephew as a motivation and a reason to build one. i'm afterall getting my own computer and i shall install the proper programmes to build a decent website dedicated to my baby nephew. i shall inform everyone about it once i'm done doing it.

5) i shall learn to be neater and more organised too. i'm getting myself on my nerves with my ways. i will try my best to improve myself. taking my room neatness for starters. haha~!!! maybe i shall learn to organise my wardorbe according to type. ok, now, don't laugh at me ok. at least i admit my weaknesses. haha~!!!

6) and like i mentioned before, i MUST wtch the following movies this year;
i) X-Men -- oh my god i've been anticipating it, please knock my head if i missed the screening.
ii) Superman -- don't know why but just want to watch it. the new clark kent is not too bad looking too. hehe~!!
iii) Pirates of The Carribean, the dead man's chest -- don't ask, it looks interesting so i want to watch it. taking orlando and johnny as a bonus. haha~!!!
iv) The Da Vincci Code -- since i've heard so much about the book but am so lazy to read it, the movie can be a good substitude.
*i'm just very interested int these super heroes type of fantasy movies*
if any other interesting movies some along this year i will watch too.

7) i want to learn to drive properly and work toward making no mistakes on the road. did i mention that i got my license for almost 2 years already (by March 10 2006) but have not really driven on my own? my dad think that his car is too big for me. haha~!! don't ler laugh, i shy... haha~!! but nevermind. i will work to improve. we must look to the brightside always~!!!

i could not think of anyhting else i want to do this year. maybe i will update you with more the next round.

food poisoning...huhu~!!!

i've not been feeling too weel since yesterday. on saturday nigt i went for laksa with my family at bukit baru. then the fish cakein the laksa was not fresh, i knew it from the taste of it but swallowed it anyway, then of course i suffered the consequences later.

i went down with an ugly food poisonning with the 'lao sai' twice at 6 am, sunday morning. then went i thought everything was ok already since the whole day after that nothing happen already, but then in the evening suddenly my stomach was so uncomfortable, felt bloated. air rushing up and down.

so i took a bath and applied a lot of minyak angin and walked up and down in hope of easing the discomfort. but it did not get better instead when after i had my dinner, i felt even more uncomfortable. then after awhile (while watching oprah primetime), waaa... 'boi tahan ar', still so bloated. then all my dinner came back out of me through my mouth.

then i started shiverring non-stop. wore so many layers of clothes and took 2 tablets of charcoal and 2 tablets of panadol and go hibernate under my comforter for 1 and a half hours until i started sweating.

at least today better already still a little bit uncomfortable at the stomach area but better already. sorry if my entry gross you out. haha~!!!

am i boyish or girlish??

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

keys to my heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

because of you

** this song best discribes my feelings curretly -- i noe the song is dedicated to a different person by the composer but it just sound so right to match my current felling and situation **

Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

** dedicated to her **

p/s: i really can't believe you did it... you disappoint everyone...

i will not make the same mistake...

i won't want to dissapoint my parents with the same mistake she made...

all this while i thought she's merely a person i could not get along with. but now, she just made it worse by making that mistake. she just lose all my respect i have for her. i'm not sure if i could look at her the same way again.

she'd better straighten the mess she's got herself into. she could not believe she will do what she did. she has aid it with her own mouth she will not repeat the mistake my aunt did, but she did.

she has never been that sort of a person in my eyes. how could she even think she will get off easily? hasn't she seen enough. haven't she have any idea how hard it hit my parents when it happen before? i thought she was intelligent.

now it makes me miss my brother even more. it makes me sad and feel like crying...

eik~!!

** shi en, if you want to read the cronicles of narnia book, i advise you to not read this entry of mine, later you say i potong stim only **

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i feel like blogging but i don't know what to blog about. ok let me tell you about the 1st book of the chronicles of narnia, the magician's nephew.

it starts with the intoduction to digory (who will grow up to be the professor), a boy who moved from a countryside house to a town house to live with his uncle and aunty who was taking care of his ailling mother. he met a girl named polly, his uncle's neighbour's daughter. the loved exploring the place, in particullar their attic.

digory has a weird uncle which he barely know what he's been up to. one day while exploring the attics, they found a mysterious door which turn up to be the door that leads to his uncle's very exclusive study.

there his uncle tricked the children to wear a ring which he claimed will lead them into another world. as soon as they put o the yellow rings, it led them to a mysterious wood that had many shallow puddles of water. there they realise that as sson as they put on the green rong and jump into a puddle, it will lead them into a different world.

they discovered charn and accidentally woke the evil empress jadis (who will be the white witch in the later book). jadis followed them to our world in a foolish hope of taking it over. there they came into an ugly fight which involved the children, digory's uncle, a cabby and jadis. the children brought the 'troop' into the puddle woods and incidently into the will be world of narnia.

at the world of -- at first -- 'nothing', they witnessed the creation of narnia by a singing lion. they watched the world blossomed into greens and livings. they also witness how the lion made the leaders of each species a talking animal. then they learnt the name of the lion is aslan.

aslan punished digory for introducing an evil to the new world. his punishment was to travel far to bring him the silver apple. so there digory met jadis again, she stole one of the silver apple and was feasting on it. she tried to temp digory to eat the apple for himself and not have to bring it back to aslan. but digory did not listen to him.

once back to aslan, he was given the honor of plating the magical tree (from the seed of the silver apple) to keep the evil witch of harming the animals in narnia. aslan gave digory an apple to be brought home and aid his mother.

with the seeds of the silver apple he fed his mother, digory planted it at his uncle's backyard. it grew into a tree though not as magical as the ones in narnia. years after digory moved back to the country side and after the huge house by the country side and also the town house became his, the very old tree was derooted (because of old age), now the professor, had it chopped up and made into a wardorbe. that is where the wardrobe of the wardrobe in the lion the witch and the the wardrobe was made existed. the end of the first book and the beginning of the others.

the start of a new year

**First of all, i wouldlike to wish all my friends a very HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!! may all of us be blessed with good luck & health throughout this year. may all of us be surrounded by joy, love & happiness. may this brand new year also mean the renewal of our freindship~!!! love all of you people to bits... *muakzie* **

ok my friendship with aaron blossom to best friendship on january 1st 2005 and ended on january 1st 2006. how ironic.

i can't believe him man... how can i b so nieve? he made me happy and i fell into his trap. i treat him nicer and he just blew me like that. i really can't believe it. i really feel like burning him if not on mtv's burned, use real fire also i don't mind. set his pants on fire and we will get goreng pisang and telur.

one minute he acts like he cares about my feelings, next thing he is comfortably snuggling up with another person. like wat the f**k. i should have known when it happen for the first time, secretting his girlfriend from me, why did i let it happen again? stupid me~!!!!

so therefore this year i not going to waste my time on another guy like ken or aaron. i'm going to live each day as it comes and not going to hope for pigs to fly. i'm not going to let another person use me for their convinience.

i'm not going to make silly resolutions that i might not keep. and it's time for me to think more of my future and what i'm going to do in life. i only hope to live on my life's principles and morales. and not going to let silly small things get on me that easily anymore.

if i really need to make a resolution, ok... i will. i'm going to watch these movies, x-men 3, pirates of the carribean 2, the da vincci code, and whatever movies that will trigger my movie interests. hehe~!!!probably i won't want to be too generous any more...

and this year, i want to learn how to drive so that i won't have to trouble anyone anymore *shy* *shy*

i made a new good friend on january 1st and if u believe in omen (like shi en said), this might mean i will have good friends throughout this year. yay~!!! haha~!!!

my final exams is around the corner but currently i'm addicted to reading my new the chronicles of narnia story book. how? i'm torn between two. haha~!!!

alrite enough of blogging for now. blog again later.