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after a long while, i guess it's about time that im blogging again eh? it's been a very hectic routine life for the pass 8 weeks or so. i've been doing my internship, and one best thing that i have learnt so far is that working life is far from fun (except when it comes to the end of the month where we see our pay slips X-D). it's just so a routine. you wake up at 7am every morning, straining to open your reluctant eyes, then you leave the house by 7.40, then work starts at 8am straight till 5pm, when you reach back home, all you think about doing next is sleep, and when you wake up at 7am the next morning, you do everything all over again. ummm... fun? sigh***

so what is there to blog? life has been slow and different lately. havent been going out and hanging out as often as i would have if i were doing subjects in MMU. no clubbing, no makan -makan, no minum-minum, not even burning anymore midnight oil cos by the time the clock strikes 11, it's either im already sleeping like a log or about to. by the time i come home from work, just feel so tired and not feel like doing anything other than sleep.

nevertheless, life has been healthy, i can swear that im putting on weight from my crazy lifestyle of eating and seating all day long. hahaha~!!! but it feels good to not have anything bothering my mind at the moment. and i have develope a new hobby (as a result of too much free time during work - at times), i now read~!! hahaha~!!! fine is not like i have not been reading before this but i cant believe that im even purchasing books now. reading is the next best thing when you do not have internet or the television to entertain you, seriously~

im craving a big big shopping spree~ yum~ when will my wish come true lar? i want to go over to singapore too, i want to check out the new apple product, the ipod itouch. yum~ it's such a baby... wuwu. fell in love with it the minute i saw it online and even more after i had a preview on jac's real life piece. wuwu... i want the itouch~ dad wouldn't sponsor me... so probably i will have to wait till after Chinese New Year to get my own.

lately i've been putting much thinking (another result of having to sit for long hours and having nothing to do) in a lot of things. things like, am i too soft hearted? why does it seem like people are taking advantage of me? why do people care so little about how i feel? sometimes i feel that i have been putting to much thoughts about the feelings of others till i abandon myself, hurting myself in the end. i feel so because people just suddenly seem to stop thinking on my behalf.

haiz** that's why i have stopped giving and sharing, because i find no good in it, people only take that as an advantage to themselves and not even giving me a 2nd thought in the 1st place. so lately, i've learn to take care of myself and not really hope for others. it's a hurting process, but in the end, it'll only make me stronger. so we'll see who has the last laugh. X-D

i don't mean to be emo-y in this post but i feel like speaking my mind. sometimes it feels like im asking for too much, but my conscience is telling me the otherwise. knowing myself, i don't demand, if i know that it's not something that i can get, i'd rather not hope for it because, the odds of me being disappointed is higher, why then do i want to hope for disappointment?

oh well, in the end of the day, i feel stronger, you may have your laugh now if you think you have won me over, we'll see who's laughing tomorrow. X-D

My Birthday Week~!!!!

Had the bestest birthday ever. ok ok. i know these photos are over used, over rated, over whatever~!! but i just want to share all my joy and happiness... can't help it. hehe...

i had so many people surprising me in so many ways this year. happy surprises, disappointing surprises, unexpected surprises... but it all only sums up to one thing, that is, at the end of the day, or week in this matter, i'm more than satisfied.

had a small pre celebration with my friends from MMU at Teluk Mas for Ikan Bakar. had so much fun since it was the end of our final examinations and all, so sweet of most of them who actually stood back a day longer just to attend this dinner. love them, love their efforts, appreciate all the ways they went to think for me. i thank everyone there that day for everything from the transportation to my Ndeje layer cake, my MNG bag and sweater, and most of all, for the company and love~!! muakz muakz~!!

all 15 of us (some hidden in the blind spot of the cam)

My new MNG sweater courtesy of my HRM friends~!!

My Nadeje layer cake~!!
Siaw Keen, SHer Li, Me & Joo Li~!!

My HRM Best Buddies, Poochi, Alicia, Navin & Trusha (missing in pic are : Nadine, Kavi & Nazry)

on the 20th of october, my parents threw me a small gathering for my family and other friends who are from or are in melaka during that time. i'm most touched on this day when there were more people than i expected who attended this party. the people warmed the house, but more importantly, it warmed my heart. i learn that i should not hold my expectations too high because the more i do, the more disappointed i will be. in this case, i was more than overwhelmed by the end results. thanks everyone for taking the time to celebrate with me.

Yi Kwan & I~!!

Me & Cousin Slynn~!!

High School friends & I~!!

Kawan-kawan aku yang menhidapi symdrome kekurangan attention~!!

In conclusion, this year's birthday was one of the most fun. i would like to thank all the people whom i did not have the chance to thank personally, for all the birthday wishes. love all of you to bits... the most important thing to me is not the gifts that i receive but it's the friendship, sharing and caring of all of you that means the most to me... you people reassured me that no matter where i turn, if i fall, there'll always be someone there to catch me. and i thank everyone for that, your friendship and love means the most to me. nothing can beat that. muakz~!!!!!!!!!

After a long time~

so sorry to have abandoned my blog for almost a month. it's been a hectic 2 whole month of pure stress. one after another of endless task to be completed, all of equal importance. so it's only now that i can find the time to blog a little.

so what's been up ya? hehe... nothing much at all. life has been the same old. nothing new or interesting. yay~!! in exactly one week's time, i'll be recieving my golden key to adulthood (Finally~)... few nights ago, i had my 1st celebration with my MMU friends. we treated them to ikan bakar at Teluk Emas. had a blast of a time.

the 1st two gifts for my big day comes in the shape of an MNG handbag n MNG sweater. love them to bits. Thanks friends~ love you people the best~ these 2 items were initially in my shopping list. they were items that i really needed, because my old handbag is in it's ugliest state and well, i do not have a proper sweater. haha~!!

so anyway, yesterday, Wan Ting treated me to Secret Recipe, had my 1st taste of Tiramisu. it is the best cake ever. so rich in coffee flavoring, my love, my love~!! thanks Wan Ting. then we had a long long talk about love and loss. to m and her now, we feel that the word 'forever' technically has no meaning. forever is not forever is not forever at all. think about it, what if death interferes? is there still forever?

plus think about this, when someone tells you 'i'll love you forever till the earth does not have a moon till we meet again in the next life... bla... bla... bla...', do you really think the dead remembers you? it's not possible, the only person who is hurt and lonely is the person who s still living.

anyways, on wednesday, i will be starting my industrial training at Ornasteel Sdn Bhd. don't worry ya, im working in the admin department, not in the kilang itself. got uniform somemore. so can save a lot of cash on clothings. haha~!! but im quite scared also lar~ i don't know what to expect. luckily, i won't be there alone, got 2 of my best friends to accompany me there, Jo neil and Alicia.

by the way friends, if you are reading this, and you are a friend of mine, means you are invited for my birthday party on the 20th of October at my place ya. it'll be buffet dinner. so please celebrate with me k. to those who has boyfriends and girlfriends who i know of, you may bring them along ya. hope to see all of you ya.

RBD - Tu Amor

Mi amor I'm not sure of the right words to say
Maybe these simple words will do best to best explain
What I feel in my heart
What I feel more each day
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I love you so
With words you understand
Words that get right through to your heart
Here's the place to start

[CORO]
Tu amor, I will always be
Tu amor, means the world to me
Estarás siempre en mi corazón
You're the one in my soul
And I live for tu amor, tu amor.

Mi amor love you more with each look in your eyes
Maybe these simple words will do best to best describe
What I feel in my heart
What I'll feel for all time
How to make you see
How to let you know
How to say how to say how I need you so
With words you understand
Words that get through to your soul
Words that let you now

[CORO]

You're the one that
I need in my arms
Believe me these words
I say are words that come straight from my heart
How do I make you believe
Nothing else means as much as what you mean to me

[CORO]

Things that will never be

warning: potential berbulu post ahead~!!

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somehow i don't know how it all started, what i remember is how a proper conversation can suddenly twist it's objectives and be the total opposite of what it actually was. my mood shattered, my emotions disturbed. i could not hold back the tears. somehow i wish i was 3 months back where i would have not even step into trouble like how i eventually did.

i was reminded that what was not mine, will not be mine. but i was stubborn. i bite myself hard this time. i know that many will now turn and tell me, 'i told you so', but i knew all along, half expecting this to happen. but seriously, not so abruptly. there was practically no warning.

but anyway, i look at my handphone now and can't help but think that the days where it will constantly beep upon the recieving of a new message, is over. they days where i would drive that distants and risk being screwed by my dad, just to see that familiar face, is over. there's nothing left for me, but just the memories and the pain. and finally, the joke is on me, how funny right?

i didn't even know myself that i had actually fallen quite deep. i thought all along it's just a transition which i hardly took importance of. i didn't know that i actually felt and fell for it. how could i let myself do this, i wonder. pure stupidity. now it's all on me. maybe when i actually had taken the trouble to do the stuffs, i actually appreciated it a lot more afterwards.

it hurts to think that it's only me that is handling all the pain. how can i have not considered that this is totally one sided all along? maybe i knew it all along, but i choose to ignore that sick feeling. i know that i still have half of what i had once enjoyed, but is it the same?

i know you'll know what i'm talking about after reading this post, but i just want to tell uou that, i appreciate what we have had. i cherish all the things that we did together. and i miss us a lot. but after thinking back, maybe i would have made the same decisions again after all. i have no regrets. and the memories will haunt me for a long time more to come.

Feeling Fucked up~

The longest survey you'll ever fill
out! Do the world a favor: fill it
out and post it for all your friends.
Do this because the person who sent
it to you didn't sit here for ages
for nothing. Answer all the
questions honestly, no lying to avoid
stuff.

Starting Time: 1522
Name : leonie
Sisters : 1
Brothers : 1
Shoe size : 4, 4.5, 5
Height : 154
what are u wearing? singlet, surf pants
Favorite Number : 8
Favorite Drink: coffee
Favorite Month : october
Favorite Breakfast : coffee

Have You Ever
Broken a bone : nope
Been in a police car : nope, fire brigade got lar
Been on a boat : yup
Came close to dying : nope
Swam in the ocean : yup, phobia tho...
Fallen asleep in school : nope, somehow can't, like how i cant sleep in moving vehicles
Cried when someone died : yup
Fell off your chair : haha... so stupid, got kua...
Sat by the phone? : it's always there lor...
Saved emails? : i don't sve, i just don't delete them
Been cheated on : nope
Cheated on the test : cant bring myself to do it

What is-
Your room like? : erm~ which room, i have 3 rooms all together, my study is well, untouched, so it's dusty and all over the place, but i oni use one square of it, so who cares.

Whats right beside you? : untouched dvds, my phone... too many lar

Ever Had-
Chicken pox : yup
Sore throat : yup, i hate it
Stitches : nope
Broken nose : nope

Do You-
Like picnics? : ok ni lar...
Like School? : if there's a promise that there won't be exams and homework

Questions---
Who was the last person you danced with : radi? jooli? joneil? nick? dunno lar, can't remember
Who makes you smile? : many things lor... my best memories and cold jokes mostly

Who---
Did you last yell at : no one, should i?
Do you like yourself : yup most of the time

Final Questions--
What are you listening to right now? : Eric Clapton - Blue Eyes Blue
Hated someone in your family? : should i? they gave my life...
What car do you wish to have? : mitsubishi lancer 2.0GT its nice...
Good singer : michael buble, ne-yo... thise kind of people lar
Diamond or pearl? : non... prefer pure yellow or white gold
Indoors or outdoors : outdoor~

Today did you---
1. Talk to someone you like? : yup
2. who? : friends~
3. Get sick? : nope...
4. Sing: yup
5. Talked to an ex : nope
6. Miss someone : yup

-Last person who---
7. Was in your bed besides you: no one but me... pathetic~

September 2007

here i am in the emo-y state again... i know i'm not suppose to but somehow i just can't help it. i tell myself to be strong, don't think about it, but at the back of my head, actually it's bothering me badly. it's like i was just getting used to the 'routine' for the pass 2 weeks. but next week, it'll be a totally different thing already. somehow i feel ripped.

anyway, just want to say thanks so very much for the wonderful 2 weeks. seriously, it's almost always filled with so much comfort, joy, laughter and nonsense. though it's not permanent and we know it, but we know that we have put our wholeselves in. there's no regrets at all of the things i did. somehow there's a little satisfaction in between the lines too.

and so sorry to those who have been visiting my blog. i apologize on the absence of updates. for the pass month, it has been nothing but pure stress. almost drown with midterms, assignments and presentations, and for the next 3 weeks, it'll be more studying and also final examinations.

so here's just a brief update, btw shien, aiyo... you are so in love lar~!!! berbulu wei i read ur blog~!! hahaha~!! 2 weeks ni lar... not so bad k :-P

Say The ChowChow~!!!!!!!!!!!!!

MUST TAKE A LOOK~!!! Newly open ChowChow Boutique. Selling gals and young ladies apparels as well as accessories. It's owner is Stephanie Chow, my coucin Jason's girlfriend~!!! please go drop by and take a look and give some support k??

Eazee Peazee Leo Test~

Create your own Friend Test herehere's a new True Friends Test~ do it ya... it's suppose to be easier than the previous one. so try it ok.sorry i have no time to blog properly lately. too many things to do. pressure being thrown on my face... huhu...

BAD SITUATION~

i freaking feel freaking guilty now lar~ huhu...

i've done something really bad, and i think im very hated by people now~!!! boohoo~!!! i know i should do it. that's why im not treating the situation as i'm suppose to treat as if it's a real situation. i just don't want to drown myself with too much emotions, because i know the situation is not stable. but i'm so hurting people's feelings in the process. i feel freaking bad.

because seriously, the situation is not like what it seems. it's not as wonderful, it's not as flowery... it's just not. in fact i treat the situation a level lower than it's suppose to be. because i not the situation is just not mend to be how it is now. i know it's better off being how it originally is and stay that way. but because of my selfihness and involvement, it's very messy now.

sometimes i feel like i have to quite this ugly situation. because 1st of all, i hate to live in a lie. lie to myself, lie to people i truly care and love, lie to the world. and worse of all, im hurting many people in the process. but i don't know why i'm letting myself make matters worse. im such an idiot. somebody please hit my head hard *i know somebody who's reading this who'd be more than willing to do so*.

it's really not the fact that i might break my own heart by quitting, but i don't even know what's holding me back. the situation might more or less still be the same only having a diferent title to it, maybe that's why im not doing anything~ i feel evil. huhu...

Josh Groban - To Where You Are

Who can say for certain
Maybe you're still here
I feel you all around me
Your memory's so clear

Deep in the stillness
I can hear you speak
You're still an inspiration
Can it be
That you are my forever love
And you are watching over me from up above

Fly me up to where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile to know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

Are you gently sleeping
Here inside my dream
And isn't faith believing
All power can't be seen

As my heart holds you
Just one beat away
I cherish all you gave me everyday
'Cause you are my forever love
Watching me from up above

And I believe
That angels breathe
And that love will live on and never leave

Fly me up
To where you are
Beyond the distant star
I wish upon tonight
To see you smile
If only for awhile
To know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

I know you're there
A breath away's not far
To where you are

**To my favourite friend Wan Ting, I feel your pain, I miss him as much as you miss him too. I know no matter what I do or tell you, I couldn't bring him back to you. I might never understand or feel what you are going through right now, but I promise to always be here to hear you out, to make you feel better in any ways. I hope and pray that you'll be strong and pull through this nightmare**

Emo lAr~!!!!

huhu... i emo suddenly... I'm all alone at home, by choice, but suddenly i just feel so alone and emo-y... huhu... i don't even know what I'm missing so badly.

this is another weird part of me, i can't stay alone or at home for too long, I'll just get very depressed. especially when in times of stress and worrisome. how? how? who will come and rescue me?? XD

so right now im blasting my music... so that the songs will drown out my anxiousness. i don't even know why i feel so very restless. i'm suppose to have many things to do, but i cant concentrate lar.

my sister recieved an official letter from UEM Group, the corporation that supported her scholarship, yesterday. they are asking my sister to return to malaysia to serve her bond as soon as possible. so my sister did some serious thinking and decided that she'll most probably come back to Malaysia to work by end of this year.

so with that said, if she really does come back, it'll leave me 2 places to choose from when i'm choosing places to work after i graduate. i'm not planning to go to australia anymore. instead, i'll either begin 1st at either KL or Singapore, depending on the situation.

this is yet another very random post. i'm so sorry i have nothing interesting to tell. hahaha!!!

So Random~

huhu... i just found out that one of my assignment's dateline is much sooner than i thought. so stressed out already. i don't even know how to do that stupid assignment. then have to buat tebal kulit ask my cousin in terengganu to complete a bit for me. huhu... so shy...

by the way, i didn't know that my blog entries can hurt people's feelings. mayb im just very insensitive lar. but how can am emo post hurt people? i also don't understand. my blog is a place of zen and peace for me. whatever blogged here has nothing to do with the dead or alive. it's just my personal feelings. i think i should put a disclaimer's note lar~

aiyo... one week did not go for sports already i feel like a slug~ huhu... i don't thnk i'll have time for sports next week sumore. i also don't know how.got tummy again already. but i think i'll be going for swimming lesson on sunday morning~ yay~!!

and another thing~ i feel so free~!!! i have no restrictions, i can make my own decisions, anything~!!! no pun intended. seriously. just celebrating me being young and happy and free. i'm appreciating this more than ever now. seriously.

8 Simple Facts

Tagged by Yong Hwee.

1) Each player must post these rules first.
2) Each player starts with eight random facts/habits about themselves.
3) People who are tagged need to write their own blog about their eight things and post these rules.
4) At the end of your blog, you need to choose eight people to get tagged and list their names.
5) Don’t forget to leave them a comment telling them they’re tagged, and to read your blog.

Leonie’s Eight Random Facts

1. I can't catch balls thrown at me to save my life.

2. I tend to not listen to anyone other than to my own conscience.

3. I have elaborate imagination on everything (e.g. while reading, in times of trouble) which can cause me to be very paranoid at times.

4. I'm very random in conversations, while talking, i can switch topics like switching television channels.

5. I'm a big big fan of fantasy and superheroes genre movies, think Fantastic Four, X-men, TRANSFORMERS and Harry Potter.

6. Coffee is a drug to get rid of headache and mirgrain, to me, not to keep me awake.

7. I'm a sucker for surfers and basketball players (kind of looks). lengthy, tanned skin, hyper-active and boyish cute cute look.

8. I couldn't get over a guy that I have been obsessing for years~!!!!

Now, I tag:
Su Ling
May Pin
Sumi
Jacyln
Shi En
Alicia
Stephanie
Alex

Transformers clip 2

One of my most favourite scenes from the movie~!!

Transformers Clip~

Ending Clip from the live action movie, TRANSFORMERS~!!!

a little bit of updatez~

have not updated in a long time ya... so sorry. i was very busy~

so last week was harry potter mania week. i have finish reading the last installment to that book series. my overview about it will be that it's a bit slow moving, i was reading till more than half the book and it seem like it's still flat like as if it's 'not going anywhere'. the ending is some how predictable and there were a few twists. overall i will give it a 3.5 star rating out of 5 lar. not too bad.

and another thing that happen last week was that i watched the live action movie of 'Transformers" for the 3rd and 4th times. hahaha~!! somehow it's still the best movie for this year. even while watching for the 4th time, i still don't find it fake. it's like as if the used real robots to act in that movie. oh my god~ joneil and i could actually sit and challenge each other on how much script we could remember. fade and i was sitting and counting the number of scenes starscream appeared.

after the sports frenzy weeks, now my forearm feels fuller. it's even harder to pinch now. hehe... im quite impress with my own and also my friends' stamina and motivation to keep on going with the frenzy. it's like back to back sports. all of us are getting tanner and tanner. and no longer noobs at the sports, but not pro also lar.

another thing is that last night my friends and i went to crystal bay for ikan bakar. it was a rainy and wet evening. so naturally there was many giant ants all around the place. i do not know how did they bakar put fish but went it arrived, jooli peel a portion n passed it to me. just when i was about to dig into it, i noticed a bug's wing on my fish. then when i looked properly, there ws actually a full bodied 'burnt' giant ant on the fish. i shouted unconciously 'what the fuck' and stunted the whole gang. then june looked over not knowing actually what i was cussing for till she saw the giant ant. ya... it practically made me lose all my apetite after that.

In memory of Nicholas Ong

Let's have a moment of silence to my friend, Nicholas Ong Tzong Huat, who passed away yesterday due to burst of blood vessels in his liver.

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Nicholas was admitted to Pantai Medical Centre about 4 weeks ago after complains of a backache. after check-ups he was being diagnose that his spinal cord was pressing onto some of his nerves. he was discharged with precribtions and 2 weeks mc.

he went back to kl after his medical leave only to vomit and urinate blood a week later. Nicholas was admitted again in Gleneagle hospital in KL. they found that his liver had shrung and was bleeding into his own system. they doctors tried to block any further bleeding. but last night his vessels again bled. an hour later, Nicholas left us.

My condolences to his loved ones and all our friends. the sorrow is felt by all of us. i'll never forget the times and laughter we ever had together for so many years. im sure to everyone who knew this wonderful boy will shed a tear or two for him, as Nicholas was such a good person. generous and sincere in so many ways. he has been a good son, lover and most of all a friend to all of us. he be deeply missed and thought of everyday by all of us.

don't you sometimes think we take life for granted. after all the death that has occured, we'll be fools to think that we are not vulnerable to all harms and dangers in life. everyone, it does not mateer if u r 2, 20 or 80 years old, stands on the same fence of life and death. anyone could just slip and fall to death at anytime. humans are just ignorant creatures who loves to think that life is only a bed of roses.

so to Nicholas, may you rest in peace my friend~

Sports Frenzy~

how come i feel like there is people who suan me for not blogging ar? haha~!! sorry lor. no time lar... nothing to blog oso. i live a dramaless and empty life. sad hor??

so anyways, for the pass 5 days have been a sports frenzy marathon for my group of MMU friends and I. take a look at our scedule;

Thursday night - 2 hours Swimming
Friday evening - 2 hours Tennis
Saturday afternoon - 2 hours Badminton
Sunday morning - 2 hours Swimming
Monday Evening - 3 hours Tennis

Still in line: Tuesday night - Swimming; Sunday morning - Badminton
(subject to changes and add-ons)

ya... you've guessed it. a lot of my hardly used muscles are damn aching now. but we decided to carry on with the marathon while the adrenaline and momentum is still high. why? you might ask. nothing much, it's only we realise how much we are all eating and how flabby we are getting. so the results are, the SPORTS FRENZY~

but seriously, you might think it is damn crazy. but it's actually damn fun. im not a very ball n racket person as you might already know. but im learning and it is really fun. at least im not missing hits and chasing or picking balls all the time anymore lar. hahaha~

i've been a bit emo-y and depressed since saturday actually. so this frenzy keeps my mind off thinking too much and worsen the scenario lar. hahah~!!

feel free to join our frenzy if you're interested ya.

Annoucement~

so here are the criteria of my dream boyfriend...

1) he has to be heavier than me - by heavier, doesnt mean fat, but i'm 50kgs you see, so appreciate a guy who is heavier than that like 60kgs.

2) he has to have hairy legs - come on does anyone find hairless guys sexy? i surely don't. but i prefer that he does not have chess hair though.

3) he has to know how to spoil a girl!! like really spoil here. give her everything she ask for. like unconditionally.

4) i appreciate it a lot if he is a surfer dude - surfers are hot, mostly lar~

5) he has to do well in at least 1 sport - be it soccer, tennis or even diving.

6) Very manly and not too manja/clingy

7) has a life outside the relationship

8) appreciates friendship

9) mummy's boy~

10) has a life's goal/dream/determination

Bonuses:-

a) good looks - this is actually secondary to me lar

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ok, this is very random... i have nothing to blog about actually... hahaha~!!!

Fergie - Big Girls Don't Cry

thoughts~

so i was going through jac's blog reading about the ridiculous ex. somehow it feels relatable to my situation. the 'ex' factor. haha!! some boys can be so damn immature. too immature to not even understand the words move on. it's obvious we girls do not want to have anything to do with them anymore. we do not want to go back there. so move on, because we have already done that long ago. even if you can't move on, find some other ways to deal with it and stop bothering us!! we do not appreciate you crawling back to us, begging us, saying things that you think can win us back. Face it fool, we are not interested, save it.

so the next thing i want to say is, i notice young people nowadays, especially teenagers, they are so excited to talk about sex. they are not shy to express themselves in this area. just go through your friendster friend's list. look, how many of them indirectly mentioned about having sex, how many of them is almost telling the whole world that they have lost their v-card. on top of this, i have heard of so many shirt gun marriages cases, like as if it's the most common, like a trend to get their girlfriends pregnant out of wedlock.

seriously man, im not a speaking of taboos or being against sex before marriage. anyone can do it, it's not wrong as long as you know what you are putting yourself in for. but please learn that the ugly side of sex could change your whole world and destiny. one wrong move, your whole life will be put on hold. im also not saying that these kids do not know what they are doing. but im sure many of them do not think about the consequences or even learn more before indulging in it. seriously man, there nothing cool about STDs or pregnancy.

i mean these are all just my opinion. but where have the days when sex is such a discrete topic? even if you are doing it, does it pay that you tell the whole world that you've done it? what will people around you think? perhaps the kids nowadaysjust grow up too fast. all the myths about television brings harm to it's viewers, suddenly it doesn't sound so wrong to me anymore. look what have grey's anatomy, the oc and one tree hill has done to our thinking and views?

let me say this again, im not against pre-marital sex. i even dare to say my thinking is far wider than this post too. but seriously man, even though it seems like it's an epidemic for asian children to lose their v-cards just while they are barely legal, i seriously hope they know what they are putting themselves into. there are big prices to pay for mistakes that sometimes we cannot erase or undo. i just hope that they will think a lot before they decide on anything. do not feel pressured or just want to fit in. if that's the main reason to this epidemic, these kids will bound to regret.

brief update~

it's been a long long time since i've last blogged. well first of all i've been really busy with exams, exams preparations and all. really did not have the time for anything at all. the exams was back to back. it just ended on saturday morning.

so on saturday night, my friends and i when to watch pirates of the carribean: at world's end. it's the best movie ever though the ending is not too spectacular. but overall i give it a 4.5/5 rating. it's one of the best movies made lar. a lot of laughter. the main characters were cute... damn hot in fact. this movie is bound to win a lot of award lar!!

so i haven't been in touch with the land of ramance and love for sometime now. i feel... loveless. like this numb feeling of emptiness. it's not of lonely ness. mayb it's the peak of freedom. i couldn't ask for more... haha!! i have no restrictions at all. i do not feel bounded, besides thinking for my parents, i have nothing else to worry. i'm lovin' it!!

so, the redang/penang trip is over~ tak jadi lar actually. long story. but it's ok cause rite now i just realise that im VERY broke di. i cannot spend too much di. but one of this days i'm going to kl for shopping, for my sister's wedding lar. that's all lor... so ppl in kl, expect to recieve a call from me in kl k? we lepak together lar~

k lar...this is just a short update... kena marah cos didn't blog di...

SHOUT OUT TO ALL 2.40 Clan PEEPs~!!!!!

Anyone interested in going to Pulau Redang for a group trip??

Tentative date: 29 June - 1 July (it's during the weekends)

Tentative price: RM400> ? > RM300 (including food and accomodation)

so as all Malaysian know, Pulau Redang is one of the most talked about destinations especially to those who enjoy the sand, sea and breeze. it is one of the most sort after places for snorkeling, with a wide spread of coral reefs and sea lives. so this year if we have enough pax, we will make a trip there as a group!! so please RSVP to me.

Objective of the trip: Bring us all together, as soon we will probably be going our seperate ways. this trip is so that we will have a memorable experience, that we would hardly forget even after years from now.

so my friends, think hard on this k? and this post is so that every single one of u reads this and no one will have the chance to use the phrase 'tak ajak'. hahaha!! hope to hear from you soon!!

p/s: feel free to bring extra friends with you if you wish ya!!

what's your seduction style?

A little something i got from alicia's blog... hehe...

Taking a break from studying... i did this... it's surprisingly quite true lor...







p/s: hope you don't mind ya alicia...

so bored lar...

hehe... im suppose to b studying wei~ but no mood, the weather so hot lagi, where can concentrate lar... shit man. so bored. i wish i can waste my time doing nothing the whole day, spending time with my darling computer, playing sims and downloading all the series. im so damn sick of studying already lar...

so my emo-ing session is fading lar. and i hope it doesn't come back again. hahaha~!!! got a bit happier this week lar. with some sharing action going on, some long chats, i'm feeling much better already.

yesterday i hang out at Zanzibar together with shien and suling. we were there for about 45 minutes. tasted some funny tasting drink, something called 'virgin colada', izzit? it's pineapple juice with coconut cream. tasted funny the first few mouth full but as i drank it, it becomes better lar. i finished the whole glass. before that we went to amigos for dinner.

im so suppose to be studying, but im going out more often, using much more of my computer and all. it's like my brains are rebelling. like there is a small arguement going on in my head, 'i want to study..', 'no no, let me play..', something like that.

crapping again.. i better go... will blog again later.

OK... I've been told to move on many times already... high time, i think i should. err... allow me one last paragraph of emo-ing please...

OK... i don't know how some people can be so insensitive. seriously, if you do not intend to mean the words and thing that you tell people, than please... my as well don't say it at all. you have no idea how much it will hurt another person. you might be doing it unintentionally but please, creatures like us girls have very soft hearts and we tend to believe almost everything you tell us. it's our nature to trust. but we always end up as the party who is most broken and cheated. so please, if u have a heart, please think before you do or say anything. please don't be too insensitive to the people around. you might hurt many without your notice. seriously~ so please say things only when you mean it and mean everything that you say.

so moving on... let's take a deep breath first *ergh~ fuh~*. i'am suppose to be studying now, just can't find the mood. my body decided to give me a much worse mood. people who knows me, will know why i turn snappy and totally irritable. i blast people, get irritated easily, i guess you get the picture. maybe that's the cause of my super paranoidness. by the way, at this rate im going with my paranoidness, it won't be a surprise shall one day i develope the Obsessesive Compulsive Disorder (OCD). really~

thinking things through and more thoroughly, i think maybe i was taking things on myself too hard. trying to take things lighter and easier now. it still hurts like crazy, you have no idea. though i show no signs of it bothering me, but it's really turning me inside out internally. really, i haven't been emoing since a long time. and this is the first time i'm emoing for such a long time. this is the 3rd week f.y.i. it's driving me crazy just thinking about it. you might say i can always NOT think about it right? seriously, it's like a spoilt player which keeps playing the same tune in my head. it's there, i can't stop it.

on lighter sides, i have watched and updated myself on the latest episodes of grey's anatomy and heroes. i was very disappointed watching episode 19 of heroes last week, i don't understand why whould they want to kill of one of the coolest and best heroes from the series. the thing i don't understand is he can draw the future and knows exactly the time the incident was going to occur, then why would he want to be at that particular place at that time?

today i watched the latest episode, which is episode 20 together with shi en and jac at my house. wow!! im satisfied again, my favourite character is so damn strong in the future!! and as usual the episode has to end at the very peak. so kan cheong then suddenly ends, then to be continued... potong stim only.

then grey's anatomy, everything is getting so messy and complicated. the fab five does not seem so fab anymore. so sad case. don't know what is going to happen. the attendents are all chasing for the chief of surgeon title, the interns are just so messy now. all in a mess. not as kancheong as heroes but getting dramatic and complicated.

so there's the update...

Tagged by Shi En

Layer One: On The Outside
Name: Leonie (means Little Lion in Italian)
Birth Date: 22/10/86
Current status: Single and Awkward
Eye Colour: Brown
Hair Colour: Black
Righty or Lefty: Righty

Layer Two: On The Inside
Your Heritage: Hokkien, Hakka & Teochew
Your Fears: Ugly Roaches
Your Weakness: Sweet Talkers
Your Perfect Pizza: Cheese!!

Layer Three: Yesterday, Today, Tomorrow
Your Thoughts First Waking Up: shower~
Your Bedtime: anytime between 12am and 4am
Your Most Missed Memory: Back when I do not have all this bad memories haunting me.. haha!!

Layer Four: Your Pick
Pepsi or Coke: Non lor... don't like carbonated drinks wan...
McDonald's or Burger King: Only like McD's chicken foldover
Single or Group Dates: Single
Adidas or Nike: Nike
Tea or Nestea: Green Tea!!
Chocolate or Vanilla: Vanilla
Cappuccino or Coffee: Coffee alwiz!!

Layer Five: Do You...
Smoke: No lar...
Curse: Yup, but not as much as in High School lar
Take a shower: Many times in a day!!
Have a crush: Err... no...i hope not...
Think you've been in love: Have felt love but havent really been IN love.
Go to school: St. Davids was the best!!
Want to get married: Not the most important aim of my life
Believe in yourself: Yes
Think you're a health freak: A bit lar... but i don't eat fruits or anything else raw... but they saw raw is the best... So i dunno lor.

Layer Six: In The Past Month
Drank alcohol: Yupz...
Gone to the mall: On weekly basis...
Been on stage: Doesn't class presentation count?
Eaten sushi: I think so... when was it that i went to Sushi King with Jooli again?
Dyed your hair: not in the past month or before that but maybe after this month lor...

Layer Seven: Have You Ever...
Played A Stripping Game: Nope
Changed Who You Were To Fit In: Do I need to? i prefer people who can accept me for me.

Layer Eight: Age You're Hoping
To Be Married: Not till i can get over my 'Comitmment Problem'
For a Kid (i assume) : As soon as i get married!!

Layer Nine: In a Girl/Guy
Best Eye Colour: Depends on who the person is...
Best Hair Colour: Natural
Short Hair or Long Hair: Bald like Ami James

Layer Ten: What Were You Doing
1 Min Ago: Chatting with YiKwan, pouring my heart out
1 Hour Ago: Showering
4.5 Hours Ago: In Mr. Tan's class, snapping at YiKwan.
1 Month Ago: in school i think, Wednesday, probably in Mr. David Tong's class lor.
1 Year Ago: Dunno... playing Zoo Tychoon 2 probably...

Layer Eleven: Finish The Sentence
I Love: Coffee and Gadgets!!
I Feel: sad, stabbed, cheated & stupid~
I Hate: insensitive people~
I Hide: Nothing lor...
I Miss: haiz... i don't wish i was missing the person i'm missing so much now...
I Need: A break...

Layer Twelve: Tag Five People
1) Yong Hwee
2) Kate
3) Alex Bl@ckSh@rk
4) JacJac
5) May

Avril Lavigne - Why

Why, do you always do this to me?
Why, couldn't you just see through me?
How come, you act like this
Like you just don't care at all

Do you expect me to believe I was the only one to fall?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

Hey, listen to what we're not saying
Let's play, a different game than what we're playing
Try, to look at me and really see my heart

Do you expect me to believe I'm gonna let us fall apart?
I could feel I could feel you near me, even when you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to feel this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

So go and think about whatever you need to think about
Go ahead and dream about whatever you need to dream about
And come back to me when you know just how you feel, you feel
I could feel I could feel you near me, even though you're far away
I could feel I could feel you baby, why

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me

It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you
More and more each day
It's not supposed to hurt this way
I need you, I need you, I need you
Tell me, are you and me still together?
Tell me, do you think we could last forever?
Tell me, why

**Dedicated to YOU~!! I choose to not believe what you tell me, but i can't seem to erase the thoughts as easily as i thought i could. if only i have listened to my heart earlier on. i can't believe i'm only living in the shadows of your life. can't believe i mean next to nothing to you. have never felt worse in my whole life... sErioUslY~

i kind of feel disappointed and cheated upon!! err... first i'd like to apologise for all the emo posts i've being posting. it's just that im feeling really emo-y lately... some of you might know why, some of you might not know why. see, my blog is on the world wide web, so if i'm blogging everything in too direct form, it might bring others to have a very bad impression on me. so i prefer to keep everything discrete. so my friends, if you want to know what's really going on, please contact me privately and maybe i will tell. hehe...

so right now, seriously, im feeling very cheated and disappointed. i've been made to make a promise, a promise so big it feels like i've just put on a very huge curse upon myself. i had no idea the promise could bring such a big impact on me. i thought once it's over, it's like over OVER and i would not think so much about it after that. but it's been nearly three damn weeks and it's still fresh like raw meat in my head.

i do not expect to be treated this way after i have fulfilled my promise. i want at least a bit of 'special' attention. maybe i'm hoping on too much. i was just thinking, was it that maybe i have done something wrong? did i say something bad? or i'm just plain naive? i tried to console myself saying things like, it's just a favor. i mean, how much do u expect to get back these days rite? but then again, it's not a very small favor!! i was told to move on once by my friends. i can't...

then another friend said i was being too paranoid. how can i not be? hahaha!! it's not easy. you do feel like you deserve to be appreciated more, seriously. but maybe psychologically, maybe your mind is messing around with you, fantasies tend to enhance your imagination and memories. i tried not thinking to much about it. but it's like there's this little person in the back of my brains that's just keep on reminding me of it. so the more i strive to not think about it, there will be a slight pain in my head till i just tell myself screw it about trying to forget.

i knew in some ways this favor was going to alter somethings if it's not physically, it will be mentally. i thought about it even before i promised to do the favor. but it's hard to resist when you were asked by some sugar coated mouth fella. so maybe it's my fault. and again, i just want to be appreciated a bit more than this. i can't go around pretending i did not do the favor. it's like running away after commiting a murder. i'm just not a person who can do that.

seiously, i'm not hoping for a lot, i just want a little bit more than just this. just a little more. maybe i should have a new life princip. maybe i should not be too soft hearted. but seriously, i do not need my favor to be returned, i just want a little bit more appreciation and gratitude, that's all. because right now i feel like a door mat.

Dedicated to my dear friends of St.Davids!!

11 Names

Can u name 11 people?
Name 11 people you can think of right
now. Don't read
the questions underneath until you
write the names of all 11 people. This
is a lot funnier if you actually
randomly list

the names first.. No cheating!!!


1. yhwee
2. sumi
3. jacjac
4. prash
5. shynn
6. ping
7. kate
8. shien
9. may
10. don
11. law


DON'T LOOK AHEAD UNLESS U FILLED UP
THE TOP!

How did you meet # 4?
-in primary sch, think we started being friends in std. 6

Do you like anyone on the list?
- romantically? hahaha!!! nope...
- friends? every single one... love them to bits!!

What would you do if you hadn't met
number 1?
- nobody bring me to kai-kai... no piza/burger to eat... n most importantly nobody i can confine in lor...

How did you meet #8?
- since primary school but only be closer to him AFTER high school... he is the most gentleman out of all my guy friends...

What do you think of #7?
- my bestest friend since forever literally... giggly, cheery and a lost friend... n u can b sure that ur secrets are most safe with her!!

what would you do if #3 confessed
he/she loves you?
- hahaahaha!! that will be THE day...

Is #2 ur friend?
- my most reliable friend ever... nicest to hang out with...

Whose #9's best friend?
- howie?

Have you ever eaten around #11?
- ya... obviously... got lar, been friends with him for ages di, if no mah something wrong?

Do you miss number #1?
- to bits im telling u... my world is empty without u... huhu...

Who is #3 dating?
- she say no one, i believe her lor...

what do you think of #6?
- i personal little princess who i can't mess aroud with. cutest thing ever... the person who knows me best. we complete each other's sentences.

What do you think about #4?
- very caring, very kuai... so unlike me. she's in bali now.

What would you do if #3 and 9 were
going out??
- hahahahahhahha~!!! will not happen in a million years!!!

Who does #2 like?
- she did not update me on this topic wor... so i guess no one lor...

Do you have any special thing you do with #11?
- define special... in any case... no...

Have you ever been inside #9's house?
- yupz... a few times lor...

Do you love #10?
- my metal super saiyan fren... hahaha~!!! cutest thing ever.

Ever slept in the same room as any of the numbers?
- yes, during sleepovers and camps...

Do u trust them?
- most of them yes... but it really depends on what the 'thing' is


I TAG LING, SHIEN, MAY, STEPH AND EVERYONE ELSE TOO!!!

I knew this was comming...

Bold the statements that are true to you.
Italise the statements that you WISH are true.
Leave the fibs alone.
Your comments in colour.
Then, tag 3 people to do the same test:

I miss somebody right now. (I miss that person so much, it kinda hurts)

I do not watch tv these days.
I wear glasses or contact lenses. (If not lights will be the only tings I'm attracted to at night)
I love to play video games. (not maple k... i really play games, wuzzy games according to Shi En tho)
I have tried marijuana.
I have been in a threesome.
I believe honesty is usually the best policy. (if only i practice it)
I have changed mentally over the last year. (you have no idea...)
I carry my knife/razor everywhere with me.
I curse. (a lot...)
I’m totally smart. (ppl say i have the brains but i'm just not using it)
I’ve broken someone’s bones. (of the bastards in my life)
I’m paranoid sometimes. (hahaha kena marah for this)
I would get plastic surgery if it were 100% safe, free of cost, and scar-free. (nip/tuck inspired)
I need money right now. (there is so many things that i want but can't afford to buy!)
I love sushi.
I talk really, really fast. (many has complained of this)
I have long hair. (ever since forever~)
I have lost money in Las Vegas.
I have at least one sibling. (I have 2)
I have worn fake hair/fingernails/eyelashes in the past.
I couldn’t survive without Caller ID. (I hate anticipations)
I like the way I look. (haha!!)
I am usually pessimistic.
I have a lot of mood swings. (people who knows me well will know this side of me)
I have a hidden talent. (is sloth-ing a hidden talent?)
I’m always hyper no matter how much sugar I have.
I have a lot of friends. (I do... and all of them are the best, with them in my life who needs a boyfriend~)
I am currently single. (and free and independent and happy)
I have pecked someone of the same sex.
I enjoy talking on the phone. (record time: 4 hours)
I practically live in sweatpants or PJ pants.
I love to shop. (i'm so not a girl)
Enjoy window shopping. (jalan-jalan still ok lagi)
I would rather shop than eat.
I don’t hate anyone. (i really wish i do not, but sadly, i do)
I'm a pretty good dancer. (i don't dance at all... hahaha!! not professionally at least)
I’m completely embarrassed to be seen with my mother.
I have a cell phone.
I believe in God. (i'm buddhist, Buddha is not god, he is a great teacher, technically there is no god as belived by Buddhist)
I watch MTV on a daily basis.
I have passed out drunk in the past 6 months. (only high and happy not yet drunk)
I’ve rejected someone before.
I want to have children in the future. (it's more important to me than even marriage itself)
I have changed a diaper before. (my nephew's)
I’ve called the cops on a friend before.
I’m not allergic to anything.
I have a lot to learn. (i'm naive)
I’m shy around members of the opposite sex.
I have made a move on a friend’s significant other or crush in the past.
I have tried alcohol before. (still a noob but getting better... hehe!!)
I own the South Park movie.
I would die for my best friend.
I think that Pizza Hut has the best pizza.
I have used my sexuality to advance my career.
I love Michael Jackson, scandals and all.
Halloween is awesome because you get free candy.
I watch Spongebob Squarepants and I like it. (and bob the builder too)
I am happy at this moment! (minus the dissappointment from yesterday, the rest im happy)
I’m obsessed with girls.
I tie my shoelaces differently from anyone I’ve ever met.
I study for tests most of the time. (does approximately 6 hours before the paper begins count?)
I am comfortable with who I am right now.
I have more than just my ears pierced.
I walk barefoot wherever I can.
I have jumped off a bridge.
I love sea turtles. (the one in Langkawi's under water world is cute~)
I spend ridiculous money on makeup.
Plan on achieving a major goal/dream. (yeash~)
I'm proficient in a musical instrument.
I worked at McDonald’s restaurant.
I hate office jobs. (don't see myself working in one lor~)
I love sci-fi movies.
I think water rules. (i wish i can swim... anyone wants to volunteer to be my instructor?)
I went college out of state. (Shi en understands)
I like sausages.
I love kisses. (oo...they are the connectors of two people, in love)
I fall for the worst people.
I adore bright colours. (look into my closet, you'll understand)
I can’t live without black eyeliner.
I don’t know why the hell I just did this stupid thing.
I usually like covers better than originals. (teddy geiger's version of You'll Ba In My Heart for example)
I can pick up things with my toes.
I can whistle. (i can't, you believe me?)
I can move my tongue in waves, much like a snake's slither.
I have ridden/owned a horse.
I still have every journal I’ve written in.
I can’t stick to a diet. (haha!! food is my second heaven)
I talk in my sleep.
I try to forget things by drowning them out with loads of distractions. (all the time)
I have jazz in my blood.
Climbing trees is a brilliant past-time.
I wear a toe ring.
I can’t stand at LEAST one person that I work with.
I am a caffeine junkie. (every single day at least one serving of it)
I cosplay or know what cosplaying is. (wazzat?)
I have been to over 15 conventions.
I will collect anything, and the more nonsensical the better.
I only clean my room when necessary. (i'm a sloppy sloth)
I like a person of the same sex.
I love being happy. (who doesn't?)
I am an adrenaline junkie.

3 ppl i tag : yhwee, may, steph

back again...

so since my last post i had spent RM980 on my new 19 inch LCD monitor and a graphic card... now using my computer feels like im watching television. and my sims feels like they are real life except i'm controlling their everyday life. planning on changing my speakers soon. oh no, don't get me wrong, my present speakers are still fine, but i just wan to synchronize my whole computer set, i wan them all to be either black or/and silver only.

ok that's for the physical stuff that i have or just own. now emotionally, i'm so not happy, so disappointed with some guy(s) in my life currently. i hope they all burn in hell~!!!!! fuh~ ok, actually it's not that bad, but i really think guys should be more understanding and not just act according to their heart.

please don't say things that you know you don't mean, just to regret it later and ignore what you have done. if the wrong messages are sent, much bigger problems will come up. the worse part is, these problems are unnecessary and that you do not want to happen. but as usual you just have to say it out to satisfy the 'nagging old man in your head'.

you have no idea how much it'll hurt another party by doing these foolish things. you might feel embarrass for your acts, but you have to still come in terms with it as you are the one that did it, so face the consequences and do what you have to do to correct the situation, not just shy away and pretend nothing has happened. what the hell do you think god gave you the 2 balls hanging in between your legs? get castrated if you are not planning to use them~!!!!

sorry to my other guy friends who are reading this, i know it's rather hush, but you know that i don't mean you, rite? my best friends are all angels. you know who you are. but to those inconsiderate males reading this, please ok, girls are so not toys. we are not that easy, don't make use of us like as if you've purchase us from the supermarket. it hurts so damn fucking much~!!!!

crankiness~

first of all, i would like to thank all of you who have taken my crazy test. honestly, i personally think that it is a very difficult test. so to those of you who did not do well, it's ok... of cause i do not expect for you to know or listen to all my craziness all the time. and to those you scored~!!! yay~... erm that's all, oh~ and thanks for listenning to me all the time too~!!! hahaha~!!!

so since the pass 3 weeks or so has been damn hectic. mid terms after mid terms and right now all the assignment due dates are coming close, like very very close. so everyone is like rushing to finish our respective parts and assignment. i'm getting so very sick and tired of these craps. all the hard work and money wasted just to get what? a stupid paper that states you have wasted 4 years of your youth spending at least RM40,000.

im suppose to be sitting in from of my desk studying for my quiz tomorrow by the way, but i have no mood to do so at all, instead here i am in front of my computer typing this crapz. hahaha~!!! im getting so blardy restless already... it's like non stop one after another assignments after assignments after quizes and then exams again~!!! i can't help but to slow down and curi tulang a little.

i've not been in a very good mood today. throwing temper all around. snapping at evrybody that talks to me. im not sure why also. but im feeling better now already.

some random thoughts, there are many things that i have lost and gained back lately, things that i thought i'm better of without. but when i do not have it, i realise that i miss it a lot. so now that i have it again, i can't stop thinking about it. wondering all this what if i've had it all a long. hahaha~!!! but humans are like that, they don't appreciate what ever they have and only realise it's goodness efter it's gone.

so how far would you go for another person? so found out oso that friends would go all out for those they care about. i know people who hate seeing people they care being ill treated. they would keep a grudge for you even after you yourself have long ago forgot about the incident. they would bare with you even for hours just to make sure you will be ok during the times you feel like pulling your own head off. you will agree to do the silliest things for the heck of it just to see your friend smile. i know people of all these trades. they are my friends. thankful for that... love you people to the max~!!!

actually i have nothing to blog about, just feel like typing something. feeling so blardy restless and tired. just feel like lazing. haiz~ so this entry is just about some random thoughts and crapz~ will blog properly later lar, k?

test yourselves on LEO

Create your own Friend Test here

Copy shien's idea... hehe... hope you don't mind ya? test yourself on me by the way...

p/s: shien, sorry cos i did very badly for your test...i damn shy...hehe...

Phone Survey~

1. What color is your phone?
- Silver

2. Who's the first person who comes up
under the letter M?
- Manny Ko Ko

3. Who's the last person you called?
- Lynnette, my sister

4. Who was your last missed call from?
- jeffrey loh

5. Who's the 2nd person who comes up
under D?
- daryl ong

6. Who's speed dial 2.?
- My Crib~!! :-)

7. Who's the 3rd person who comes up
under J?
- jeffrey loh

8. Who was your last received call from
- Cousin Emily

9. Who's speed dial number 4?
- Ken~ :-)

10. What is your background?
- Ninja Turtle, Donatello to be exact...

11. How many text messages are
currently in your inbox?
- 20 messages

12. Who's speed dial #3?
- Lim Kong Sem @ My dad~!!!

13. What's the 5th message say in your
inbox?
- "what is heroes charlie andrew's powers?" -yhwee-

14. Who's the 1st person who comes up
under B?
- Balance Check...*sweat*

15. Who was your last text message
from?
- Tai Yi Kwan

16. Name every person you have text
messages from:
- Tai Yi Kwan, Yhwee, Ken, Unc. Jimmy Jeffrey Loh, Joo li, Radikah, and the list goes on...

17. Have you seen the 101 Chuck Norris
facts?
- wat is that wor...??

18. Who's the 9th person on your
missed calls?
- tak sampai 9 oso...

19. What does the 6th message in your
Outbox say?
- no messages in my outbox lar...

20. Who is the first name in your
phonebook?
- aaron poh

21. Who is the last name in your
Phonebook?
- ze xin

22. Do you have a camera phone?
- yupz

23. Who is the last person under G ?
- GSC Melaka

24. What does the last text message
say in your inbox?
- "Hei, Tq 4 @day, had a gd time wif u Hope u dun mind & hope yr parents was ok oso Haha..D lunch was 4 yr bday Jus sori didnt makan on yr bday itself ...N tq oso 4 d presents Reali like it, seriously!!Next time wil wear d shirt wen i c u k N d cover wil keep my ipod warn COOL EH?!wil cal u if i wana cum tmr k"
-ken, Nov 8 2006, 11.44pm-

25. Who is the second person under K?
- Ken~!!! :-)

26. What is your ringtone?
- avril Lavigne - girlfriend

quotes of our time

So let's see... people say we have the Malaysian Slang also known as the Manglish. so these are a few quotes, words and abbreviations that we create and often used when we speak.

a) As we all know, we Malaysians hardly end our sentences with a fullstop (.). we will have to use a weird expression such as a 'lah!' or a 'mah!' when we want to end what we say.

for example: 'can lah!', or 'whatever lah!', or 'i'm busy mah!'

b) as weird as it sounds but we are spotting more and more 'wei!' and 'man!' being used in our conversations as our exclamation mark (!).

for example: 'hot wei!', or 'slow wei!', or 'nice man!'

c) When we want to emphasize on something we often use the word 'damn'. this word is often used with the head tilted slightly tilted backwards and nodding.

for example: 'this place damn nice!', or 'the food here damn syiok'

d) When we agree with other, we will use the word(s), 'true' or 'true true', with head nodding slightly by in a faster manner. these words are mostly used on it's on with no follow through of words.

e) many of the above mentioned words can be used together. such as the words 'damn... lah!' or 'damn... wei!'

for example: 'so damn hot wei!' or 'damn nice lah!'

f) in America, they greet each other with 'hello, how are you' in Australia they'll greet each other with 'good day, mate' or 'how are you doing, mate' in Malaysia it's 'Amacam!' or 'Eh, macha...' followed by the hand shake or shoulder slap. it's usually used with a slightly emplified voice.

g) In other countries they will classify their people with words like hippies, or bikers. in Malaysia we use 'Mat Rempit' and 'Ah Beng' to classify our people.

Mat Rempit = Youngsters who rides on Motorcycles
Ah Beng = Youngsters who wear bellbottoms and cuss their lungs out.
Banana = Chinese who knows nothing about Chinese
Ah Lian = Girls who want to think that they are born in Taiwan/Hong Kong
Keling = Indians

h) when expressing our embarassment on something, we use the quote 'damn shy' and when asking about other's embarassment we use 'don't know how to shy ah?'. 'damn shy' can also be used with a 'wei'

for example: 'damn shy wei!'

i) other words used when you are agreeing with another party is 'ya man!'. again these words are used on it's own without a follow through.

j) the newer word used currently will be 'seriously?'. it is used when in doubt about something. used with eyed open wide and head nodded. this word is adapted from the hit drama series GREY'S ANATOMY.

So these are the few quotes and word i've learned and used ever so often in my conversations. please feel free to add on any that you can think of in my comment column. hehe...

Chinese New Year 2007

i kena marah wei... hahaha~!!! didn't blog for so long already.

okay, let's review this year's Chinese New Year. it's been fun, very fun in fact though there wasn't any 2.40 clanz 'house hopping', but there were other substitutes such as the survivor bash, the drinking sessions, the most anticipated lion dance, my sister's homecoming and many many red packets~!!!!

i had friends who came for visiting from the 1st day thru the 3rd day. on the first night itself, about 7 of my temple friends came over after attending kim's open house (behind my house). so there was venessa, daryl, khoon, jon, kim, aretha and li ying. according to them there was suppose to be another car load of people but they weren't aware that the rest was coming to my house, they went straight to aaron's open house. so anyways that was the 1st day.

then came the 2nd day of Chinese New Year. Jo Neil and Joo Li came to visit me in the evening. then we adjourned to Jo Neil's place to see Jo Neil's parents. after that together we went to Siaw Keen's place for a light stim boat. oh ya, by the way during the wee hours of the 2nd day of Chinese New Year, the first shop outside my taman was caught on fire. i was alerted when it happen but too sleepy to bother (sorry su ling, i don't mean to be rude).

3rd day was the day where i invited all my friends to come over to my house to watch the lion dance. may pin, chien howe, wei pinn, Jacyln and Shi En came over, just in time when the lion started dancing. after the performance, they had some light lunch that my mum cooked. then taht night wei pinn, don and i when to Jonker Walk for dinner, after that we did not feel like we wanted to go home yet, so we went to Bert's for a drink. Don treated us with a plate of stimmed chili scallops. my recommendation, Corona Beer taste good with slices of Lemon.

on the 4th day of Chinese New Year, Jacyln, Shi en, Wei Pinn and i went for Ghost Rider. That movie was not too bad but, in my opinion not elaborated enough. it could do better. i did not like the fact where the villian dies in just 30 seconds within encounter with the Ghost Rider, litterally. even the main villian dies so easily. but the Rider himself is so cool... too cool, like wei pinn said to be the ghost.

on the 5th night of Chinese New Year, i was cast away to JacJac island a.k.a the island of survial. i had to compete and fight in order to survive on the island. i was being carved on my forearm as a sign of being in my tribe. but before i could do any good for my side of survivor, i was quickly been 'exhile' by our opponent's leader, Shi En. i fought with a jet water spray to protect our tribe's fort but in vile.

on the 5th night of Chinese New Year, Don, Jac, Wei Pinn and i had dinner at Portugis Settlement. we had a feast of various seafoods including siput and kerang/kupang looking things. then after that we decided that we wanted to go for clubbing. we heard of this club called sunshine bar, we heard that it was damn cool. so we went to check it out. but i guess we were a bit late, the place was already packed with people and had not vacant seats. so we went to Pure Bar instead. after a bit of drinking, we dance. i left early, around 1.30am. so i don't know what happen after that.

after that i had reruns and marathons of grey's anatomy and nip/tuck for the rest of the holiday until sunday where my family when for a car ride to visit the temples, routine of Chinese New Year.

this year is the year where i started drinking (after Langkawi). so of cause there is much more alcohol involved during the festival. but i have yet to gamble and im not about to. scared to lose...hahahhaha~!!! overall it's been one of the most enjoyable year for me. never felt so much freedom before.

so that's about it for my Chinese New Year 2007... i probably will upload some photos ltr.

When you are bored... you'll do this too...

1. Who were you with last night?
`` Joo Li~!!! Shopping for CNY at MP and DP~!!!

2. What woke you up this morning?
`` just woke up on my own because i thought it was very late already...

3. Where are you?
`` at home in my computer room...

4. Is tomorrow going to be a good day?
`` it's a freaking monday, class starts at 8am~!!! Black Monday~!!!

5. Did you kiss or hug anyone today?
`` hehe... nope...

6. When's the last time you cried?
`` while watching a drama... but can't remember which drama di... i think it was the singapore drama kua...

-The PAST-

10. Ever thrown up in public?
`` Nope~!!!

12. What's on your mind RIGHT NOW?
`` hehe... who else lei????

-The FUTURE -

13. Would you take a bullet for anyone?
``Nope i don't think i will... even if i wanted to, i don't think the person who i want to safe will want me to, it's logic, think about it.

14. Where would you like to live?
`` Australia~~~~ Melbourne city is Leo's heaven.

15. What kind of home would you like?
`` A big big house with a big big garden so that i can rare many many DogDogs~!!!

16. What do you want to be when you grow up?
`` a bartender... hehe...

17. Where do you see yourself in 5 years?
`` working and learning

- ON FRIENDSTER -

20. who is your number one?
`` wat number 1? still have number 1?

22. Who have you kissed one of your top friends?
`` nope~!!! wonder how it would taste like huh...?

23. Who was the last person that left you a comment?
`` nobody left me any comments yet... huhu~!!

24. Are you good friends with this person?
`` if got sure they'd be one of my friends wan mah..

25. How often do you log in to friendster?
`` everytime im online lor...

- IN GENERAL -

27.Do you like candy necklaces?:
``nope i dun like... reminds me of the candy bracelet Johnny Depp wears.

28. When was the last time you fell over or ran into something?
`` i think i tripped on my own leg sometime last week.

29. Do you listen to music every day?
`` yupz...music makes the world go round~!!!

30. Do you still go trick or treating?
`` i live in Malaysia lar... where got such thing here lei?

31. What was the last thing you ate?
`` Maggi Mee... so pathetic right?

32. Are you a fast typer?
`` no very fast lar... no very slow also lar...

33. About how many people have you liked?
`` the one that i really liked... there is only 1 lor. other than that are all just mild/lame crushes lor.

34. What are you doing this weekend?
`` the weekend just ended lar... tommorow going back to school di.

35. Whats your favorite type of soda?
`` I dun like to drink soda... don't like carbonated drinks...

36. Have you ever moved?
`` yupz, 14 years ago...

37. Have you ever won an award?
`` what award? to be the world's sloppiest girl?

38. Single or Taken?
`` Single, Independent and Free~!!!!!

39. What do you want to do right now?
`` Sit around the whole day doing absolutly nothing at all~!!!

40. Are you listening to music right now?
`` yupz, Zhang Dong Liang's Bei Ji Xing De Yan Lei (Tears of Polaris) from the drama Wei Xiou Pasta (Smilling Pasta)

41. Are you with someone right now?
`` With Mummy and Daddy at home lor...

42. Whats a word or phrase that you love?
`` I want someone who can keep up with me, not compete with me.

43. How long until your birthday?
`` Long Long more to go... towards the end of the year lar...

44. When was you the saddest in your whole life ?
`` When he told me that he was not ready to commit lor...

45. What time is it?
`` 1.58pm hot Sunday afternoon.

47. What makes you pissed off?
`` people's misconception on me~!!!

48. Have you ever had a song written about you?
`` Nope... that's so cliche~!!!

49. What song makes you cry?
`` i don't cry listenning to songs...

50. What song makes you happy?
`` right now? erm... The Veronicas - Speechless ringing from my handphone~!!!

51. What do you like to listen to before you go to bed?
`` anything~~~

52. Do you have a job?
`` Nope... im a Slug... only know how to laze around wor...

53. What does Your CD player have in it right now?
`` no more CDs.... all mp3 only...

54. If you were a crayon what color would you be?
`` erm... ORANGE~!!!

57. What's the next CD you're gonna get?
`` apa CD-CD lagi lar?? Mp3 era di lar...

[Height:]
154 cm

[Hair:]
Long Black Straight hair

[Eye Color:]
dark brown

[Piercings:]
4 on my ears...

[Tattoos:]
someday soon...

[wearing right now?]
t-shirt and surfer's shorts...

[What taste is in your mouth?]
Coffee~!!!

[Have a bad habit?]
Caffine addiction... hehe...

2006:
[X]Sucked for me
[] Was awesome
[]Was ok. It was awesome sometimes, then sucked sometimes.

2006 I...
[X] Dumped someone
[ ] Was dumped.
[ ] Dyed my hair
[X] Failed a class
[ ] Had love at first sight
[ ] Stayed up all night
[X] Cried because I missed someone
[X]Missed curfew
[X] Kissed someone who I regret kissing
[ ] Made honor roll
[ ] Danced crazily with my friends all night
[X] Gained confidence
[X] Lost a friend(s)
[X] Gained new friends
[ ] Changed looks

2007 I want to...
[X] Get better grades
[ ] Care less about how I look
[X] Care more about how I look
[X]be crazier
[ ] Keep my resolution(s)
[X] Be more of myself around certain people
[ ] Graduate and leave that God forsaken place we all know as school.

Repost this as the most personal quiz.