Avril Lavigne - Keep Holding On

You're not alone
Together we stand
I'll be by your side, you know I'll take your hand
When it gets cold
And it feels like the end
There's no place to go
You know I won't give in
No I won't give in

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

So far away
I wish you were here
Before it's too late, this could all disappear
Before the doors close
And it comes to an end
With you by my side I will fight and defend
I'll fight and defend
Yeah, yeah

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Hear me when I say, when I say I believe
Nothing's gonna change, nothing's gonna change destiny
Whatever's meant to be will work out perfectly
Yeah, yeah, yeah, yeah

La da da da
La da da da
La da da da da da da da da

Keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through
Just stay strong
'Cause you know I'm here for you, I'm here for you
There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

Keep holding on
Keep holding on

There's nothing you could say
Nothing you could do
There's no other way when it comes to the truth
So keep holding on
'Cause you know we'll make it through, we'll make it through

* Keep holding on and stay strong *

Summing up the year

in general... what's 2006 to me? one word... a nightmare.

ok... lets start from the very beginning. My bought my computer in January. according to my dad it's quite canggih. i was told it's a pentium 4 3.2, with 1 Gb RAM and 120 Gb hardisk space. then i was obsessed with it for a while till i learnt that my computer actually does not have a graphic card. but thanks to the 1 Gb RAM, though lagging, i actually learnt to play many computer games. my favourites are the sims 2, and many tycoon types of games.

somewhere in january or febuary, some pEoplE got me addicted to the drama series The OC, so many parts of january thru March (i think) i was busy downloading the whole series to my computer. my limewire wa working over time and in the end i finish watching the whole thing even before starworld finish screening the 10th episode. then the dwoloading stopped when the season 3 came to an end. season 4 has just started to screen somewhere last month. so now i've been downloding, currently it's episode 6.

then came march where a group of us went to MP for the hitz.fm birthday bash. it was an experience alright. we met all of our favourite radio DJs. they are all so friendly. and unexpectedly met my teenage idol, THE MOFFATTS~!!! Clint and Bob Moffatt where there performing as guest performers. they are still as skinny as ever but undoubtedly cute. in the same month my brother came back from china.

then my uncle, my very favourite one in fact, gave the whole family a major scare. he was admitted into the hospital and was pre-diagnose with lung cancer. he was very weak for a while. then after a month or so... miraculously, he made a full recovery. everyone is happy. but the bad news is he has just started to smoke again. some people just does learn ya?

then it was may already... actually i do not lke to elaborate much about may until october... it's like a nightmare which i just hope im able to erase from my head. just thinking about it make the hair on my back stand. just summarize the whole thing, there was this guy that i met and got together with. lets just call him Superglue. because like his name, he IS very much just a blob of superglue. he expects to spent every living minute together. he does things that he thinks couple should be doing, i bet half the time he is doing anything he doesn't even know why is he or why should he be doing it. so end of october i decided enough is enough and ended the hell. and im glad i did. so let's just not mention the past may thru october that ruin my entire year, ever again. PLEASE~!!!

so now we are in december already. im sitting here typing this crap when im suppose to be studying for my finals coming up next week. but i'm just so not in the mood to study at the moment. im still not done pesterring my dad to get me a 3d graphic card for my darling computer. but i'll get it by hook or by crook. what's on my mind rite now is grey's anatomy... the oc... grey's anatomy... the oc... thanks to good friends of mine. hahaha~!!!

ok...lessons i've learnt in year 2006:-

1) don't love too easily. it not only hurts youself but hurts others more. learn first don't love yet. open my eyes more widely to look further and not only look at the present. don't think about enjoyment only. there a lot more to life.

2) close my ears when friends talk about interesting dramas. be cautious. it's very addictive. goodness~!!!

3) be patient. wait... look how many people are laughing at me now because i did not wait and just menjunam tanpa melihat. look how im regretting my own actions now.

4) im such a push over. i must learn to be stronger and learn to say no. even people who you think loves you can take advantage of you when you give too much.

anywayz, im looking to a better 2007 i hope. what have been done throughout this year, i can't erase them, i can't undo them, i can only learn from them. rite?

so to everybody, once again HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007~!!!!

Happy New Year~!!!

so it's like a tradition every year where when the new year is approaching, we make a train track list of resolutions we know we will not obey to, right?

so let's see what i have install for myself next year... let's create a list of vows to break~!!! yay~!!!

1) do not obsess on guys (in general lar)
2) do not touch alcohol
3) do not gamble (applies to CNY especially)
4) do not let little things get at me
5) do not be demanding ( as in do not have too much wants that i know i can't have)
6) study hard
7) stop day dreaming
8) stop being a phone freak
9) be neat
10) be a GIRL for once
11) learn to dress up
12) learn to put on make up
13) learn to pull own eye brows
14) stop thiking about holidays
15) GROW UP
16) learn Mandarin
17) less computer time
18) less caffiene per day
19) do not be paranoid
20) learn how to drive (seriously)
21) be obidient
22) no more waist length hair
23) stop whinning
24) less computer games
25) wake up early
26) sleep early
27) stay single
28) go temple more often
29) clean up my room
30) stop spending so much

so most of the things that i stated above are all erm... breakable... i should say. so that's why i say there is actually no use making a long list. you know for yourself that you will not keep them, unless of cause for those with very strong will power.

no matter what... the purpose of this post is to wish everyone reading this crap HAPPY NEW YEAR 2007~!!! May you have a lot of joy, love and happiness throughout the new year~!!! May all of you enjoy only the best in everything you do~!!! May it also mean the renewal of our friendship~!!! HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE~!!!

A to Z about Leo

A is for age:
@ 20 and two months exactly

B is for beer of choice:
@ i don't know how to drink sadly... langsung not chinese sialz...

C is for career right now:
@ Student... majoring in messing up and over obsessing on things that i like...

E is for essential item you useeveryday:
@ the thing that i'm looking at now... my PC, secondary is my k700i

F is for favorite TV show at the moment:
# Grey's Anatomy

G is for favorite game:
# currently it's volleyball..

H is for Home town:
# Malacca my home...

I is for instruments you play:
@ use to be able to play the guitar... i gave up after realising that my fingers aren't long enough

J is for favorite juice:
@ juice? i only have ONE favourite liquid, it's called COFFEE...

K is for whose butt you'd like to kick:
@ the K in this question will stand for Ken in my answer... i want to kick him in the butt for making me feel like this for him now

L is for last place you eat:
@ in front of my PC while watching Grey's Anatomy

M is for music:
@ Ah Yue - Ai Wo Bie Zhou

N is for next trip you will be taking:
@ SINGAPORE~!!! go shopping for CNY

O is for overnight hospital stays:
@ don't ever wish that i will have to frequent it...

P is for people you were with today:
@ That will be Chi ei and Radikah... then there is my parents and later my baby nephew and his parents

Q is for quote:
@ how do you think a sloth mates?

R is for Biggest Regret:
@ forcing feelings for someone i know i won't have real feelings for...

S is for status:
@ single n lovin' it~!!!

T is for time you woke up today:
@ 9+ to help mum make tang yuen

U is for the color of your umbrella:
@ pink.... and pink panther designs all over...

V is for vegetable you love:
@ every single green leaf except for those with scent

W is for worst habit:
@ shaking my feet...

X is for x-rays you've had
@ my teeth and my heart

Y is for yummy food you eat today:
@ instant noodles from China

Z is for zodiac sign:
@ libra...it's totally untrue what they say about librans, by the way.

*sorry im just very bored at the moment...waiting for more Grey's Anatomy episodes to finish downloading*

Merry Christmas and Happy New Year...

so christmas is around the corner... everyone is getting in the mood, everybody is busy buying presents, planning dinner parties, decorating their houses with bright lights and christmas trees. but why... why am i not in the mood for the celebration? i don't even know...

anyways i've always been a person who has a lot of wants... but i never have enough means to meet the wants. if i were in the mood i would have came out with a mile long christmas wish list, asking santa to bring me many many unnecessary material needs that i make myself want. things that would probably make me happy, be my anti-depressant for awhile. stuffs like:

1) a Play Station Portable
2) a good 3D Display card for my PC
3) a shopping spree, for free, at Rip Curl or Billabong
4) an iPod video
5) a holiday in any part of the world outside Malaysia
6) a w850i Sony Ericsson walkman phone
7) a whole new wardrobe
8) a big room filled with a life long supply of coffee

stuffs like that... but like you already know... u will not be satisfied even if santa give you the whole world but you do not have happiness. even a million dollars will run dry one day. so for this christmas, i do not want anything materialistic from santa. there's just a few things that i hope santa can bring me... things like:

1) i want santa to bring me someone to cuddle/hug/kiss... someone that i truely like and not make-believe like. someone who will share my dreams with me and not laugh at me, someone who is willing to take the leap of faith with me and not chicken out, someone who will laugh and cry with me and not just throwing so-called lover's talk at me, someone who i know will hold my back if i ever fall. someone i can finally call my true love. because i do not want to be hurting another person's feelings, i don't not want to hurt my own feelings anymore...

2) i want santa to give me courage and will power in life. so that i can repair my very torn and battered self esteem. so that i can, for once, not afraid to open up to people around me. so that i don't have to wear a mask everyday pretending that i'm happy. so that i can be proud of myself and not feel like a failure. so that i can leave up to my parent's expectations and not hurt them anymore. so that i can be brave to face the real world.

there's only this two things that i truly want...

Essentials for a good relationship

1) Trust: If you truely love that someone, you will trust that person in every situation. whether it comes to another member of the opposite sex or being away from each other for a period of time. you must believe that if the other party really does like you, he or she will know better to not betray your trust. if the person does go over board in anything, he or she is not worth your love.

2) Life: You must have a life besides your significant other. always remember that your world does not revolve around her, neither does her world revolve around you. give the person you love enough breathing space, for suffocation can kill the relationship. unless mutual want or agreed, nobody likes to be tied down. give him or her the time he or she needs.

3) Don't take advantage: Don't take for granted of the kindness of your love one. he or she might not visibly show his or her dissatisfaction towards you but you know better to control yourself. don't kick a fuss if you don't get what you want. listen to the other person's view. respect it. don't feel like as if you should be treated like queen or king just because the other person loves being with you. remember, even kindness can get exhausted.

4) Respect: Loving a person also equals respecting the person. If your lover decides to or decides not to do something, respect that decision. do not ever force the person you love to do something he or she does not like to do. if he or she tell your his or her dreams, or share her problem with you, do not laugh at her. always listen, offer a crying shoulder and never make her feel worst or put her down.

5) Accepting: You fell in love with the girl in shabby clothes in the first place, why do you need to change the way she dresses later on in the relationship? you fell in love with her as she originally was, if you change her, won't she be a different person already? learn to accept little things like that in a relationship. do not attempt to change him or her. i'll be really hurting. it's like asking the other person to be something or someone else they're not. if you are not satisfied with these little things, go find yourself someone else you think fits.

6) Talk: And i mean TALK not argue. no one relationship is perfect but doesn't mean you have to pick on every little thing to argue about. if you find something that you might not be happy about, talk it through. there is no use in arguing. arguing only will created more anger. when anger is not resolved, there will be bigger consequences to pay.

7) Listen: Sometimes we talk so much, we forget to listen. listen when your lover is talking, do not interrupt him or her till she is done. and listen carefully. as every sentence has it's hidden meanings. listen carefully. sometimes it's not always the other party that is at fault. sometimes lowerring your ego and admitting your own mistakes can be a blessing in disguise.

8)Go Slow: Marriage and children can wait. why not take the moment and enjoy loving each other first? rushing into things can be a big mistake. there are people who likes being love and not rush. don't make hasty plans for the future. being in a relationship is already a big commitment. don't pressure your love one with more. they might run a mile, and very quickly away from you.

**so here are a few thing i think is important for those who are in a relationship, as for me, may it help you in anyways**

Don't Take Life for Granted

Moment of silence in memory of our friend Ahmad Tarmizi

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He passed away yesterday, did not survive the road accident he was involved in. it's never nice to hear about a death, especially the death of someone we knew. in life, we never know and never WILL know what could happen. we can't take anything for granted and bluff ourselves that everything will be fine and nothing bad will befall on us. love the people around you, let them know that you love them all the time. appreciate everything you have. because you will not know how long you will have them. don't only regret when you've lost them. above it all, love yourself, think about all consequences of your actions. don't be selfish. look around you, what you see is just illusions and you won't have anything forever. nothing is permanent. so always appreciate what you already have.

to the family of our dearly missed friend, condolence and we all share the burden of loosing a loved one. may you rest in peace my friend.

Amatuer

Im an amatuer when it comes to love and relationships. and i tink i might be suffering from the fear of commitment. one of the cause of my last failed relationship is because he was becoming too commited and i got scared. tell me, in every relationship, is sticking together most of the time a neccesity? because i can't seem to feel comfortable doing that.

right now, i can't picture myself staying with only one person. no, no don't get me wrong, i don't mean i want to have flings or have affairs while in a relationship. what i mean is that i don't see myself being able to commit into something, that seem to me, so huge. it's too scary and a lot of hard work. maybe i'm just not ready for it yet, ya? i feel the need to play and be free and not being tied down.

till now, im 20 years 1 month and 1 day old, i can honestly tell you that i have not actually felt true love. the feeling that supposely make you all floaty and craps like that or easier said, the feeling where you would litterally die for a person, i never felt it. am i a horrible person? i don't even know how to love. god~!!! what kind of a person im? i do wonder whether i will ever feel it. do sincerely do want to be love and be able to love the person in return. well, probably the right person hasn't come along.

so now, i've decided that i don't want to break anymore hearts as long as i can't get over my 'phobia'. because as long as the 'fear' is there, im just going to repeat the mistake time and again. unless well, if the right person ... *ahem* ... decides to break this 'invisible wall' of mine, ya? who supports me????

Life's like that...

have you ever wanted something but after you got it, you realise that you don't need or not ready to have it yet? ya... that's how im feeling now lar basically. except it's not like i don't need or unready but it's more like i don't know how to use it. get what i mean?

i've always felt like as if i do not get enough freedom from my parents. i always feel like a kid at home. i feel like my parents holds on me too tightly and all. i want them to let go a little, be more relax on me. i not only want them to let go, but (Jennifer Aniston's quote from the Break-Up) i want them to WANT to let go.

i don't like to do things that people does not like me to do. i like the sense of freedom and not guilty. get what i mean? i like willingness and not force. but no... my parents don't see that. they don't understand that. when i try to talk to them about it, they think im trying to rebel. basically im just stuck.

i understand that whether your are the eldest, middle or youngest child, in the order of your siblings, you have different responsiblities. and it is not easy being either. but they always say being the youngest is the easiest. and we are known to be spoilt for being given what we want all the time. but no... not this family, trust me.

being the youngest is only fun when you are young. when you come to my age, you will want to break free but in your parents eyes, you are still a baby. you know you are capable and will want to do many things on your own but again you are a baby. you try your best to do the things you think will please them but it's never enough, why? because you are a baby and you can never match up to your more telented, independent, elder siblings.

you will never grow up in their eyes. i understand that all parents will regard their children the same way, as in you will be kids in their eyes even after you turn 40. but for the older ones, you do grow up. the youngest will always stay a baby. it's frustrating and suffocating for us as the youngest sometimes.

it's like they do not want to let go of you because they are afraid to feel the 'empty nest' syndrome. so they will hold on to us for as long as they can. so don't blame us when sometimes you might think that we are rebels or spoilt. it's only because we are deprived of freedom and independence that we all so long for, that's the reason we rebel.

as the youngest, we have to work doubley or maybe even tripley harder than our older siblings to earn our independence. no matter how hard we try it's never enough. we are always babies in their eyes. they'll refuse to understand or admit that it's time we grow up. they'll always be in denial that we are capable.

what do i do now?

anyway, this sem is really very rush. next week i will be sitting for my first mid term paper di. so fast, rite? too fast... australia is still so fresh in my head and i have to sit for exam again di. haiz... but good oso lar...

than there's volleyball lessons. oo, for those who does not know, im taking volleyball lessons as cocuriculum this sem. im not good at it, in fact im not good in any sports at all. but i look forward to the lessons ony for 1 reason... hehe...

than that's all lor... actually i have absolutely nothing to blog about. i just feel like typing sometings. oh ya... another thing, i just did some 'spring cleaning' in my blog. i threw away some (now) senseless posts and other embarassing ones too... hehe... go read lar.

49 Facts About Me ---> my latest update

1..Are u photogenic?
>> no lar~!!! i hate looking at myself in photos... bluek~!!!

2. What time do you go to bed?
>> It used to be pass midnite into the wee hours of the morning, but lately it has been much earlier like 11+ i pengsan di wan...

3. What was the last thing you did before this?
>> eat lunch lor...eat wan tan mee with su ling...

4. Who's the one you always meet the most?
>> besides my parents, i see a lot of jo neil, joo li, jeff, radikah, chi ei, junjune and many more. the prob is i can't just name A personcause the people i meet always comes in package(s).

5. Who's the person you'll call if you need help?
>> i have a very high self ego, i seldom ask for help. that's the prob you see, i wait till things get really mess up than only i shout for help...haiyo...

6. What's on your mind right now ?
>> tomorrow... hehe...

7. What do you prefer?american idol/malaysian idol?
>> what about Australian...?

8. With whom do you wanna be with to have fun?
>> the person who is in my mind now.

9. What movie do u wanna watch now?
>> erm... tak ada lar...

10. When was the last time you went out?
>> about an hour ago...

11. What do you hate the most for now?
>> hate is a very powerful word, i tak layak to use it lar... i hate no one.

12. What do you do everyday besides eat & sleep?
>> in front of my darling baby PC~!!!!

13. Colors that make you happy ?
>> orange and all the other bright colors...

14. Most fav thing in your room ?
>> MY BABY DARLING PC~!!!

15. Miss someone?
>> yupz...so very much

16. Plan to buy something?
>> i've exited my monthly budget, have to wait till next month oni can spent somemore.

17. Are you satisfied with your life now?
>> do i need to be? there's always room for improvement lei...

18.Do you like seafood?
>> love it~!!!

19.Breakfast or dinner?
>> somewhere in the middle... hahaha~!!!

20. like chocolates?
>> only bitter sweet dark chocs... other than that nah...

21. Do you have a laptop?
>> i have a (semi) powerful desktop, why do i need a lappy? i love my desktop a lot~!!!

22. What's your favorite food from fast food?
>> tom yum bihun soup from johnny's ---> is johnny's a fast food outlet?

23. Cats or dogs?
>> Dogs lar~!!!! aiyo... cats geli lar...tak boleh tahan.

24. Salty or sweet?
>> salty lor...

25. City or country?
>> live in the country, party in the city~!!!

26. Is kissing normal for your age?
>> hello...? im 20 years old... if it's not normal, then how old oni can be considered 'normal' wor?

27. Are you athletic?
>> nopez...

28. Favourite bands for now?
>> Panic! at the disco, and hinder...

29. Do you have your own cell phone?
>> yupz... but i want a new one... huhu...

30. What do you wear to bed?
>> t-shirt and boxers...

31.Ever had a crush on a teacher in high school?
>> eeeeyer.... every teacher of mine reminds me of my own father... you say lei~!!!

32. Coke or pepsi?
>> i don't drink cardonated drinks lor...

33. sugar or spice?
>> spice~!!!

34. Can you use chopsticks?
>> i won't call myself chinese if i cant...

35. Do you care about getting good grades?
>> nope...at the level i am now... im happy to just pass wei~!!!

36.Have you ever fallen asleep in class?
>> nope...honest~!!!

37. Get a job or ask your parents for money?
>> if you have the time and qualification, of cause it's better to earn your own.

38. Is your mom strict?
>> yupz... need i say more?

39. Do your parents give you enough privacy?
>> nope... sometimes i feel that they are too involved with my life, but i know that they only mean well.

40. Do your parents trust you?
>> they worry about me a lot...but i can't blame them, im still their baby

41. Would you ever wanna lose your bestfriend?
>> hell no~!!! i love my bestfriend(s)~!!!!

42. Does your best friend get on your nerves?
>> hey, nobody is perfect k...

43. Do you make friends quickly?
>> can say so lar...

44. Do you tell your mom everything?
>> i use to... but i know better to not anymore now...

45. What do you & your parents fight about most?
>> many things lar...

46. If u love someone & she/he rejected u. What will u do to her/him?
>> nothing... happen before, but we are still good friends now lor...

47. Can u sing or rap?
>> nope... scream in the bath and toilet ya lar...

48. If u have one wish , who would u make ur wife/husband for life?
>> that guy lor... you know lar... duuu.... that one lar...

49. What do u think bout this survey?
>> ok only lar...

i hereby tag shi en, su ling, yong hwee, and may to do this survey.

I forgot the most important thing...

11) does a guy or will a guy know when a girl likes him, without her telling?

* answer this and also the questions in the previous post*

the truth might hurt...but i want to know

1) can or will a guy like a girl but just wants to be friends?

2) does a pinch (or a playful punch, etc.) for no reason mean anything?

3) can or will a guy (want to) be close to a girl that has hots for him?

4) how does guys really rate girls (between friend and girlfriend)?

5) what does it mean when a guy actually ask a girl to wait?

6) does a guy feel bad/guilty/jealous/etc. when the girl that once had hots for him falls for or is with another guy?

7) do guys enjoy presents?

8) what will a guy think of a girl who gives him presents?

9) is it possible that a guy wants to be with a girl, but just not YET?

10) how to win a guy's heart?

* people reading this, please respond to these silly questions by leaving a comment ya? thanks *

where is the love?

man~!!! what lousy friends i have~!!! nobody offer me any sympathy at all after a break up~!!! you know what is the worst? the 1st person who i told, actually LAUGH OUT LOUD at me~!!! hahahaha~!!! ade ker patut???

i thought i'm a very sadistic rperson, tak sangka got other people more more sadistic than me~!!! hahaha~!!!

no lar... actually i don't even sympathise myself. everybody saw it coming right? ya, i did too. that's why i dare not give out too much promises. better end it now than to do it later where the cut and heart break will be much more worst.

to every single friend of mine, thanks for all the love and support. though you people did not say much to me from the very beginning, i know all of you care a lot for me. thanks for taking my mind off everything. THANKS A LOT PEOPLE~!!!

Things in life...

sometimes not everything you want, you will definately get. it's sad and dissappointing. but you can do almost nothing escept to keep on hoping.

but sometimes what you hope your wish does came true but only not to you. it hurts even more. no matter how many times you say you were not pinning on it, you somehow know deep down inside you really wanted it. what you tell yourself is just self-soothing.

i know now how those with ex(s) that falls in love again, feels. especially when you have not really got over the other person. you can't bear the thought of him kissing the new person in his life, you start imagining the sweet words they tell each other before they go to sleep. you feel like crying.

but we cannot be selfish. when you are already leading a different life now, you cannot expect others to live it with you.somehow no matter what, life still has to go on.

i will move on and get over the fact that the sit is now taken, but after a good cry out...

*boooohooooo....*

Human beings...

sometimes understanding human beings is just so difficult. we are never satisfied with what we have. we demand for more and more. some people will give me the excuse of "there is always room for improvement" for this behavior. but they do not realise that attempting it will give their surroundings a lot of pressure and tension rises.

another thing is that it is so easy to blame other on your own mistakes. you did something wrong, you just give a stupid excuse or simply point your finger to another person. easy right? you get all the guilt off your shoulder and burden others with it instead. that's obnoxious~!!!!

than there are those who are jealous of other's success. they can't stand looking or feeling that others are doing better than them. they throw smelly glances, some even go to the extend of damaging or smug other's success, spreading rumours and accusations. i swear god has eyes and you will get back, if not worse, the hell you gave others~!!!

Human beings...

sometimes understanding human beings is just so difficult. we are never satisfied with what we have. we demand for more and more. some people will give me the excuse of "there is always room for improvement" for this behavior. but they do not realise that attempting it will give their surroundings a lot of pressure and tension rises.

another thing is that it is so easy to blame other on your own mistakes. you did something wrong, you just give a stupid excuse or simply point your finger to another person. easy right? you get all the guilt off your shoulder and burden others with it instead. that's obnoxious~!!!!

than there are those who are jealous of other's success. they can't stand looking or feeling that others are doing better than them. they throw smelly glances, some even go to the extend of damaging or smug other's success, spreading rumours and accusations. i swear god has eyes and you will get back, if not worse, the hell you gave others~!!!

Pussycat Dolls

im in the process of downloading all of pussycat dolls video clips... they are all so hot starting from Sway right up to Buttons. it's like i've never seen hotter video clips than those...

and i'm also going to download all of Initial D anime, all over again. I want to have a copy of the whole series in my PC.

And anybody reading these, anybody can contribute Boston Public, Boston Legal, Gilmore Girls and Roswell to me? hehe~!!!

:-P

1. FIRST NAME? Leonie

2.WERE YOU NAMED AFTER ANYONE? i don't know any famous people with the same name...but i know the meaning of my name is lioness though...

3. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY? yesterday...don't ask...

4. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING? i think so... but it's untidy most of the time.

5. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT? chicken...

6. KIDS? take a look at this pic... u dare to tell me i don't love them?


7. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU? of cause i will... why not? only i will most likely have to talk to me first... cause i don't really do 1st moves...

8. DO YOU HAVE A JOURNAL? i blog now... mostly. only my most private thoughts ends in a secret notebook i keep...

9. DO YOU USE SARCASM A LOT? not much... but can do with it.

10.DO YOU STILL HAVE YOUR TONSILS? almost had to get it removed when i was 11. but it healed... so i still have them today

11.WOULD YOU BUNGEE JUMP? in my life's to-do list...

12.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE CEREAL? cookie crisps... use to have it everysingle day in NS.

13.DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF? nope...it's tied 24/7

14.DO YOU THINK YOU ARE STRONG? i do not like to use my strength... so i do not know if i'm strong. and on the other defination of strong... i do not bounce back to live easily either...

15.WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM? strawberry cheesecake...

16.WHAT IS THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE ABOUT PEOPLE? their eyes i think...

17.RED OR PINK? RED RED RED all the way~!!! 'ang ang bo hai lang'

18.WHAT IS THE LEAST FAVORITE THING ABOUT YOURSELF? i'm a push over... :-)

19.WHO DO YOU MISS THE MOST? myself before this...

20.DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO SEND THIS BACK TO YOU? i don't want to do the same survey twice...

21.WHAT COLOR PANTS AND SHOES YOU ARE WEARING? my shorts are blue...and im not wearing any shoes currently...

22.THE LAST THING YOU ATE? bread and peanut butter...

23.WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW? i-gemz - here and now...it's a buddhist hymn if you are wondering...

24. IF YOU WERE A CRAYON, WHAT COLOUR WOULD YOU BE? ORANGE~!!! orange gives me the summer-ish feeling...

25. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL? coffee...

26. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE? My Dear...

27. DO YOU LIKE THE PERSON SENT THIS TO YOU? shi en. he is like my closes guy friend...can confind in him like...anytime...how can i not like him?

28.FAVORITE DRINK? coffee coffee...coffee everyday...

29.FAVORITE SPORT TO WATCH? you're talking about tv? like olympics for example? that will be gymnastics and swimming...

30.HAIR COLOR? natural black... the color of my hair is still 'virgin'

31.EYE COLOR? dark brown... everybody's is...

32.DO YOU WEAR CONTACTS? power too low to wear i guess...

34.SCARY MOVIES OR HAPPY ENDINGS? happy endings...

35.LAST MOVIE YOU WATCHED? click... with Yong Hwee Dearest... :-)

36.WHAT COLOR SHIRT ARE YOU WEARING? blue

37.SUMMER OR WINTER? summer...i like frolicking...hehe~!!!

38.HUGS OR KISSES? i love them both...

39.FAVORITE DESSERT? non...

40.MOST LIKELY TO RESPOND? if they are my friends...

41.LEAST LIKELY TO RESPOND? lazy bumpz...

42.WHAT BOOK ARE YOU READING? the chronicles of narnia...book 3 : the horse and the boy...

43.WHAT'S ON YOUR MOUSE PAD? bad boys...

44.WHAT DID YOU WATCH LAST ON TV? America's Next Top Model...

46.ROLLING STONES OR BEATLES? Beatles

47.THE FURTHEST YOU BEEN FROM HOME? Melbourne Australia...

49.WHEN WERE YOU BORN? 1986

50.WHERE WERE YOU BORN? Malacca

Tag: SU LING... DON... AND EVERYONE ELSE WHO STUMBBLES UPON THIS...

Life's Experiences?

Put numbers in the boxes instead of x's
(ex. 1, 2, 3, 4,)repost as "I have lived through
_ of these 99 things. "

[1] I have read a book before
[ ] I have run more than 2 miles without stopping. (How far is a mile?)
[ ] I have been to Canada.
[2] I have been on some sort of sports team.
[3] I have watched cartoons for hours before
[4] I have tripped UP the stairs.
[5] have fallen down an entire flight of stairs.
[ ] have been snowboarding/skiing.
[ ] I have played ping pong.
[6] I swam in the ocean.
[ ] I have been on a whale watch.
[7] I have seen fireworks.
[ ] I have seen a shooting star.
[ ] I have seen a meteor shower.
[8] I have almost drowned.
[9] I have been so embarrassed I wanted to
disappear.
[10] I have listened to one cd over & over & over
again.
[ ] I have had stitch(es).
[ ] I have licked a frozen pole and got stuck there.
[ ] I have stayed up til 6am doing homework
/projects.
[ ] I currently have a job.
[11] I have been ice skating.
[12] I have been rollerblading.
[13] I have fallen flat on my face.
[14] I have tripped over my own two feet.
[ ] I have been in a fist fight.
[15] I have played videogames/com for more than 3
hours straight.
[16] I have watched The Power Rangers before.
[ ] I do / have attended Church regularly.
[17] I have played truth or dare.
[18] I have already had my 16th birthday.
[19] I have already had my 17th birthday.
[20] I've called someone stupid. And meant it.
[21] I've been in a verbal argument.
[23] I've cried in school.
[ ] I've played basketball on a team.
[ ] I've played softball on a team.
[ ] I've played football on a team.
[ ] I've played soccer on a team.
[ ] I've done cheerleading on a team.
[ ] I've swam on a team.
[24] I've been swimming more than 20 times in my
life.
[ ] I've bungee jumped.
[ ] I've climbed a rock wall before.
[25] I've lost more than $20.
[26] I've called myself an idiot
[27] I've called someone else an idiot
[28] I've cried myself to sleep
[29] I've had (or have) pets.
[30] I've owned a Spice Girls cd. and or tape
[ ] I've owned a Britney Spears cd
[31] I've owned an N*Sync cd
[32] I've owned a Backstreet Boys cd
[ ] I've mooned someone
[33] I've sworn at someone in authority
[ ] I've been in the school newspaper / insights.
[ ] I've been on TV
[34] I've eaten sushi.
[ ] I've been on the other side of a waterfall
[ ] I've watched all of the Lord of the Rings
movies.
[35] I've watched all the Harry Potter movies.
[36] I've watched the 3 Stooges at least once.
[37] I've watched "Newlyweds" Nick & Jessica.
[38] I've watched Looney Tunes before.
[39] I've been stuffed into a locker
[ ] I've been called a geek.
[40]I've studied hard for a test and got a bad grade.
[41] I've not studied at all for a test and aced it.
[42] I've met a celebrity / music / TV artist.
[ ] I've written poetry.
[ ] I've been arrested
[ ] I've(had) been attracted to someone much
older than me
[43] I've been tickled till I've cried
[44] I've tickled someone else until they cried
[45] I've had / have siblings
[ ] I've been to a rock concert
[46] I've listened to classical music and enjoyed it
[47] I've been in a play
[ ] i've been picked last in gym class
[ ] I've been picked first in gym class or so
[ ] Ive been picked in that middle-range in gym
class.
[48] I've cried in front of my friends
[49] I've read a book longer than 1,000 pages
[50] I've freaked out over a sports game
[51] I’ve vomited in public
[52] I've washed someone else’s vomit
[ ] I’ve ran away
[ ] I’ve had a stalker
[53] I've had a fight with someone on txt
[54] I've had a fight with someone face-to-face
[55] I've been in a car accident
[56] I've forgiven someone who has done something
bad to me
[ ] I've personally seen someone die
[57] I've been confronted by a police officer but
got away
[ ] I've(had) lost someone who meant the world to
me

One Word Describes all~!!!

One Word

YOU CAN ONLY TYPE ONE WORD. NO
EXPLANATIONS.

Yourself: Moody

Your Lover: Touchy

Your Hair: Flowy

Your Mother: Unpredictable

Your Father: Logical

Your Favorite Item: PC

Your Dream Last Night: darkness

Your Favorite Drink: Coffee

Your Dream Home: Huge

The Room You Are In: Cramped

Your Pets: Shih-tzu*Pomenerian

What You Are Now: Stressed

Who You Want to be in Ten Years: Bartending?

What You Want to be in Ten Years: Successful

What You're Not: Smoker

Your Best Friend: Huggies***

One of Your Wishlist Items: PSP

Your Gender: Female

The Last Thing You Did : Blogged

What You Are Wearing: Singlet

Your Favorite Weather: Cloudy

Your Favorite Book: Geisha

The Last Thing You Ate: Tampal

Your Life: Mess

Your Mood: Sober

Favorite article of clothing: Sleeveless

Favorite color: Red

School: Lovable

Song: ShanHuHai

Tag: Everybody who reads this...hehehe~!!!

after a long long time...BABY I'M BACK~!!!

sorry for the cooling period...the reason i don't blog anymore is because...welll if you don't know it already, my blog got busted...

then i developed the phobia of blogging. i realised that walls doors and evrything has ears... and sepandai pandai tupai melompat akhirnya akan terjatuh jua...i don't know what is the relations of the 2 sentences, but anyway...

my life has been the same, pretty much. not much changes except i've straighten my hair again. quite surprising how long my hair actually is. it's at my waist length now.

to all my dearest fiends... sorry to have been so quiet in my page and in person lately...it's only because im going through a phase in life and im having difficulties handling. sorry if i've not been my usual self lately. i miss you guys so so so much~!!!

well...this is just a warm up of my new staring point of blogging (again). i miss blogging so much~!!!

Confessions of a Weirdo

1. Taken a picture naked? * NO
2. Painted your room? * YES
3. Made out with a member of the same sex? * NO
4. Drove a car? * YES
5. Danced in front of your mirror? * YES
6. Had a crush? * YES
7. Been dumped? * KIND OF...
8. Stole money from a friend? * NO
9. Gotten in a car with people you just met? * YES
10. Been in a fist fight? * NO
11. Snuck out of your house? * YES
12. had no feelings for sumone who had feelings for you? * YES
13. Been arrested? * NO
14. Made out with a stranger? * NO
15. Met up with a member of the opposite sex somewhere? * YES
16. Left your house without telling your parents? * YES
17. Had a crush on your neighbour? * NO (cannot imagine....bwahahaha)
18. Ditched school to do something more fun? * YES
19. Slept in a bed with a member of a opposite sex? * YES
20. Seen someone die? * NO (don't wish i have to either...)
21. Been on a plane? * YES
22. Kissed a picture? * YES
23. Slept in until 3PM? * NO
24. Tired? * YES
25. Laid on your back and watched cloud shapes go by? * YES
26. Made a snow angel? * NO
27. Played dress up? * YES
28. Cheated while playing a game? * YES
29. Been lonely? * YES
30. Fallen asleep at school? * NO
31. Been clubbing? * YES
32. Felt an earthquake? * YES (December 24 2004 - Tsunami... but stupid of me to blame the wind of the fan to cause my chair to shake... till i heard the news the next day)
33. Touched a snake? * YES
34. Ran a red light? * YES
35. Been suspended from school? * NO
36. Had detention? * SORT OF...
37. Been in a car accident? * YES
38. Hated the way you look? * YES
39. Witnessed a crime? * NO
40. Pole danced? * NO
41. Been lost? * YES
42. Been to the opposite side of the country? * YES
43. Felt like dying? * 2 DAYS AGO...
44. Cried yourself to sleep? * YES
45. Sang karaoke? * YES
46. Sucked your thumb? * NO
47. Done something you told yourself you wouldn't do? * YES
48. Laughed till some kind of beverage came out of your nose? * NO
49. Caught a snowflake on your tongue? * NO
50. Kissed in the rain? * NO
51. Sing in the shower? * YES
52. Made out in a park? * NO
53. Had a dream that you married someone? * NO
54. Glued your hand to something? * YES
55. Got your tongue stuck to a flag pole? * NO
56. Ever gone to school partially naked? * NO... (i go to MMU...)
57. Been a cheerleader? * NO
58. Sat on a roof top? * YES
59. Didn't take a shower for a week? * NO (i could not even stand not showering after 5 or 6 hours... and you are talking in weeks?)
60. Ever too scared to watch scary movies alone? * YES
61. Played chicken? * YES
62. Been pushed into a pool with all your clothes on? * YES
63. Been told you're cute by a complete stranger? * YES
64. Broken a bone? * NO
65. Been easily amused? * YES
66. Laugh so hard you cried? * YES
67. Mooned/flashed someone? * NO
68. Cheated on a test? * YES
69. Forgotten someone's name? * YES
70. Slept naked? * YES
71. Gone skinny dipping in a pool? * NO
72. Performed on stage? * YES
73. Blacked out from drinking? * NO
74. Played a prank on someone? * YES
75. Gone to a late night movie? * YES
76. Made love to anything not human? * NO
77. Ditched your best friend? * i don't mean to... (i'm so so sorry)
78. Choked on something you're not supposed to eat? * NO
79. Played an instrument for more than 10 hours? * NO
80. Cheated on a girl/boyfriend? * NO
81. Did you celebrate the 4th of July? * NO
82. Thrown strange objects? * NO
83. Felt like killing someone? * YES
84. Thought about running away? * YES (right now...)
85. Ran away? * NO
86. Did drugs? * NO
87. Have a crush on someone now? * NO
88. Dumped anyone? * NO
89. Made a parent cry? * YES
90. Cried over someone? * YES
91. Owned more than 5 lipgloss? * YES
92. Fell in love? * YES
93. Have/had a dog? * YES
94. Own an instrument? * YES
95. Been in a band? * NO
96. Drank 25 sodas in a day? * NO... (i take 3 days to finish a single can)
97. Broken a cd? * NO
98. Shot a gun? * YES
99. Dated a married person of the opposite sex? * NO
100. Written a love letter? * NO... (technology people... we use sms now. hahaha~!!!)

help me~!!!

I've been through hell... i fear i can't find my way back...

survey...

1. What is it about you that people don't really
notice?
:: that I can speak and understand mandarin and hokkien

2. What do people commonly mistake you for?
:: being innocent

3. Are you insecure?
:: not anymore...

4. Do you think you deserve better?
:: I believe in moderation... I’m happy having everything I have...

5. Do you find it easy to trust people?
:: nope~!!! Prove it to me that you are trustworthy man~!!!

6. Do you have a really big secret?
:: yesh~!!! *shhh...*

7. If yes, how many people have you told
about it?
:: not suppose to tell anyone lar... if not it won’t be a secret already right?

8. How are you when you get mad?
:: I cry... and shut myself up in my room...

9. What do you do when you're bored?
:: I won’t be bored with the accompany of my PC...

10. Do you smoke?
:: nope... I hate smoke from ciggies... it makes my nose water...

11. Do you mind smokers in your company?
:: Nope... hate it to the extreme...

12. Do you think watching the sunset or the
stars is fun?
:: yesh... especially with people you love... or while snuggling...

13. Do you like the rain?
:: only if thunder and lighting doesn’t accompany it...

14. What can you say about poetry?
:: I can’t write it...

15. Are you a phone person?
:: does SMS count?

16. Do you believe in fate and destiny?
:: was loosing faith in it... but it was proven wrong...

17. What song best describes how you feel
now?
:: Lonestar - Amazed

18. What impossible thing do you want to do
right now?
:: to be able to orb... like Paige.

19. What is missing in your life right this
moment?
:: nothing... I think... I feel almost complete...

20. Are you happy with the way things are
going in your lovelife?
:: I think so...

21. What do you have to say about your
previous lovelife?
:: blurry... no time to think about the past.

22. Where were you today?
:: home... then valuemax (made a pair of new specs)... then back home.

23. What did you do today?
:: eat, made a new pair of specs, called gentings, p.c-ing, going to call gentings again...

24. Who were you with today?
:: All alone... so lonely**

25. What are you planning to do now?
:: call gentings... complete the bookings....

26. Star sign?
:: Libra

27. Last night out? Where?
:: yesh... 2.40 with Su Ling...

28. Song playing to now?
:: Guang Liang – Tian Tang

29. Before this song?
:: some hokkien song...

30. What were you doing before this?
:: picking hair from the floor...

31. Now?
:: meddling with my 2nd baby...

32.Last movie watched?
:: M:I:3

33. Trusted someone whom you shouldn't
have?
:: yesh... that’s the past now...

34. Next big event?
:: Genting Trip... I really want it to happen~!!!

35. Best game ever played?
:: Roller Coaster 3 *with Soaked! expansion pack* (if only I have a 3D graphic card...it’ll be much more interesting)

36. Languages you can understand?
:: English, Malay, Mandarin... does dialects count? I can understand hokkien, hakka and teochew.

37. First thing u wanna do after ur exams?
:: Hang out with friends

38. The things you did there?
:: erm...

39. Best story ever read?
:: memoirs of a Geisha

40. What are you gonna do after this?
:: staying here...not going anywhere...how pathetic...

new look: Panda Face

i seriously think i look like a panda right now... have not been having consistent sleep for the pass week... if i go on another few more days like that, i sure will layu wan... all colours from my face drained.

i must catch up on my sleep ooo... i must regain all my energy by saturday.

X-Men 3 The Last Stand

My current wallpaper...



i find him very "sat"... haha~!!! i'm a sucker for X-Men~!!! Out in cinema on the 25 of May 2006~!!!

Wacky Wednesday~!!!

on Wednesday Su Ling, Adeline and i went to Makhota Parade for the openning of M:I 3.

at first when adeline told us about M:I 3, Su Ling and i were not interested. but we were thinking what the heck, just watch lar... then the ticket cost a BOMB -RM 9- lagi lar we sakit hati...

the the movie begun. the introduction was a bit blurry. but as the movie went on, it started to make more sense. the plot of the movie was ok... but it really is the intellegence and creativity of the film makers that makes the movie really interesting. all three of us was sitting at the edge of our chair throughout the movie.

tom cruise is cute. ethan(his character)is really cool. he can lip read, he is fearless, he is intellegent, is so loving and caring, he has VERY quick reflecks and he is SO good looking.

the RM 9 is well spent. so worth the price for the very good movie. so people... watch the movie~!!!

i'm late...

i got tagged by shi en sometime ago and i did not know... here is my response anyways...

How many schools did i go to?
a few weeks in Tai Ming Kindi, 1 and a helf years in Bkt Beruang Chinese Kindi, 6 years in Datuk Palembang, 5 years in St. Davids and 2 years (another 2 more years to go) currently in MMU.

Was i a studious nerd or a last minute hero?
me?? a studious nerd? hahahha~!!! i can't imagine. i don't even do my homework... not sure if i can even call myself a last minute hero...

Was i the class "taiko" or teacher's pet?
not the taiko lar... i guess if you put our whole group together, the school building will runtuh. hahaha~!!! teachers hates us~!!! we do not kiss their butts ok...

what was the biggest rule I broke in school?
i don't do big disasters... i'm a mild tornado... i love torturing the teachers. small rule breaking will irritate them. that's what i like. long nails, answering them back, do not do the homework, mimicking them, eat in class (snacking while they are teaching in fact), smuggling things planning events without approval of the school, skipping class and hiding out...and the list goes on...

three subjects i enjoyed?
Geography... English and Chemistry (i only like the tuitions actually)

three teachers that inspired me?
CYC, some how she loves me, she helps me a lot, giving me revision books... but sorry, history is not my cup of tea. then there was mr. tay cheng liat, he is very patient with me... he knows that i do not like accounting, he does not push me at all, never once scolded me though i do not do his homework. mr. danny made me excell in a few subject that i once hate, e.g Geography, because of him i finished doing 1001 questions of the revision book within 2 weeks.

People i tag:
Su Ling, Yong Hwee, Jacyln and May Pin...

What's new in Melaka?

i went to Makhota Parade yesterday with Yong Hwee, there is a couple of new outlets there. looks like Melaka is getting a little bit hipper ya? there is the shop Skin Food, i'm sure you shoppaholics in KL will be familiar with this outlet.

then there is a nother new shop called Cool Max... cute and cool merchandises are sold there. couldn't resist it... i had to buy something from there. so i bought this handphone keychain and a mouse pad. check it out.




and something scary happen yesterday too... it's either there is a conversation/thiking bubble on top of my head each time i speak or think or i think Yong Hwee can read minds.

i did not want to say it or tell her but she somehow knew that the keychain was not for myself. she ask me right on my face who the keychain was for. i was in a total shock. i asked her what makes her think that it's not for myself. later she gave me a totally logical answer lar... she said if i were to buy for myself i would not have picked that keychain cause there were a few others that looked more complicated (or girlish). shy wei~!!! hahaha~!!!

Dog Dog

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Wo Sou Bu Liou Le~!!!!!!

jiu ming ar~!!!!!!

wo chen chen de sou bu liou ler~!!!!

when my brother first when to china to work, i can't say life at home is perfect... of cause i still have a pair of parents who will nag non stop and i have to do the house chores... but in december when my cousin had to start work, she pre-to;d my mom she is going to let my mother take care of her son.

my youngest aunty on my mum's side had to let go of her job and help my mum take care of the small boy. i love my nephew to bits... but... with my aunty around i really kena tindas and can't show my full affections on my nephew... number 1 she is so damn posessive and over protective on him. there was one point where i was even ban from talking to the baby. maybe this is not too ridiculous to you, but read on...

number two, in the beginning she was ok... but now a lot of time has passed by her true colours are coming out and it's getting very overwhelming and very very irritating till sometimes i wish i could bite her in the butt. she is so f*ing negative on everything... she is so damn f*ing doubtful on everything and ASSUMES evrything won't turn out the way she once... then has mood swings out of her insane thinking and imaginations...

number 3, i think she see's my true colours now too... she can't stand me too. that i understand... but is it necessary to give me a cold shoulder day after day? which sane person on earth likes the awkward feeling at HOME rite? day and night i have to face the bitter (can't call it sour no more) face... i'm the type of person who hates to be accuse... i do anything wrong tell me in the face. if i know i didn't do anything wrong, don't say that i did. I HATE IT~!!!!

ok fine... i know you 'bu suang' me but don't have to show it until so obvious lar rite... i know you are my senior, it is not ethical to treat me like that. she will fold everybody's clothes and put it in a proper place in the cupboard for everyone except for mine. she doesnt fold my underwear properly nevermind... but she will dump it on my desk~!!!! which idiot will put underwears on the desk or on newspapers??? if you don't want to do it for me, just leave it there, i have hands, i can do it myself. not put in a very 'bu suang' way to tell me you don't like me. stupid~!!!! you choose to do it, then do it properly lar~!!!

she is suppose to go back to singapore in febuary now it's almost MAY already and she is still here... i freaking sou bu liou le~!!!! she says things so contridictingly... she will ask you to do something, then the next day ask you to do all the opposite. what the f*??? then she thinks out her problem k... actually no problem punya... but she think and think until the problem come out. stupid or not you tell me...

i really thank god that my brother is back... if not i will become very giler already... she really does as she likes... suka suka complaint to my mum about me, so batu api~!!! luckily my mum now don't scold me for no reason already... she know how her sister is like... she more on my side already. my aunty just loves to see me getting scolding lar... i don't know why also...

i really cannot tahan already... it is so freaking annoying with her in the house... then somemore she is so hypersensitive... i'm so sick of having to jaga my mulut all day... AAARGH~!!!!

life is short

really...treasure what you have now...don't complain...because you will never know when it will be your turn to return to where you came from...at that time you will know, there is no turning back, you can't do the things you wanted to, can't undo the things you've done...time will not wait for you. appreciate what you got.

i feel guilty to be happy at this very moment, i feel i should not. everybody around is so solemn following the incident of my friend, Teck Chuen. it is so sudden and so very tragic...i found out today that his injuries is beyond imagination. hi bones waist down was crushed...his skull cracked in half...his left eye could not close bacause of the stitches on his forehead.

so damn hard to accept the fact that someone i know is gone and never coming back...although i was not close to him...but he is still a person i once knew...

you will be very deeply missed Teck Chuen & Edmond...

rest in peace...

May You Rest in Peace My Friend

Let's take a moment of silence inrespect of our friend Oh Teck Chuen who passed away yesterday in a freak accident...

may he rest in peace...

pray for him...

let our good merits accrued to him, may he be happy...

you will always be in our heart...

Singaporean drama

I can't remember which drama got me hooked on but anyway, it's been a MUST for me to turn on channel 19 (AEC) at 7pm Monday to Friday now.

they are airing "Tong Xin Yuan II" now. That show is a either you love it or hate it kind. I LOVE it~!!! So addicted to it. It's about this fishball making family.

This family has 6 sons with different attitudes. They are Da Di, Da Shan, Da Qiu, Da Hai, Da Yang and Da Qiang. It is a bout how the 3rd son Da Qiu, swindle his brothers' money and tricked his own mother who suffers alzheimer's into signing an agreement stating all her inheritance to be pass to him if she passes.

it's all about family value and greed. it interresting though a little long winded. stars Adrian Pang, Cavin Soh, Pierre Png, Terrence Cou, San Yow, Zhang Yaw Dong.

superstar

now i know what it means when a celebrity says "if it is not because of you guys (the fans) i will not have made it so far"

i felt it. yesterday my friend asked me when is your turn of presentation, i told him it is the next day. he was so excited. i ask him why, he said he like to see my present, because i presented good for my last presentation.

it really gave me the strength and confidence to face the crowd today. and i tried my level best to do better to not dissapoint him. i did not feel scared or jelly feat or butterflies like i usually would. how nice to have people to give words of encouragement to you everyday... it's a feeling like you have people who appreciates you, who will listen to you. it really feels great.

though i still have to work very hard to re-build my self esteem and confidence but this really is a good stepping step to begin with. wish me luck...

after a long time

i kena marah di, i better blog...
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nothing much has happen lately except being all stressed out from all the assignment date dues and presentation. i've became so boring lately...haiz~...

i did very badly for a couple of subject in my midterm... so i think afetr this week although no more assignments and presentations, i cannot relax because i will have to start studying for my finals...hAiZ~...

aaron and i have started contacting each other more often lately too. i think he misses me...hahaha~!!! he notices that i've not been going to the temple. guess he does treasure my friendship. haha~!!!

aometime last week (thursday) i followed yong hwee back to batu pahat. had a lot of fun anf FOOD. hahaha~!!! yong hwee, i love the fish burger, next time ta pau for me k. hahaha~!!!!

and did i tell you that i'm a computer games freak now? i'm addicted to TYCOON games now. i also like the games like Singles 2 and Sims. i think i'm going nutz. i have a total of 6 tycoon games:

-> roller coaster tycoon 3 (with the soaked! expansion pack)
-> mall tycoon 3
-> mall of america tycoon
-> zoo tycoon 2 (with extra animals)
-> luxury liner tycoon
-> school tycoon

i also have singles 2 (which i highly recommend; very addictive), i hv Sims 2 too (with the university expansion pack). haha~!!! i'm a new sucker for computer games~!!! i have also need for speed underground but i don't want to start plying, or else i won't get up from my seat anymore.

so people sorry if i haven't blog or been on MSN, it's all because i'm high on COMPUTER GAMES. hahaha~!!! any nice to play games? please recommend to me~!!!

My new Sanctuary

Finally I can resume my 8 hours a day internet time because I've modified... err... or rearrange my room's furniture. I've removed my unused bed, shift my computer out of my brother's room into my room, have a SERIOUS clean up of my bookshleves, rearrange my closet, walaah~!!! my new office @ sanctuary @ haven @ hideout and a COMFORTABLE (finally...) place for me to laze... haha~!!! check the snapshots of my new achievement~!!!

i'm back

the good news is my uncle is 100% better already. he went for a biopsy on wednesday and now we are all waiting for the results. hopefully it's not cancer. all of us wants to see him well again. he is now at home already. and truly obidient. haha~!!!

i had my financial management test yesterday. it was so undoable~!!! actually it's bearable IF i studied. but i hardly read, so to me it is super difficult. huhu~!!! die lar this time.

my nephew is now a big boy already. he is a real little monster. but still super cute and very chubby. check him out~!!!

People pls...DON'T SMOKE~!!!

today is a gloomy day for all of us in the family. we were told that the doctors have confirmed that my favourite uncle is suffering from chronic lung cancer. the cancer has spreaded to his brain, and there is next to no hope for recovering already. in short, there is not much time left for him.

i know the question that's playing in your head... you will be wondering if he is a smoker right? the answer is, he's he is a big time smoker. his lungs has turned black.

if you are wondering if there was early warning? in my opinion, there was, my uncle has been constantly coughing and suffered flu on and off. he is a very stubborn man and refused to go for a thorough. he took medicine and is happy that they work as the flu went off. but he has been losing way lots of weight. but he still his usual happy go lucky self.

not till last week, he vomitted and had headache, also fever. on sunday his wife called my mum crying saying her husband has no strength to even lift up a spoon to feed himself. but he will never listen to my mum, so my mum told her to call me other uncle. he went over and litterally dragged him to the hospital.

he was first diagnosed with diabetics, then after scanning and x-ray, they detacted growth in his lungs and brain, then after further check up, his was finally diagnosed with lung cancer and the growth has spread to his brains.

so smoking has proven to lead to lung cancer, so if you really care for yourself, please don't smoke. it brings no good but in return, it will only lead to danger on yourself. think about your family and friends, don't dissapoint the people who loves you, don't make them worried, don't make them cry.

cancer really is a silent killer and a time bomb. you might be well and kicking one day and dying the next. so please my friends don't light that stick, think for urself, think of the people who cares and loves you. *peace*

Yesterday was really memorable. A group of us, Yomg Hwee, Prash, Shien and later also joined by Su Ling went for the 9 hour street jamz of Hitz.fm. it was so enjoyable!!! I myself can’t believe that I actually stood for 8 hours straight!!! The final hour was made spoilt thanks to a bunch of uncivilized bastards.

We took so many photographs with the celebrities and DJs. They are all so friendly. Ean is so cute!!! Serena is cool too. Pietro is very friendly. Rudy is a natural clown!!! JJ is really cool too. And ya, how can I forget to mention, we got the front row!!! The performers were like right under our noses!!! I would have killed myself if should I did not go.

And my life long dream came true too yesterday!!! It came by surprise. I finally saw The Moffatts live!!! Though only 2 of them (Clint & Bob) but I can’t describe how happy I’m. Since early high school days I have been dreaming day and night to go for at least their concert. When the band separated (not really separated - they r after all brothers - but decided they want to try different paths in life) my dreams shattered - cyeh...!!! But out of the blues 2 of the brothers actually are back and formed the band called themselves Same Same. And they performed at the Birthday Bash last night. Oh My God!!!

There was this stupid girl standing behind me and Su Ling who almost ruin our drools though. We were kind enough to let her squeeze in between us, she melebih-lebih and push us until I almost fall on Yong Hwee and Su Ling almost fall on Shi En. Su Ling dengan gagah nyer told her off they she went back to standing behind us. Not say we want to be cruel of what. But you have no idea how irritating she was. She was even pushing me against the fencing. Pain know... Then poor Shi En kena tolak until beh tahan he had to step a little to the back. Stupid girl!!!

But overall the party was so fun!!! I got introduced to some local bands like K Town Clan (Blast Off season 1 winner), and Frequency Cannon (Blast Off season 1 band winner). They are really good. We got to photo with Roshan of K Town Clan. He is quite good looking k... There was Pop Shuvit too. They are really good too. But I don’t like Blast Off season 2 winners though, Jiaja and The Refugees. The Refugees were not bad, but Jiaja sucks, starting to wonder how they could have won man!!! Ferhad, Jason Lo, Reshmonu, Psycho G, Liang, and Adam of Kronk made an apprerance too.

Then we got photo with Ean, Serena, Pietro, JJ, there was also a group photo with all the DJs, then there was Roshan. Us, the front row people scare off some of the more popular DJs though like Ferhad, Jason Lo and Jay. Almost all of us were demanding a photo that’s why. Then we were standing on the more popular wing so we were luckier because all the performance was concentrated on our wing, even the camera was on our side. Su ling’s mom called to tell us that we appeared on hitz.tv. I whether it was just me but it seemed like even the DJs choose to take photographs with our group. Check out of this photo we took with DJ Pietro.

My Baby Piggie~!!!

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My Baby Wolfie~!!!

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The oc craze 3

i can't believe it~!!! i've finished watching the oc, season 3 episode 15.

when will they realease episode 16 and the rest???

don't keep us all so anticipated~!!!

people, any news of the new realease, do tell me ok. if i've got any news, i will inform you~!!!

the oc craze 2

haha~!! ok FINALLY the oc is stopped being download in my limewire...

no no... don't get me wrong, it's only because that's all... well... for now, that i could download, season 3 episode 15. i've only watched till episode 9 so far though... taking my own sweet time at least i don't have to wait for the damn slow downloads anymore now.

i wonder, ok, i know season 3 has not even ended yet, but i really want them to have a season 4~!!! i love the oc~!!!

Life's not fair

I don't know why our Asian upbringing of children has to be like this...

we are taught to feel guilty all the time, taught to be afraid to make mistakes (or afraid to be punished)... We can't talk to our parents in a proper manner to sort our differences without tears. We are abide by rules created by them even if it is ridiculous. It's amazing how we can all still stay sane.

the oc craze of Leo

amazing, i manage to follow their trails from year 2003 till 2005 so far. haha~!!! and even maore amazing, i actually did it in less tha a month. haha~!!!

i've completed til season 2 episode 22 so far. ver soon season3 will be downloaded. haha~!!! but i enjoy season 1 more than season 2. season 2 is a little flat. i hope season 3 won't dissappoint me.

really. this show is amazing, makes you want to follow and very anticipating. thank god for streamyx. haha~!!! if not i will be stuck at only season 1 episode 5 on astro. haha~!!!

chinese new year lim family's reunion 2006

it's like very different this year. everybody is in a very sober mood.

as it is i'm already very no in the mood for new year as both my brother and sister are not back from china and australia respectively for the occassion. to add salt into the wound, my uncle -- who had kidney failure about 10 years back -- is in the hospital because his urine content of erm... cratenine (i don't know how too spell it) is too high. so he has to go for biopsy and all.

downstairs, if this usual family reunion, the kids will be running up and down, all the mums will be happily chattering away in the kitchen filled with laughter. but this year, my aunt -- the wife of the hospitalized uncle -- is crying in the kitchen, the kids hass all grown up so they don't run around any more, no fire crackers, my dad and his brothers and sister are more moody than ever.

man... it's going to be the longest, moodiest and lamest CNY ever~!!! thank god i was not really looking forward to anything...

how do you organise your phone?

actually i have nothing to blog about but i want to blog so let me tell you about my phone.

ever since the first day i got my phone, i was very excited. i was even more excited when i found out i could connect my phone to my dad's lappy via infrared. then i started putting in new themes and songs.

i've always liked to classify my friends with ringtones. here is what i do;

Phantom Planet - Caliornia (OC theme song) => my current general ringtone, to match my current phone theme, needless to tell you what it is.

Gavin DeGraw - Chariot => Home and everybody from the same house as me, some how i feel that song is very 'homely'.

Gavin DeGraw - I Don't Want To Be (OTH Theme Song) => Su Ling and Adeline because they are junkies of OTH = )

Gwen Steffani - Hollaback Girls => My girlfriends of St. David, we ain't no Hollaback Girls~!!!

Gwen Steffani - Cool => My close friend, Ken erm... for some reason...

Greenday - When September Ends => My ex-best friend, Aaron, he love (loved??) that song.

Happy Tree Friend (theme song) => a few of my temple friends, they really remind me of Cuddles, Giggles, Flippy and friends.

Lifehouse - You and Me => is used for my in class profile because it is slow, soft and soothing

Switchfoot - Dare You To Move => my Cousin June, she forced me to put it for her because she loves Switchfoot

My Chemical Romance - I'm Not OK => if this song plays, i probably would run and hide because it's for a erm... a 'violanist', a don't know how to shy attention seeker 'violanist'.

i really can't think of a song that is suitable for my St. Davids guy friends though... any suggestions??

life's regrets

**~who can avoid this in life right?~**

there are somethings that had happen which you wish hadn't

there are things where we said and wish after that if we could take it back

some things you wish you had not gotten involved with

some people you meet and wish after worths that they would just disappear

some places you've been wish you only wish later to turn back time and not gone

some things we did and only to realise that we could not erase

some other event that happen and you really want to forget it

somethings that has happen you only wish you had done better

some other things you only wish you could have done earlier to save the situation

sometimes you feel so down you just wish the earth would open up and swallow you

sometimes you might feel like you want to run and hide or be reduced to dust

but we all know that life really has to go on

whatever we have gone through we could not pretend it is not there

we only stand up again each time we fall

dust our dirty palms and remember to never take the same road again

there is no use crying for the past is the past

we should into the future and learn from the past

the enemy of my enemy is my friend

oh yes another thing;

somewhere last week i was chatting online with shi en and i think we were talking about the friend whom i'm having an issue with.

then he came out with the quote 'you are her enemy's friend that's why you are her enemy'. the quote was so familiar and i ask him about it he said yes it's from a movie but he also forgot which. the proper quote is 'the enemy of my enemy is my friend'.

so i went on days cracking my head trying to think from what movie it is from. in my mind if the thinking bubbles (those you see in comics) really exist, i'll be a walking comedy.

my mind was going like 'is it from meet the fo... no... couldn't be, national treasure... cannot be what... the myth?? no... batman?? it has to be batman... but no it doesn't ring a bell there...'

i tell you my mind was going on and on until finally a few days later it just suddenly popped into my head 'it's alien versus predator~!!!'. haha~!! and if been wanting to blog about this but then again the oc is more interesting. but i've finally blogged it now~!! haha

so shi en, it's alien versus predator~!!!

The OC

i am 56 episode to catch up on the oc.

who's fault is it to make me so addicted to the oc?? who?? who??

anywayz, i should have started to like the oc earlier, now i'm so left behind.

now my limewire is non-stop downloading the oc all day long, episode after episode. i'm crazy. and after every episode, i'm finding seth cuter and cuter. i like the way he talks. so cute. haha~!!!

ryan is cute too. haha~!!! but different kind of cute from seth. ryan is very sweet. going all ways out to make marissa happy.

ok, back to the show. cheerz**

my new flat head~!!!

ok, my old jelly fish head is gone and replaced with my fresh chopstick locks. hahaha~!!!

ok it is not exactly chopstick because i only did partial straighttenning (half way from the root). but at least now i can let my hair down and not put it in a boring ponytail all day long.

now i have to endure three long days of chemical stench. it's giving me a headache, not only from the stench, but also from all the stimming and ironning. but i can bear with the smell. sensory adaptation (PPS1014 - Psychology, Topic: Sensory and perception).

ok, yesterday i went out with su ling to makhota parade. we were at feng shui world to buy the magazine for her mom, but they ran out of stock. so we decided to go look for it at mph. outside mph, the sight of the 'memoirs of a geisha' novel caught my eye. and i felt a huge amount of 'chemistry' between me and the book so i had to buy it. i read it a bit today and boy yes, it tell you so much, more in there than the movie.

i tried to resist from installing any download agents (e.g limewire) but it is just too irresistable~!!! it's really not my fault to that The OC is now being downloaded into my computer. hahaha~!!!

cheerz~!!!

this entry is to signify the openning ceremony of my new comp~!!!! yay~!!!!

cheerz to my new possesion~!!!

new year, new beginning~!!!

Things that i could do this new year... let's see...

1) forget about the person whose name most mention in my entries. i really don't want to go around thinking too much about that person anymore or going on waiting for anything to happen because i don't think anything will happen. he is not a person who is sure of what he wants or not want. he doesn't even listen to what he tells himself to do. in september he told me he won't want to wear earrings anymore but in december, he is spotted with to piercings on the same ear. so may other examples, but to hell with mentionning, waste time waste space.

2) ermm... switch from One Tree Hill to The OC? ok, at least for the time being until star world decides to screen One Tree Hill. haha~!!! because cannot deny that Lucas and Nathan are hotter than Ryan and Seth right? but i admit that the girls of The OC are definately hotter than that of One Tree Hill. haha~!!! but for the meantime, i'm a new junkie of The OC. haha~!!!

3) sould i be dressier? i suddenly find myself too plain in dressing sense lar. i think i sould be more dressy. learn to put on make up. learn to pluck my own eye brows. learn to dress up a little bit more beside the same old t-shirts and jeans. i sould be more daring and make a point to try new things.

4) i shall learn to build a web site taking my nephew as a motivation and a reason to build one. i'm afterall getting my own computer and i shall install the proper programmes to build a decent website dedicated to my baby nephew. i shall inform everyone about it once i'm done doing it.

5) i shall learn to be neater and more organised too. i'm getting myself on my nerves with my ways. i will try my best to improve myself. taking my room neatness for starters. haha~!!! maybe i shall learn to organise my wardorbe according to type. ok, now, don't laugh at me ok. at least i admit my weaknesses. haha~!!!

6) and like i mentioned before, i MUST wtch the following movies this year;
i) X-Men -- oh my god i've been anticipating it, please knock my head if i missed the screening.
ii) Superman -- don't know why but just want to watch it. the new clark kent is not too bad looking too. hehe~!!
iii) Pirates of The Carribean, the dead man's chest -- don't ask, it looks interesting so i want to watch it. taking orlando and johnny as a bonus. haha~!!!
iv) The Da Vincci Code -- since i've heard so much about the book but am so lazy to read it, the movie can be a good substitude.
*i'm just very interested int these super heroes type of fantasy movies*
if any other interesting movies some along this year i will watch too.

7) i want to learn to drive properly and work toward making no mistakes on the road. did i mention that i got my license for almost 2 years already (by March 10 2006) but have not really driven on my own? my dad think that his car is too big for me. haha~!! don't ler laugh, i shy... haha~!! but nevermind. i will work to improve. we must look to the brightside always~!!!

i could not think of anyhting else i want to do this year. maybe i will update you with more the next round.

food poisoning...huhu~!!!

i've not been feeling too weel since yesterday. on saturday nigt i went for laksa with my family at bukit baru. then the fish cakein the laksa was not fresh, i knew it from the taste of it but swallowed it anyway, then of course i suffered the consequences later.

i went down with an ugly food poisonning with the 'lao sai' twice at 6 am, sunday morning. then went i thought everything was ok already since the whole day after that nothing happen already, but then in the evening suddenly my stomach was so uncomfortable, felt bloated. air rushing up and down.

so i took a bath and applied a lot of minyak angin and walked up and down in hope of easing the discomfort. but it did not get better instead when after i had my dinner, i felt even more uncomfortable. then after awhile (while watching oprah primetime), waaa... 'boi tahan ar', still so bloated. then all my dinner came back out of me through my mouth.

then i started shiverring non-stop. wore so many layers of clothes and took 2 tablets of charcoal and 2 tablets of panadol and go hibernate under my comforter for 1 and a half hours until i started sweating.

at least today better already still a little bit uncomfortable at the stomach area but better already. sorry if my entry gross you out. haha~!!!

am i boyish or girlish??

You Are 40% Boyish and 60% Girlish

You are pretty evenly split down the middle - a total eunuch. Okay, kidding about the eunuch part. But you do get along with both sexes. You reject traditional gender roles. However, you don't actively fight them. You're just you. You don't try to be what people expect you to be.

How Boyish or Girlish Are You?

keys to my heart

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to good manners and elegance. In love, you feel the most alive when things are straight-forward, and you're told that you're loved. You'd like to your lover to think you are loyal and faithful... that you'll never change. You would be forced to break up with someone who was ruthless, cold-blooded, and sarcastic. Your ideal relationship is lasting. You want a relationship that looks to the future... one you can grow with. Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment. You think of marriage as something precious. You'll treasure marriage and treat it as sacred. In this moment, you think of love as something you thirst for. You'll do anything for love, but you won't fall for it easily.

What Are The Keys To Your Heart?

because of you

** this song best discribes my feelings curretly -- i noe the song is dedicated to a different person by the composer but it just sound so right to match my current felling and situation **

Because of You - Kelly Clarkson

I will not make the same mistakes that you did
I will not let myself
Cause my heart so much misery
I will not break the way you did,
You fell so hard
I've learned the hard way
To never let it get that far

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I lose my way
And it's not too long before you point it out
I cannot cry
Because I know that's weakness in your eyes
I'm forced to fake
A smile, a laugh everyday of my life
My heart can't possibly break
When it wasn't even whole to start with

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I find it hard to trust not only me, but everyone around me
Because of you
I am afraid

I watched you die
I heard you cry every night in your sleep
I was so young
You should have known better than to lean on me
You never thought of anyone else
You just saw your pain
And now I cry in the middle of the night
For the same damn thing

Because of you
I never stray too far from the sidewalk
Because of you
I learned to play on the safe side so I don't get hurt
Because of you
I tried my hardest just to forget everything
Because of you
I don't know how to let anyone else in
Because of you
I'm ashamed of my life
because it's empty
Because of you
I am afraid

Because of you
Because of you

** dedicated to her **

p/s: i really can't believe you did it... you disappoint everyone...

i will not make the same mistake...

i won't want to dissapoint my parents with the same mistake she made...

all this while i thought she's merely a person i could not get along with. but now, she just made it worse by making that mistake. she just lose all my respect i have for her. i'm not sure if i could look at her the same way again.

she'd better straighten the mess she's got herself into. she could not believe she will do what she did. she has aid it with her own mouth she will not repeat the mistake my aunt did, but she did.

she has never been that sort of a person in my eyes. how could she even think she will get off easily? hasn't she seen enough. haven't she have any idea how hard it hit my parents when it happen before? i thought she was intelligent.

now it makes me miss my brother even more. it makes me sad and feel like crying...

eik~!!

** shi en, if you want to read the cronicles of narnia book, i advise you to not read this entry of mine, later you say i potong stim only **

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i feel like blogging but i don't know what to blog about. ok let me tell you about the 1st book of the chronicles of narnia, the magician's nephew.

it starts with the intoduction to digory (who will grow up to be the professor), a boy who moved from a countryside house to a town house to live with his uncle and aunty who was taking care of his ailling mother. he met a girl named polly, his uncle's neighbour's daughter. the loved exploring the place, in particullar their attic.

digory has a weird uncle which he barely know what he's been up to. one day while exploring the attics, they found a mysterious door which turn up to be the door that leads to his uncle's very exclusive study.

there his uncle tricked the children to wear a ring which he claimed will lead them into another world. as soon as they put o the yellow rings, it led them to a mysterious wood that had many shallow puddles of water. there they realise that as sson as they put on the green rong and jump into a puddle, it will lead them into a different world.

they discovered charn and accidentally woke the evil empress jadis (who will be the white witch in the later book). jadis followed them to our world in a foolish hope of taking it over. there they came into an ugly fight which involved the children, digory's uncle, a cabby and jadis. the children brought the 'troop' into the puddle woods and incidently into the will be world of narnia.

at the world of -- at first -- 'nothing', they witnessed the creation of narnia by a singing lion. they watched the world blossomed into greens and livings. they also witness how the lion made the leaders of each species a talking animal. then they learnt the name of the lion is aslan.

aslan punished digory for introducing an evil to the new world. his punishment was to travel far to bring him the silver apple. so there digory met jadis again, she stole one of the silver apple and was feasting on it. she tried to temp digory to eat the apple for himself and not have to bring it back to aslan. but digory did not listen to him.

once back to aslan, he was given the honor of plating the magical tree (from the seed of the silver apple) to keep the evil witch of harming the animals in narnia. aslan gave digory an apple to be brought home and aid his mother.

with the seeds of the silver apple he fed his mother, digory planted it at his uncle's backyard. it grew into a tree though not as magical as the ones in narnia. years after digory moved back to the country side and after the huge house by the country side and also the town house became his, the very old tree was derooted (because of old age), now the professor, had it chopped up and made into a wardorbe. that is where the wardrobe of the wardrobe in the lion the witch and the the wardrobe was made existed. the end of the first book and the beginning of the others.

the start of a new year

**First of all, i wouldlike to wish all my friends a very HAPPY NEW YEAR~!!! may all of us be blessed with good luck & health throughout this year. may all of us be surrounded by joy, love & happiness. may this brand new year also mean the renewal of our freindship~!!! love all of you people to bits... *muakzie* **

ok my friendship with aaron blossom to best friendship on january 1st 2005 and ended on january 1st 2006. how ironic.

i can't believe him man... how can i b so nieve? he made me happy and i fell into his trap. i treat him nicer and he just blew me like that. i really can't believe it. i really feel like burning him if not on mtv's burned, use real fire also i don't mind. set his pants on fire and we will get goreng pisang and telur.

one minute he acts like he cares about my feelings, next thing he is comfortably snuggling up with another person. like wat the f**k. i should have known when it happen for the first time, secretting his girlfriend from me, why did i let it happen again? stupid me~!!!!

so therefore this year i not going to waste my time on another guy like ken or aaron. i'm going to live each day as it comes and not going to hope for pigs to fly. i'm not going to let another person use me for their convinience.

i'm not going to make silly resolutions that i might not keep. and it's time for me to think more of my future and what i'm going to do in life. i only hope to live on my life's principles and morales. and not going to let silly small things get on me that easily anymore.

if i really need to make a resolution, ok... i will. i'm going to watch these movies, x-men 3, pirates of the carribean 2, the da vincci code, and whatever movies that will trigger my movie interests. hehe~!!!probably i won't want to be too generous any more...

and this year, i want to learn how to drive so that i won't have to trouble anyone anymore *shy* *shy*

i made a new good friend on january 1st and if u believe in omen (like shi en said), this might mean i will have good friends throughout this year. yay~!!! haha~!!!

my final exams is around the corner but currently i'm addicted to reading my new the chronicles of narnia story book. how? i'm torn between two. haha~!!!

alrite enough of blogging for now. blog again later.